Part #2 of 2 Parts
The situations regarding such a location were not asked specifically of me though I had written of such portions to which if accurate in some other ways and regarding to writing, I am still glad I sent a piece of paper for if correct in such that was the only safe way to be able to help where possible and if accurate the ability for some safety and cover was at minimum there to help where possible as the interrogation later would prove such though before the paper itself and before sending to The Library of Congress before publishing prior to mailing books before sending links online. I was unsure if in turn that also meant he had gotten such emails much later, though the situations in a larger context to the smaller aspects when thinking about such portions overall involved, were still needing and requiring information; though not as to the further informationary portions to ever be required for such in an official context. However the realities of such a time were, as they were as a hypothetical aspect combinations regarding the levels and connectionary points thereof.
The one little Faery sitting down and blowing a kiss with flowers was a big deal for me though as certain situations were at such times, the ability to dote on and on about such at the time was not a possibility the same way I had wanted to. I had looked for such a statue since as per situations at the time regarding such then before the second and the final separation in full, and in some ways certain aspects kind of feel a bit similar in a different way. Those who once had thought my heart was made of stone probably learned that when they knew me how much warmer my heart had been at such times, despite the specifics thereof via situations. I know through one aspect of someone I once knew in person had said she was surprised how my tone of voice was much angrier than she remembered, which as to such times the ability to calm such was not available for the tone of voice. I cannot deny wondering constantly about him though not being able to admit such to anyone was a concern of mine, because of not knowing what his job had actually been regarding such if actually in the Army branch as I was told at the time and being in San Antonio Texas AKA Military City USA meant the requirement to be discreet in a different way having remembered certain portions regarding my childhood such as the underground pool in New Jersey and uncertain if those who I spoke with could see something more than I was able to put into words at such times for multiple reasons; though would have ironically been able to get such information taken care of if I had graduated Basic Training and AIT to go to South Korea, though also the irony regarding the Chilis situation and his particular response regarding the male from Korea who was mad at the Nagasaki and Hiroshima comment.
As per the requirement for unknowingly possibly picking up that the MOS was a bit different if I was accurate for such or if a case of which was different to such thoughts, then the aspects thereof have been as they have been. I had not stopped caring about such an individual despite not having gone very far, though also knowing compared to many of the various types of females and the ability to travel all over the world; I simply figured if the time came and he learned of such aspects, I admittedly wondered how such a situation would be if such truly was real feelings as felt. I have misunderstood aspects several times before as to not picking up on certain hints as the blatant truth has been important to me as the portions regarding only being able to tell the truth, though after that song on the jukebox after listening while wrapped up in his jacket next to him in the restaurant and hearing the music about the super male aspect, I told him I painted a sunrise/sunset/sunrise painting which over the oceanic waters the sun was shaped as an S within an upside down looking pentagon; which I told him I had hung in my San Antonio Texas house, in front of the area where the desktop computer had been in the great room area above the beige couch and cherry wood oval coffee table with white doilies matching for the end tables. He chuckled saying he meant something about a comic book which I told him I could remember comics from the newspaper though did not know what he meant by comics, which then the green haired male and him had chuckled briefly until they realized I was being serious as the three of us sat at the table which then the chuckling stopped and their faces were quite taken aback via the view thereof and then I explained about movies and television shows which in turn the questions flew. After the end of the time at the location to go on as we chose to go, then the discussion about the Faery statue and I told him about a medication a little bit I had in which he was surprised I knew certain aspects.
When the situations became what they were later after he left to go back to South Korea and life went as it had, to then later deal with a few situations over such times in which ways; I was told one of the males my now dead-ex-husband had been in the lab with was having a birthday which he pulled out the jacket, which was left for me. Already knowing the non-choices which were for such a time I had agreed holding onto the jacket sleeve and only having been out from my coma for going on 5 years which still having the portions of the subarachnoid hemorrhage, I pulled onto the sleeve knowing to remain quiet about such as there truly was nothing I would have been able to do as the non-choice of fighting over the jacket for it to only be destroyed was a non-option just as throwing it away was a non-option, and thus the holding onto the sleeve for an energetic portion was all I could do to make the best of the situation while hoping it would possibly be known and understood more easily whichever ways such went. The black leather exterior with one inner pocket and two outer pockets with a bit of a pouf almost similar to a bomber style of jacket with brass buttons and zipper, was a specific texture to which I knew I would have to seek to find something remotely close to the feeling which I could remember from the jacket sleeve with the reddish blackish brownish interior lining with the leather tag in the back of the neck area which similarly to the specific Faery statue was as it was. It was a situation needless to write at such times back in 2005, and though I had sought to find something close to what I had found before regarding such a statue seeing such in person compared to in a picture was extremely different in various aspects. In a way I thought for a brief amount of time after making a pumpkin pie of some sort of similar aspects though unable to figure such out officially, as there were a few additional circumstances which had occurred since then if had been such and the inability to recall such a situation more clearly at the time in 2009 near November.
