Maybe it is due to the fact when I write my personal viewpoints as to the facts of which to having not put in such writing as to my internal thoughts to such as those are different from my opinion and different to how I feel as well as different to when picking up sensations and so on and so forth, as when taking into the factual considerations of what I dealt with while being in Washington state as to the zapping among other such aspects to which aside from the facts of such as well as the problems from the other aspects explained; I actually was beginning to enjoy #WA #Washington #WAstate #Washingtonstate Washington state in the year of 2016, of which if people had just left me to be as I was working on to take care of my son and myself to get out of that situation though onto other situations I would have been much happier in all such references thereof. However since such situations became as such and had interrupted what I was doing because of whatever situations instead of simply speaking with me in truth by asking me in truth, I returned to Texas as per my responsible nature as to clarify such portions in comparison to what others may have thought.
I did not return to #TX #Texas #Texasstate #TXstate Texas for any friendships I once had, I returned to clarify what was a problem as to other situations to what once was as considered to such. I did not return to Texas for any such relationship as to what I remembered as to my biological mother or my biological father or my biological sister, I returned for my ability to clarify things as best as I could for my daughter and once such situations as to the sensations picked up as to the ways such went; there was only going to be one way, and my way was going to be the only way for myself. I did not return to Texas for any relationship as I did not need to revisit such portions in my opinion as those individual(s) who may have at one point in time have thought of such, they easily could have spoken with me in person as I would guesstimate as to such individuals having known I was back in the state of Texas as to such times. I did return to the state of Texas to explain the situations to #CID CID, I did return to the state of Texas to clarify to the local state and headquarters #FBI FBI, and I did return to the state of Texas for who I once had been engaged to as thinking that the situations as to the finger portion of which I had remembered as well as a few other situations as to the aspects regarding the similar sounding name though having been dealing with the electrical residual portions as to it took from the month of returning in July 2019 through to around April of 2020 before the residual portions began to subside enough to tolerate certain aspects in such regards. As from my postings from when I returned to onward during my reviewal processes from the year of 2019 through more recent times in the year of 2021, obviously such aspects could have simply been asked in comparison to ostracizing as why would that ever actually benefit me?
Did people arrogantly think I did not know about what situations I personally dealt with if they went to Washington state and chose not to speak with me in truth and if so, why did they choose not to speak with me in truth? What were those people hiding, as to what they were doing in such a location and having chosen to wrongfully speak in lies to me knowing the facts of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and/or not speak at all to only then be considered as childish instead of as an actual adult and not just biologically as an adult?
Hence why I was completely comfortable as to the situations referencing the quarantine as to being left alone in all such comparisons as to what occurred supposedly, as per what the news reports as to such times were while remembering the facts of which the fake news as to the situations regarding the technology problems as to which if such fakeness was a situation regarding such problems regarding the technology aspects; it only reproves such abuses to me needlessly as well as only proves such needless biases as well as only proves there was not ever one person I ever once knew who ever actually cared about me in truth, as there would not be anyone who would ever needlessly restrict me as to any such portions as to my perceptions as to what I personally earned on my own if there actually had been any genuine care and real concern. I needed to do for myself what I needed to do for myself without being bothered or abused needlessly and wrongly any further, as someone who actually cares would have actually spoken with me truthfully in person from the start in comparison to arranging situations and staging meetings as well as preventing any such portions of what I actually needed as there is not nor would there ever be any point or way which I would ever see anything else as to the ways of having been treated as a Prisoner of War at all such times as to the needless situations as to throughout my time within the state of Texas especially after what occurred between the years of 2000 through the year of 2013 from all such individuals as to any such similar type of situation as to any such needless staging as well as the lack of any such humanity in any type of way regarding that sort of treatment.
If there are those who could actually prove to me as to being incorrect as to the ways of which such treatments were not as such, then I welcome the change to see such differently. However if there are portions of which are accurate to the facts of over 80% in full truth, then there is not nor would there be any way for me to ever see any such groups of situations as anything other than terrorism.