If the curiosity had been as to why certain aspects the way as to how I am is not one who takes certain aspects lightly and for such a situation regarding the size in aspects thereof, that specifically takes situations only to one particular level for such a type of relationship as per knowing a bit more about the female body being a female while not having denied such aspects of feelings in a multitude of ways and yet knowing myself enough to know how I would be as per portions which some might not have ever realized of me despite knowing my lower numbers regarding such despite what I had written in certain specifics. That particular series of which PotL being just as in regards of simply only pushed me more towards being reclusive in comparison because of how I naturally am to begin with and thus, the only way would only be in truth as such of anything else would be fully rejected as per the situations regarding far more than one book series or one book thereof which as I am as I am; would only enrage and push me further away in comparison to ever pulling me close, as such a choice to release Fail-Safe as it had been in comparison to only going through the process I had arranged meant those in such groups would not ever get me to ever feel comfortable if an individual lie was ever told to me during a discussion. Even simply denying to admit such aspects of having seen my website would set off internal red flags because despite how I look and despite having been in the lifestyles of adult consent as long as I have as well as despite what I have written, because I am only me and I do not think as others do which in turn would only be a repulsion to such and would cause me to walk away fully. Such a violation of privacy as well as violation of my rights as well as violation of my pursuit of happiness as well as my Constitutional Rights and Amendments simply added to such aspects regarding McCoy Elementary and CFBISD with the needless targeting and portions thereof because if a female truly appreciated her own sexuality, she would only purchase such a book in comparison to stealing such intellectual property rights as well as a male who actually appreciated such times with a female would only respect such in the ways which would have been deemed as considered as respectable by being honest in comparison to such a choice to release such for download the way such had been done as seen regarding Fail-Safe and such assumptions if not having downloaded in comparison to simply asking is a similar response if not figured out by now; as quite frankly, why would anyone think telling a lie would ever be ideal? If that is your preference as to how to begin a relationship in any such way, think about how such has ended for you previously for such choices and why would such ever work out in the long term and/or the longer terms into the longest terms thereof? What would make someone think that would ever be appreciated unless only to slight such aspects, other than because of their own insecurities in my opinion. A female who would willingly illegally download such to spread around would be viewed as less than respectable because of the lack of concern for such who had written the book series, and would show the lack of concern for the lifestyle in a general way in my opinion. A male who would illegally download such would in turn be wondered as to why would ever be thought to be as acceptable, as would if you were in a monogamous relationship ever want such aspects towards such in the unearned sort of way towards your feminine counterpart; or would you be greatly angered and upset, if it was who you were involved or interested in?
While I could be misinterpreting, there is the fact of the lack of truth from multiple people who I know would have looked at such and the choice to not acknowledge or taking a snail's pace to move to acknowledge does not show the appreciation for such writings as it was not written on fetlife in my account for multiple reasons because fetlife was not allowed to ever release such and the lack of concern for others' safety after all of the threats which had already been reported online as well as in person was not ever taken into consideration I would be certain thereof. While I do not doubt the ignorance regarding such a website caretaker thinking as to only knowing what was seen, the fact of how many laptops went through Best Buy and had not ever had the PotL series on such meant the leak came from my email address and which the ymail company or once yahoo would be to blame for all such damages as per the only email account ever having such books on purpose. Who in which company would be ignorant enough to not ever think what he had done regarding such internet aspects would have ever been done by my biological mother and not having paid attention to the coding and software aspects I previously told him of as well as not paying attention to anything more than what was directly in front of his face, while denying the fact of having explained multiple portions of my life though having a wife who would think she would ever have such rights while being fully denied in all ways within the Dallas BDSM lifestyle? Who would think they knew magic in a dark way and yet would not realize what I could do with such energies to take such away and remove from fully with one singular blowing of air to fully clear all such energies out to remove such problems fully, and who would wish to be able to cover up the ideal scapegoat by forcing such against the one person who denied the aspects of the Dominant Mentor Program while also getting a rank of when not ever taking into consideration the larger aspects of my son and my daughter's safety when the lack of concern was already present by such an individual with a Marine Corps tattoo? It was ironic as to the quickness as to when speaking of such an individual in the living room outside of the room which had a lock and key to keep me inside as per the threats I had previously told others about as per the way the foot arrangement to the bed was to the room, though why would anyone actually truthfully care as to tell me the truth?
Why would I ever believe there was ever genuineness from such regarding, when as many people as I spoke with in person as well as on the phone as well as online had their own biases as per what they thought they knew in comparison to the fuller aspects as to what had been explained and was known to many who were not always posting online as per my biological mother spending hours on my laptop each time she ever came over to my apartment and/or townhouse and/or house(s) claiming she was updating my laptop; which Geek Squad and Best Buy would have possibly been able to find, if they knew which to look at as none of the laptops ever were returned to me except one which had been updated by who had targeted during the Stoney LaRue concert at Cowboys Dance Hall. Why would such a timing in March 2013 ever have anything to do with anyone else when I had not been involved officially more-so in the lifestyle, and who would have benefited the most regarding if I would just stay out of the way compared to what safety protocols I had worked diligently to put into place for such specific groups of mine as well as discussions?