How sad as to the facts of which I had chosen to stand up for those who were in the state of Texas as to the ways which I head dealt with the realities I had personally dealt with while remaining as calm as I possibly could have, as there is not one person I could ever think of who would have ever been able to withstand such torment as to the ways which all such situations had been over such lengths of time for their own selves as well as their own families as well as their own friends as well as their own loved ones they have cared about. However as per not being considered as a real Texan as to the references as to how such situations occurred regarding the emails thereof as to having brought other aspects forward, my choice to then in turn after such refusals of me only to then make my choice as to why would I ever continue to fight for such a set of situations as to that state when the ways of such aspects were as to how such had been?
Did those people within the state of Texas torture me enough as to what their problems were regarding how I physically look as to how many problems I dealt with regarding those types of situations, and what as to any such actual help and assistances for what I personally needed after #SCUBA #SCUBADiving SCUBA Diving to such portions was ever beneficial to what I have needed since the year of 2009? What does any of those people or any such connected individuals actually care about such aspects when taking into consideration the facts of whatever technological portions thereof, and why would I ever have any reason to believe there ever was any point which I ever mattered in a positive way as to any such portions thereof? Why would anyone ever take any type of SCUBA Diver who would play a game during any point in time as to SCUBA Diving situations seriously, as would it take a head injury to figure out SCUBA Diving of any type is not a game and is not of which something to play with as does it take a head injury to figure out SCUBA Diving is a serious aspect of which the realities of such are of more importance than any such types of?
All I could pick up to such situations was only being in such a #POW Prisoner of War situation in comparison to ever actually being wanted and cared for as to the situations of which I personally needed and not what others assumed as to such aspects, though what should I expect from such situations as to which those people chose to use my creation of the Underwater Wedding without my permission as was always required and always needed in a specific manner? Why would anyone ever think to actually ask me as to what would be required, or did that take a head injury to figure out as to what questions as to simply just speaking with me in truth and the whole truth and nothing but the truth? Why would any such point of the amount of abuses I personally dealt with ever be viewed as to anything other than what I personally should not have ever had to deal with and yet, why would that ever have mattered upon returning to the state of Texas if such a group of individuals thought that would ever work?
Let me guess, some used douche bag or used enema bag though it would be a good idea to test such as to a Prisoner of War from overseas in comparison to just being a decent human being from the beginning.
How about this instead, work on such yourself instead of needlessly abusing me any further in such comparisons as I did not need any such portions any further than I already dealt with from childhood and teenager years and adult years as if there actually was a concern how about this idea as it might be something out of the box though not really; how about just ask in truth, as to what would actually be of importance in comparison to making problems over and over again as to why would it take a head injury to figure out that repeating the same patterns as to what already occurred would only cause an individual to refuse to be around any such types of people? Does it take a head injury to figure out there is not any excuse nor cause nor reason that anyone should ever have to go through such and let me guess, which sexist piece of trash thought that would be a great idea because of instead of being a decent human being as to actually being caring while claiming as to whatever aspects of females or is it that there was not ever any concern for females to begin with and that should not take a head injury to figure out to begin with as why else would anyone pick an unattached female who had not one person in her life as to ever truthfully caring about her best interests? I would ignore such portions in person if such needless individuals would not be as such as I did not ask for such treatments and I did not need any such portions as to those situations, as what lack of humanity in the multitude thereof.
In reference to another aspect as to my modeling before I fully stopped because of the lack of any care as well as the lack of any genuine concern as to what I personally needed for myself in regards of the state of Texas in the year of 2012 and 2013, who has ever modeled for a poster girl on a ToF flyer who did not sleep with or have any consensual relations with the owners as to ever being on the flyer ever again? Who had ever had a situation which another individual had to show up during the photoshoot for the flyer as to the Temple of Flesh as Celtic Cowboy or john Virreal had as to the situations thereof for the next sets of posters, to not ever be asked to have any part of such flyers? Why? Is it an assumption that any who had ever been on a Temple of Flesh poster of what aspects, and what is a common theme for any individual who had not ever had any type of sexual portion involved as to any point in time at any Temple of Flesh event? For clarifications which for such reviews as to such aspects, I had more interactions at Club Sapphire than I ever had at Temple of Flesh regarding any sexual portions of which in turn that means there were a total of 2 situations at Club Sapphire from the years of 2015 through to 2019 of which none were ever sitting on top of a protruding portion for clarifications; of which from the years of 2004 through to 2013 and if I had only two situations in Club Sapphire for the 4 years I was volunteering in the area as to the timeframes of 9 years as to no such physical contact other than a hug hello or an hug goodbye, what is the wrongful assumption as to any such portions as to anyone within the supposed to be adult consenting lifestyle?
What lack of any such comfort could be noticed from such aspects, especially having been born and raised in #NJ #NEwJersey #NJstate #NewJerseystate New Jersey and along the east coast as to the ways thereof which I had been a virgin when I was moved out from the state of New Jersey for clarifications in the year I turned 16 years old; thus for those who have assumed about people from the tristate area, what would it take for such clarifications as to stereotypes are not nor will ever always be able to ever fully describe anyone at any point in time?
Any SCUBA Diving males in the situations which were problematic and what sexism would be able to be found and shown as to such situations, when taking such into consideration? Let me know when I should actually believe in female rights within the United States of America as to what I personally earned as to the work I personally had done on my own, after such hypotheticals.
Thus in such references, why would I believe there was humanity after what I dealt with after such amounts of time? I do believe there is humanity in various areas, though where such aspects are as to what I personally dealt with apparently must be in some far off place somewhere in the distance over the horizon as to what could possibly be as to consider as such which I do not know where such would be for the considerations thereof; though possibly such is actually out there even for someone who is simply as myself despite what I look as and what I have dealt with, somewhere.
I will believe it, when I actually can believe it in truth without pretenses.
If any individuals wish to claim they feel as a Prisoner of War because of the situations as to their choice to use my Underwater Wedding without my permission after having incorrectly made choices as to my recognition as it should not take a head injury there is not one of my SCUBA Diving recreational civilian instructors who ever taught me of what I needed to do to take care of my SCUBA diving when in reference to the oceanic waters, as I did not think it took a head injury to figure out there was not anything except the certifications of how to use the equipment which I already knew though was taking a refresher course in such comparisons; of which why would anyone ever think those people were ever responsible for anything which I accomplished on my own as last time I checked, I went SCUBA Diving in the ocean and handled the situations on my own without any assistance from any individual as to any area as to my personal work thereof and thus any such individual who would wish to take credit for what they did not accomplish themselves as to my work would only infuriate the beings of the oceanic waters as I did not think it took a head injury to figure out when I told those people as to where I grew up in New Jersey and where I went to the ocean and how I personally earned my way as to my work within the ocean over such years from 1984 through to 1997 as to going to the ocean and how-so; that had always been my personal working and my personal achievements of which my personal aspects as to what I personally accomplished, would only be as accepted as to only myself as to being acknowledged for my workings thereof as there would not ever be any requirement as to anyone else being acknowledged as they would see such as a full insult as would restart what I had actually stopped as to the terrorist attacks on 11 September 2001.
Why did I bother actually working to stop such portions as to the workings thereof as to such times in the year of 1996 application and tests thereof at that time as to #MAST #Marine #Science #Technology Marine Science Technology School with the #USNavy #Navy Navy attachment as to my fighting to have been emancipated to be able to join the #USArmy #Army Army branch of the Untied States of America's Armed Forces after such in the year officially to join in 2000, as to later my Blue Identification Card of/for the Armed Forces of the United States of America of which if anyone tried to begin to make my creation of the Underwater Travel System they would look at such as an act of declaration of war against them in the oceanic waters; as I did not think it took a head injury to figure out all anyone had to do was actually ask me in truth after clarifying their personal clearance level and ranking, instead of such childish choices.