I thought a Dominant was supposed to have self-control, at minimum that was what I was taught as to when in reference to temperance. Maybe morals and ethics should have been focused on just as much, as per the longest terms into eternity as I had warned about thought what did that matter when my daughter was already going through as as well as my son as as well as myself which I had discussed earlier having to disarm my daughter on a military post; though what could someone such as such ever see regarding my safety as well as my daughter's safety and my son's safety when throwing a temper tantrum about whatever gossip was going on during such times, regarding how many phone calls regarding Lady Robin telling others one thing including TM in reference to others' opinions and the fact of having a daytime brunch instead of only in the evening as preferred by others while the lack of concern about my own schedule was a problem for such.
What about the Home Depot phone call in the store when shopping in 2012 before winding up in Washington state, or the people who came to San Antonio from the DFW region via Brandon from the San Antonio community? Or did such other people being involved such as Celtic Cowboy and others who were in my apartment such as Ana and Matt not ever cross anyone's mind, even with the laptop situation having been brought up by them online regarding the Air Force laptop? Hey, just think. In 2013 I was only 13 years out from the coma which means in 2012 I was 12 years out from my coma, in 2011 I was 11 years out from my coma and in 2010 I was 10 years out from my coma; thus at 2004 I was only 4 years out from my coma, and my subarachnoid hemorrhage only was completely gone in the end portions of 2007 which means technically what? Would that mean in 2008 that would be 1 year without the subarachnoid hemorrhage and then 2009 would mean 2 years out from that time, which even though there was and is the residual damages from such; who would ever be around numbers and such which would have and should have been more intelligent to figure out regarding such, in comparison to wishing it was only biological age for someone such as myself? Who would only think the tattoos meant the age as well as the hairstyle was considered as how was with proven biases of throughout such areas within the state of Texas, in such a futuristic way of look? What is it to be in a truthful relationship of such which there is actual loyalty with genuine concern, real compassion as well as actual need/want to be with that particular person without interference from any unwanted and unnecessary aspects as per such proven biases thereof if accurate? The ironic twist of DFW looking down on Austin and Austin looking down on DFW for claiming to be more qualified and yet the lack of an open mind to anything other than what the DFW view of what they think is considered as beauty in their views, compared to who might have actually seen such as thought because of such was denied due to such arrogances upon others' parts? Or since associated with ClubFEM, what would a group which would refuse to take a step back to ever see outside of their own box and their individual clients ever be able to see in a group which was originally designed for a night out without such aspects of the profession because of their own proven biases? I am glad to have given up such a group at this point because what was the purpose was destroyed before ever being able to get the way I was designing such to go, and the lack of desire to ever be a part of such is completely in full because what ever was the point to ever continue such without such truth as realistically why would such in such a profession ever need such truth to begin with in such aspects? Who would throw a temper tantrum the most over writings while forgetting to ever look beyond what was seen online and yet have such similar aspects for such in person aspects to ignore the realities of the interrogation after having disarmed my daughter, and who would ever have actually cared at such a time when it was actually needed? I cannot tell because even though I begged at one time for such individuals I once thought were family to be there in person via emails as well as online, I later remembered what TM told me about such a group as they only cared about those who were in their profession which since that was not anything I was personally interested in because of the lack of ability to disassociate such aspects as per seen regarding Texas and seeing such aspects; the additional proof as to how such would not be beneficial for me, and why I had always known myself despite whatever you once thought you could think to have known; not forgetting my SCUBA Diving gear as that obviously was unhelpful as to how much that one truth would have saved more such as my family with my son and my daughter and I.
What is it to actually receive the credits due for what good had been achieved because of such written and compiled by one person only, in comparison to what has occurred? What is it to genuinely have such different than exactly how my dead-ex-husband had been regarding such credits I had earned and the lack of ability to acknowledge such, without having had that pointed out to you? Is it you truly preferred such situations as to how he had been and if so, then maybe my life truly was not anything any of you were able to relate to in any possible way in truth. Then again what would be considered normal for some would try to decide what society has already dictated as such, in comparison to a truthfully revolutionary set of ideas and principles which even prior authors were able to get such fruits from their labors in ways which were beneficial regarding ones who had actually written something worth reading. I suppose such is to be viewed as it was not worth reading because it was free and the choice not to pay for such proved such of a lack of anything worth while, when looking at how society has pushed forward such ideals; to which hey, is that not what people had wanted where I would see how society sees normal? Thus what would be the excuse as to want what society views as normal then want to go in an opposite direction to such out of spite and without any concern when looking to the two children who were both minors as well as such ADA because ClubFEM is an actual registered online and registered trademark group, as I learned which in turn would be the least accommodating group to who was known to have such aspects and refused to accommodate the needs for a non-professional Female Dominant in a group which later was learned in the time when Ana and Matt said that ClubFEM did not want or need any non-professional Female Dominants and since younger than I biologically and with a male counterpart in a group supposedly for Female Dominants; as I was told they were fans of ClubFEM, and they had read many comic books and graphic novels which enticed them to be a part of such a group and sought to protect them as they saw fit in regards of.
As Matt said to Ana he was stationed in Thailand as well as the male who had been regarding the Cowboys Dance Hall Stoney LaRue concert had said he was stationed in Thailand as per Ana's discussions with me on the phone as well as in person, who was always in your plain sight though because of looking more acceptable to such in various areas would completely ignore the warnings of such because of judging a book by its cover? Who would know technology more while also throwing a temper tantrum for being smoked for taking an Air Force laptop off of Lackland Air Force base compared to who would have been length of time though the eyesight being weary because of the years of looking at such screens and missing important pertinent details, such as the laptop and the time at the Galleria in Dallas which the portions of all the trunks' belongings somehow went missing? Who was new to the group and who was there when the actual drama began, compared to who was not anywhere nearby to be found because of what had already occurred in the San Antonio area which such connections were similarly there? Who would be the last into the group though the first to be overlooked because of not knowing how long online they had paid attention to, and who actually preferred the swapping compared to who was not available for such by my own choice? Who would think they knew how to help better and yet in the end only cause more damages to what already had been brought forward in truth and would wish that simple things such as a trinket here or there would ever make up for what was done in the larger aspects as per such clients, and yet at the same time internally knowing the dread of such aspects while the lack of concern shown as per TM regarding his house fire to Lucille's apartment fire compared to the stuff I was dealing with and how accurate was TM as well as Ana and Matt? Who would think of me for such immediately and yet, the ones who were always the problem were actually in the spaces with you in comparison to not being anywhere near and focusing my attention to what legal aspects were going on in my son and my daughter and my life; despite the false claims online, as well as the proven threats as per actual situations? Who would be the most simplistic to take away from such other groups of the lifestyle while sneaking around to such groups to then blame and when I was in Washington state, how much of your own situations had to be dealt with and seen for exactly who and what was the whole time?
#ADA (Americans with Disabilities Act) applies across all spectrums, which includes the adult consenting lifestyle communities whether or not some wish it were not so because of their biases of the way such physical should look; and what type of violations to Constitutional Rights could such a group ever be considered for, regarding Freedoms earned by others though such not actually earned oneself by signing that one type of dotted line for Enlistment/Chief Warrant Officer/Officer in the Armed Forces branches of the United States of America's Armed Forces while wanting and wishing for more which then the greediness is the problem for such an aspect of the first two books not being considered good enough to release my way and would think that would ever be considered as accepted when fully not, though who would care about modesty in truth? Why would such ADA rights to me be important in such, well at this point there truly is not the need for such care any further as per the requirement for such truths to be spoken in which to know and understand more clearly for the comprehension. Though what would such people ever see in the regards of my son and my daughter, which could be viewed wrongly no differently than a will and trust law firm? I earned such rights from the ocean, those are not transferrable and such choices made by others only re-enforced such aspects to in both above as well as below while in between.
Nope, I had always been the ideal scapegoat though only for so long as per what occurs for such aspects.
So, what is it to genuinely be told the truth? I know I have done so in caring concern, though I have had what in return for actually helping others and yet being another version of stolen aspects from me in vain? What is it to have a business which can actually be successful as to how such is normally reviewed for such as per what was shown as per such for a business, out of curiosity? What is it to have people who say they are in person and/or online friends, actually be truthful friends? What is it to have a family beyond being a Mom since less than 1 year being awake from the coma after waking up from the Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, and be taken seriously without question? Thus in 2004, I was only 4 years out from my coma with the subarachnoid hemorrhage still in the frontal lobe of my brain and about 1.5 years to begin to show improvement where the actual difference was noticeable to be seen regarding such a blood clot moving to dissipate and in turn the portions of minor aspects in combination with ADA and more which if pushing out if realized even though spoken of in truth; did anyone ever think simply telling me the truth would have been a smarter idea, or did that had not ever cross anyone's mind until I wrote or said it and when? If so or only until afterwards as to such writings, at what point does that then translate to anti-slavery laws and regulations because of the constant pressure needlessly while knowing of me being zapped when in the area continuously to the point which people were timing me while I was volunteering in comparison to babysitting themselves instead? I know when I was in the Army as well as sleep away camps my biological sister had to deal with the fact of who she had always been while wishing that I would take such types of attention away while she had the designated decoy for the portions of, and what occurred while I was in Washington state before October/November 2013 compared to from 2008-2012? I would not doubt that such a lack of concern for such would actually simply be shown when looking back now, as to how few ever said of the truth as to reading or seeing anything I wrote which in such writings repeatedly writing the same portions because obviously the repetition when in person which was complained about was needed? Yet the repeated even in writing of such aspects was probably ignored as much as it was ignored in person as per the lack of the simplest of truths as to simply same my name in comparison to hiding as well as admitting that had either gone to my website and/or reading my books though such hot or stolen items would be considered as what to the Homeland Security office? What again regarding Fort Sam Houston JBLM and the rave, and CID regarding Sergeant Baber and how could such books being released be viewed in such exact same ways as per the discussions in person about the time though the lack of concern thereof in person for anyone to me ever apparently? Oh, I did not ever need to get married to anyone who did not ever truthfully care to tell me the truth in full without actual hesitation knowing how fast I move. Did anyone ever take into consideration that what might feel like a day to you, is the equivalent of a month or a year or a decade to me?