Then again the male in reference to #Cancun Cancun/#Cozumel Cozumel as to my SCUBA Diving looked similar to my biological mother's sister's husband Mark Stanley of which the failure of that individual to ever have been a decent human being from what I had seen in reference to when in #CrystalLake #CrystalLakeIL #CrystalLakeIllinoi #ILstate #Illinois #Illinoisstate Crystal Lake Illinois there is a cousin type of look as to such childish needless situations as to those situations, though would prove such other factors as to what I had told people about in truth as to how abusive sexually he had been in reference to the ways he had been when I first met him as to the sexist comments having been informed knowing that I was sexually assaulted less than 1.5 years prior to meeting that individual and was in the process of waiting for the court case regarding such; of which what type of humanity as to any such connection from a supposed Catholic individual, which as to the high school I was attending at the time for such disgusting portions of such types of what would be considered as pedophilia as to any such types of individuals putting recording devices into the high school locker rooms as to the times of such aspects hypothetically?
I see nothing has changed as to such aspects of the mandatory requirement for consent as to ever being a part of which in turn the consent as to such was not ever given as when not asking first as to the lack of consent in every such way thereof, which by all accounts if such was a reality as to any such recording devices in the high school and/or middle school locker rooms for children who are under the biological age of 18 years old and/or actual real consent as to anyone above the age of 18 years old biologically which for clarification I have not ever given consent as to any such portion of that for myself or for my son #Letters4James or for my daughter #Letters4Lidia ; though as I told people in #SJV #SJVHS #SaintJohn #SaintJohnVianney #SaintJohnVianneyHighSchool #Holdmel #HolmdelNJ #HolmdellNewJersey Holmdel New Jersey where the technology aspects as to the factors of which to the software development as to #Prudential Prudential as to the individuals thereof, what would be considered for such a hypothetical if anyone were to have ever found any such recording device as to the realities of which all such aspects would be considered as illegal in the areas thereof to such technological portions as to the recording device(s) in what is considered as the highest oversexualized portion of which would be which #Halloween Halloween overall costume for such females?
What was that #Tatu Tatu song about, and what was the news report as to how such was found to be as to the video?
Why would anyone intelligent ever think there would be the requirement for consent, when taking such into consideration as to any such portions if such hypotheticals as to what is considered as a private location such as those locker rooms and/or in the current reference as to my apartment or any living location as just because my website is public does not mean in any such ways as to anything else being considered as such as unlike some people I actually have modesty, and unlike some people I would see such as a declaration of war against me as well as a Prisoner of War situation as to not ever consenting nor ever having any question as to whether or not I would have ever consented as to the facts thereof to which I do not consent to ever being recorded in any such ways as to any such types when not outside in a public location that is actually a public location in comparison to assumptions as to assuming as to any portion as to my website being public as to the same as that in turn would mean you can have that for yourselves as well as to the karmic portions as to each and every individual who had ever made such a choice as to any such illegal surveillance as to such stalking as well as harassment as would be considered as to such portions in every aspect thereof.
The last declaration of war against me wrongly though the most specific thereof as to what work I had done to stop such problems after what occurred on 11 September 2001 only meant that such portions of which using my Underwater Travel System design as to additionally using my Underwater Wedding, the Underwater Wedding officially kicked off the declaration of war from those in the SCUBA Diving portions as to all such work I once had done to save everyone along the coastline and such other aspects as to the lands which people live on was all a waste of time for me to do in my opinion; as all of my work for such hypotheticals as to using my creation of my Underwater Wedding as to such aspects additionally to put online, that declaration of war to the pace beings as to the ways of which Irving Texas in the year of 2011.