I repeat, ADA. I do not want or need to be a part of such a lifestyle community ever again nor such in reverse if without truth, my mistake for thinking such was a worthwhile endeavor as to truthfully earn my own way via the moral and ethical ways I saw and knew as per my type of what is considered as societal normal aspects; though my mistake for believing such human beings were along the same line of such, as per their own words and what they claimed as their beliefs. I suppose my group idea was assumed in one direction and since such was not able to ever begin with me beginning the meeting on my own without anyone else involved, then such aspects are not incorporated because of the reality it was my group to begin with and had not begun as I intended such to begin as per the ways of which I had planned. My particular group W.H.I.P.s which I did not get to actually hold any meeting on my own after creating the group, since I was unable to have the opening meeting begin in my ways; there is not the connection of the same portion to such a creation I made, as I doubt the aspects to which I had fully intended to discuss in person were not ever brought up by my own self as I would have had to be there for such to occur which had not ever been. Thus in such I am saddened s to certain portions regarding how I intended such to be, however I have seen that the group went in whichever way it had as per who it was given to because of what was going on in my life at the time; especially after first bringing such up which the 4th of July was around the time of asking about such, and a week later I had the situation which occurred as it had as I wrote about on my fetlife page account. Being shoved after a few additional situations regarding the 4th of July 2012, it was not helpful after having to disarm my daughter shortly before such a situation and combination of events. It is a shame none apologized to me for such regarding as to how the situations were and having explained such other portions in person as well as online, though the situations were as the situations were. I know someone accused me of a few things I had not done and the false accusations thereof which made no sense to me, were as such were at the times thereof. Hence also not liking surprises, for those particular aspects which previously described in various ways and as to explaining multiple reasons to simply be truthful when speaking with me and/or writing to me.
I personally had done as to how such is viewed in other arenas, whether in the sky and/or in the water as per such connections which seem needless to ever actually discuss in which would be considered as what I would accept as public in comparison to what others would wish regarding mumblings. What is a great mood? I have heard of such aspects, though I have barely been able to maintain a good mood and even then what is a good mood to one is what to me regarding my mood? I am uncertain to be honest, as that has thus far been the furthest I have ever had in person with anyone else in a longer length of time. Then again, my version of longer term would actually be as such in comparison to what some view as longer time as that would be the linear portion of such aspects of time comparatively to the way the time goes day to day for me; as I already explained in person, as well as in writing.
Nonetheless regarding such gifts most have only been done so when there has been a conversation which I was left on the floor bleeding as however such, and/or after having to defend my son and/or my daughter and the beatings which occurred left me on the floor because of the conversation aspects, and/or after being stalked and others were harassed because of the problems wished seen though were caused by such to then try to cover up such problems caused, and/or because of anything except what the truthfulness of a gift in truth is would be how I have mainly received any type of gift or as per a holiday or one birthday which was also only to cover up the forced relationship as well as the time in the garage after each portion of which was considered as wrong with me was pointed out and disgusted is that feeling though also pieces were broken before one hour out of the packages. One Christmas one kitchen appliance in the color of the work I had done to my house which I had created as a home once with a point going to a ball which was only towards after the speeches and discussions with people who were holding such an event, and not because of having to get a set of gifts for the ball either though because of the time on the ticket despite what was said on the radio in comparison for all who were going to. One Christmas present of a vest which was not anything I felt comfortable in and to be given such in a way by as such knowing of the Female Dominant and not taking into consideration what my personal preferences actually were because if going onto my laptop would not ever think to see why or how I would put anything in a saved area, though would also show as to who else went onto my laptop in such times from 2011 when living in Irving which that portion would of course be overlooked because of which last name for such an individual and how would my son and my daughter and I be viewed by such a last name apparently of such type of which people who were considered as what compared in regards of more well known last name compared to myself? Do you mean, hidden in plain sight for certain groups? One birthday present which was the most ap-pro-pro of any choice of words for a cement stone for to place near the Rest portion and who referred to when placing such there next to such a stuffed figurine purchased in Olympia Washington which read, "Don't piss off the faeries" after the so-called anniversary gift of going to a concert in a casino area by myself while knowing of such electrical problems as well as headaches and migraines because of the lack of interest in actually being seen with me in public after a photographer went up to me at the Steele Creek Country Club after taking multiple pictures of me as I was told though when looking only found a few, which I was told the fast turns were to get the light out of my face while not considering the vertigo in the slightest as to how such would go for country music dancing and yet the knowledge thereof and not having ever saw a flash of light from a camera as apparently the shaming others do for a difference of opinion in the Washington state area with such types of millennials of that type of liberal refused to open their eyes to see what they were doing was purposefully causing harm needlessly in my opinion of certain types of millennials.
Yes, the y or the why generation time.
Why would such ever be considered as acceptable or ever considered as normal to you, and yet when you have such a saying as keep portland weird and yet wondering why others want to get away as fast as they can because it is you who push them away because of your creepiness to not simply tell the truth because if you are told to back off you need to back off so back off including the illegal recording aspects when in private locations which just because I complete my typing for the public that does not mean any other portion was ever allowed or considered ever to be accepted or acceptable for such illegal recordings hypothetically in any and all ways? Why would comic book writers not want to be anywhere near any of you comic book people is the reasons why you have gone to such levels which you have to get yourselves out of in reference to other aspects which were not yours to begin with as per the stolen intellectual property means you stripped your own rights away from each aspect you ever stole such information from even if you downloaded from a different site then through my author page on amazon as linked through, when you think about such truthfully. In turn the choice to do so means you sold your own soul for free to who is deemed to do with as such pleases in comparison to having stolen such and then such theft of a human being physically and the intellectual property rights for thoughts as well as the theft of the portions regarding relationships/sexuality/emotions and the theft of pieces of my Medal of Honor Art Project as should have been revealed and actually informed of such because of the historical/spiritual/religious rubbings of markers of Medal of Honor recipients which only the finished pieces are allowed and not the process permanently as per no answers means exactly such in return without the truth for such and since I specifically said the requirement for discussing further means the impeding upon my Freedom of Religion in the Judeo-Christian view in the modern era illegally and against such rights I earned for myself and what pieces are and always have been considered as mine, and lending such to for such displays is exactly as such a lending process as per the respect shown is the respect allowed.
Thus with such lack of respect regarding the requirements to discussing the details with me personally to be able to ever be allowed had been denied by such individuals and the lack thereof means any agreements made were not done with my personal approval which in turn going against the Freedom of Religion twice, and not considered as a double jeopardy because of such aspects specifically stated when in a public location in the street which meant the security cameras around the location as well as any microphones and/or recording devices additionally would have picked such up and the denial and removal of such would be mandatory as per the specific requirements stated in a public location with however many recording devices and since such would not ever be considered as back-date-able by the standards of my Medal of Honor guys' spirits' personal commands to such human beings the shame it is that you deserve fully in comparison to me. In ways ironically the Pentagon would be humbly overridden as per the spiritual aspects and religious aspects thereof automatically because of the specific declaration of the requirement for the discussions to occur prior to ever going anywhere which would have been planned out in the room I was kept in with a door having a lock and key not much different though partially different than the locking of me into a room by my now dead-ex-husband yet by another person regarding the Cowboys Dance Hall Stoney LaRue concert. If in an investigation, was it something that took a head injury to figure out my Medal of Honor Art Project would actually need the requirements of officials with producing identification which would prove such aspects thereof to actually speak of such as how many times had I been lied to by that point in time as per already having said as such if there were not those who had lied and falsely accused me for something(s) I did not do as per other circumstances previously to my Medal of Honor Art Project beginning or as I worked on each piece at such times in Washington state and as I have gone along? Well at minimum, thankfully you yourselves recorded your own destruction using your own equipment for your own sealing of your own aspects by your own hands for such larger and further distance individuals. Did that Excalibur Faire aspect metaphor, reappear yet again?
So, what is it to be actually valued as a human being? I know I had done so for so long, and that turn around has been as it has been as seen as per the most simple aspects. If wishing as to other portions, why would that ever mean anything to me as to what others want? When was it I had actually gotten what I needed and wanted, with such length of time for such in truth for myself personally for which is more relaxed within reason?
Nonetheless at minimum to be thankful for though much more though in reference to such aspects, the one gift I had ever been given in a just because aspect of the timing of the relationship which was helpful and actually beneficial just for myself from someone else to just give to me as was explained in other portions; though such a short amount of time, it truly made a bigger difference than probably initially known of at such times despite what occurred. I was going to begin painting the statue I was sent though I simply liked it the way it was, as I did not feel as though that would have been needed as it was a gift given to me even though through the mail though the thought was genuinely there to find such for me. Yet ironically also having a kind of Faery wings arranged similar-ish shape to the Faery wings I had purchased at the Excalibur Renaissance Faire, which I had been falsely accused of being a Faery and the situation which occurred prior to such false accusations to have a fake sheriff with real metal shackles and a real jail cell metal cage on a stage arranged at the Smithville Bastrop Texas area in 2005 earlier from such a time when meeting at the Bandera and 16 area meeting 410 in Leon Valley Texas for the IHOP time of meeting that one male who had sent me a Faery named MeeLing as he used my name to be able to name such a Faery.