Why would it matter as to anything I personally ever did correctly for such situations to have been as such had been, and the lack of return contact as to any such point in time to ask for actual assistance on land as to such portions as to why are human beings repeating history needlessly as to the realities thereof as to the ways of which I have been mistreated as to the levels thereof as why did I ever bother to save anyone at this point? Why would I ever believe anything actually mattered as to anything I did with the ways such has gone, as why would it be of any importance to have simply asked me in truth compared to all such assumptions as to I would just speak about such after how many people had made the choices as they had made over such timeframes as to the years specifically from 2009 through to the current portions in the year of 2021? Why would I ever believe there was not the biases against my physical look and/or my background and/or etcetera from each individual as to such aspects, as why would I ever have the sensation as to being considered as unwanted just in general in comparison to only as the sensation of being considered an unwanted artist as to the ways such aspects have been? I am going to guesstimate there are those who additionally broke my Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork pieces as to their own problems of which those pieces were for protection from other such situations, though why would that ever be considered as important and why would it ever matter for someone to show me proof of identification as to the realities thereof to my background as to my clearance as to the branch as to the Armed Forces of the United States of America?
What did I ever do that was worthwhile I wonder, as what has been the difficulty to simply just ask me in truth in person after showing me the proper identification to prove such aspects as to a reason to go into such details; or did it take a head injury to figure out the facts of Fort sill Oklahoma as to my reasons for choosing such specific MOS choices to then go into the MOS I had gone into, as which individual who has been in any such MOS could explain as to any such sexism as to the timeframe of the year of 2000 to having had at that time prior to the upgrading portions as to Omega? I do not think it take a head injury to figure out as the ways which my SCUBA Diving had gone as to other such hypothetical portions thereof, only show me as to what problems as to such sexism throughout such aspects as to there is a difference between being a feminist which lifts others upward equally as to the lack of concern about biological genetic gender in comparison to those who have been feminazis as to pushing others down because of whatever discriminatory portions of the feminine aspects as to any type of feminine energy as to such in my opinion. I did not think it took a head injury to figure out I earned my Omega status in the year of 2000 just as I did not think it took a head injury to figure out my Omega status compared to another person's Omega status would be different depending upon the MOS, as I did not think it took a head injury to figure out the facts as to my SCUBA Diving additionally to my clearance of Omega status back in the year of 2000 of which I did not think it took a head injury to figure out such aspects by others as to their official declaration of war against everything I personally stood and stand for; though at this point, what does such matter?
How do people actually make someone such as myself have any sensation as to actually being wanted in a positive way as to actually caring about me as a person, in such references of any type? Speak with me in truth by beginning with such aspects as to speaking with me in truth when you first introduce yourself when using words, in comparison to assuming as to any other such portions is the best start to that type of a beginning. I did not think it took a head injury to figure out if others who knew me in person from the state of Texas heard me speaking whether they spoke with me in truth or not would be able to say as to how I had introduced myself within the state of Texas within the state of Washington was probably the exact same, as why would I begin any discussion as to my website or any such books when those who knew me in person within the state of Texas if honest would be able to speak of how I did not ever discuss modeling sessions as not one person ever asked me for my opinion about such as no one ever asked me about any photographer throughout such years; except for one female when in the year of 2012, when I had clarified to her as to the facts about one photographer who I had defended myself against as to him being far too handsy when in my house in Carrollton Texas and though he knew I was engaged to my then fiance for the first time as to having done similarly to the aspects of various other times of having needed to defend myself, as who in person when I dealt with such had defended me in comparison to having had to defend myself as well as defend others?
The answer is there is only one situation out of the entirety of all situations which I had to defend myself or others which thankfully in reference to #ClubSapphire Club Sapphire three males stepped outside one by one to fend off a male who had refused though needed to back off and back down and stay away from me, which looked similar to a much older version of Rob Castle from #TaeKwando Tae Kwando as to the problems he had when I repeatedly told him no as I was not ever believed throughout any location for any point in time as to not being allowed to date before the age of 16 years old which why would that matter to begin with when I had also told him no repeatedly as he was not ever an interest to me as he and his type at such times fully disgusted me. Though, what did that matter then or now as to any such aspects of female rights and right to choose for myself on my own behalf?
What is it to be able to relax in the ways which I would personally find as relaxing and what is it that I ever did that was actually worthwhile for me at this point, when reviewing such aspects?
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