I had not fully processed such at the time because I had admittedly little knowledge as to ever having received a gift before in the way of both before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as well as after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, with the exception from my Bok Gung and my Bok Pu before such times in 2005 before moving from New Jersey to Illinois such had been taken away from me because of my biological sister and my biological mother.
Sadly I suppose depending upon your view point I guess though in as much as having to write admittedly feel the sadness of, as the realization to such. I do not know what occurred regarding how the rest of his deployment(s) had went and hopefully had been kept safe as much as possible, as I hope as I hope. However such was the only gift without having to guess anything as I cannot stand guessing games as per situations which occurred when I was younger regarding my biological sister, and how she and her friends had been which were an annoyance to put mildly as their favorite phrase was guess who and the aggravations needlessly being as such; well I suppose I can turn such a game they played around in certain regards, due to the fact of guess who in your wedding day when using my son and my daughter while denying your biological sister from being a part of and the situations are as the situations are. I was informed which my biological parents and biological sister said their favorite male they ever met who I introduced them to was and would always be, my dead-ex-husband. I suppose in a sort of way as to what well would be for a spiritual and legal wedding indeed in different aspects and ways as per such a willing gift, though admittedly I laughed in certain times which some did not see or know as to why such had been in reference to and to which such a set of situations to find something to smile about is as such can be for someone as myself who has dealt with as many situations as I have which tends to cause a different sense of humor to which those who have not experienced such can find some portions to smile about in comparison to those who have actually experienced such aspects to find something to which might be a more positive way to view such situations.
The fact of in some ways I suppose in an ironic way as to the only birthday gift I had received at the time of such when in 2006 from my now dead-ex-husband of an earring and necklace set which the guys at Atlantis Discovered picked out for me as knowing me much better than my now dead-ex-husband, as well as the Faery and the Dragon ornaments they picked out for my birthday gift from the first and only time of ever having such throughout the time of the legal marriage only; was those particular gifts or presents which were broken within less than 3 hours from actually opening the presents, and were fixed where possible because Cactus Jack AKA Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr knew where the glue was to put the pieces which could be salvaged together at the time of though was unable to keep the pieces because of other situations. The irony of the only other technical gift however you want to look at such especially since I had spoken about a song regarding The Dance and other prior situations before moving to Illinois as I had gotten in trouble for requesting cassette tapes by Snoop Dogg and others before getting the Ace of Base cassette in New Jersey for a youth group trip out from the Old Tennent Presbyterian Church, would be the song reference to which I was told as to the lyrics meaning more regarding the situations at those particular times overall referencing Blue October's song Hate Me by my dead-ex-husband's opinions as he said that the video perfectly had made sense for the times to which how many messages he as well as others chose to wrongly delete to prevent me from getting such messages because of other situations at such times was apparent to the regards as to how much he as well as my biological mother and biological sister and biological father had wrongly gotten involved with what was not ever theirs to get involved with regarding whatever messages were specifically meant for me to be informed of various situations which were of importance to myself and my son and my daughter because of their arrogance and because of their egotisms had needlessly cost others' lives because of their choices. When in reference to what was in such ways as to what was absolutely mandatory and needed for their choices without any actual cause except if to try to cover their own behinds, then the reality of such coming forward through FSL to clarify across all areas if there was ever any doubt as to why I might not have responded would be because of the fact the possibility of others deleting messages which was not for them to delete or be involved with.
As my high school big brother Kenny would know how the situations would have been regarding how the responses from when in early 2001 as to the response because of the situation regarding how I was being treated at the time and on since from 2000 in the apartment complex at Lincoln Green which the lease was signed in October of 2000, the additional twist of irony as to emailing Z100 as well as searching to find one male regarding who had been remembered from the start of waking up from my coma after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and seeking to find him while seeing to find pieces of my past to be able to figure a way to put my own life back together as to what I knew needed to be taken care of more correctly because of the other situations as to why I had fought so much to be a part of the Armed Forces of the United States of America for as long as I had as initially thinking when if I had gotten into the Marine and Science Technology School with the Naval attachment would have been good enough to be able to explain such once accepted and in uniform; however since I was wrongly denied because of my biological mother and biological father getting in the way knowing I was going to the authorities about everything I had seen and gone through as they knew I had already told others before Baptist Camp Lebanon as to what I was dealing with because of them and what they personally were doing which I knew regarding the attic, the crawl spaces, the pool area, the fruit and vegetable garden area, a few other locations, and also the well regarding New Jersey among the forest area behind where the housing development had bought the land to build the neighborhood; each individual attempt I made to get to the correct individuals which would be clear and uncompromised fully was even more difficult. Upon remembering such and when my now dead-ex-husband spoke with my biological father and biological mother, because I told him he needed to speak with such at those times because of my personal requirement and how such would be viewed. Since that requirement was set and stated by myself as to what the rules of such were going to be as well as in other ways for the living regards are the mandatory aspects in reference to dating, regarding my son and my daughter in full; which would mean the only approval one could ever get would be to speak truthfully to me about such and no one else prior to asking my son and/or my daughter about dating, though especially a marriage of any type which includes a legal only and/or a spiritual/legal marriage as per the previously stated and commanded by me rules for such times as even though the emancipation I had fought for the respect at such times to my biological portions of where I began life compared to the other portions once thought of possibly by some as a symbolistic action as to knowing and having explained such portions to multiple people at JBSA. Thus, the mandatory aspect despite the other legalities are and always have been fully mandatory in full truth despite what some others might wish. Look as to how the situation had gone regarding learning of my biological sister's engagement, and how such was dealt with regarding not having been informed as to her engagement for the exact sort of response as to how I would view such to anyone else regarding my son and my daughter. I dealt with a conversation to make such to be, and thus the mandatory respect for such is the requirement and always had been since I had made such a rule and I had fought to make such mandatory despite the backlash at the time; as I created a way for it to be a mandatory aspect for myself as a Mom, despite the problems which were a situation which was mandatory in other regards as well since in such times as in now in 2021, I am and I was not the only Mom who had needed such a specific sign of respect from anyone who would ever think to date one of my children as I was pregnant at the time when the requirement was made after the forced proposal as the ways to which I knew it had to be done despite the reality I spoke and wrote of regarding I had gotten the firearm safes taken care of personally and those firearms were on the installation of the JBSA areas in my now dead-ex-husband's room for clarification if there were those who had not known at such times.
However Kenny would know as to which levels certain other portions were as would if anyone else had ever called the landline, as those phone calls were not forwarded to me the way they should have been as well as the only one computer at the time and not knowing about log procedures because of only being 3 full months out of the coma when signing the lease at Lincoln Green. As my now dead-ex-husband had admitted to tampering with evidence and had shown my biological sister and my biological mother as to how to change legal military documents illegally because of what he learned from some people he had known in Fort Polk area of Louisiana as well as Carswell Air Force Base in Fort Worth Texas area, the problems needlessly though are easily able to be seen where the starting point had been at such times. Ironically the first time I had been taken off of post to go into the civilian sector had been the weekend of 16 September 2000, which is an additional irony regarding my first oceanic SCUBA Dive in the Gulf of Mexico waters regarding 16 July 2009 which if you know some aspects to the spiritual meaning of numbers that would make me a number 7 though with the number of 3 for the other portions would make me a 1 at the same time with the zero portion regarding both the rank level because of the Article 15 as well as the having not graduated Basic Training; though few of any in any portion of time prior to more current times beginning more towards the timeframe of 2019, is when anyone ever learned of the actual coding I personally had done in such times between 1988 through 1998 in New Jersey. The oddness regarding the flag situation additionally is a twist, as even though I remembered the male regarding The Dance song; I was able to remember the overall congregation of Old Tennent Presbyterian Church more, as well as Asher Holmes Elementary School with some of Robertsville Elementary School associations and friends/family from the areas and connections to, Marlboro Middle School, Marlboro High School, and Saint John Vianney High School in Holmdel in New Jersey and the Freehold Raceway Mall people I had known in an overall way compared to a specific individual way for some because of such situations and such times regarding 11 September 2001. I had diverted the nightmare portions of which was and as per other portions regarding other situations when sleeping though not sleeping regarding visions of a lack of a better word though astral traveling in a different way and completely different format as to how such was, the ways to which the completion for what was able to be fully averted regarding such aspects then meant knowing I had to find the ways for a better life for myself as well as for others.
Some had told me their opinion of what I explained was a Savior complex which I had to ask what was meant regarding such a set of words which similarly to my now dead-ex-husband who wished to be as such as the portions regarding the twist of be careful what you wish for, as at the same time wishing to prove that there was no such thing as the requirement for religion or spirituality and at such a legal binding contract with the Justice of the Peace Judge; the ways to which I knew was needed and required continued to prove my purpose and in turn, would mean such guarantees permanently as to the choice made to meddle in the Army aspects when the approval was as it was at such times. The good which has moved forward such as the Center for the Intrepid and the Warrior Transition Unit and/or Medical Hold Unit(s) is important because while some who are active duty/national guard/reservists had looked at such individuals including regarding the VA as lesser than; the importance of such individuals even when in Medical Hold Unit and/or Warrior Transition Unit and/or the VA system is and always has been far more than most ever thought of, because of life continuing on when not in uniform having already been a daily reminder to properly take care of the health and well being because not of and not for the civilian sector in such specifics; though in reference to regarding the active duty, national guard, and reservists who were not in Medical Hold Unit(s) and/or Warrior Transition Unit(s) because at some point in time the uniform does get retired-ish in which ever ways though the mindset is not a uniform. The regards of the medical health care situations in Canada which I had warned people in the United States of America about the common healthcare for the civilian sector in comparison to what was going on in the Armed Forces of the United States of America which includes veterans I thought in my opinions as to such explanations specifically in 2010 onwards from such situations, now has become to be proven regarding the COVID vaccines and the quarantine situations with the slow release into the general public opening way of life because of how many preferred to have the common type of healthcare within the civilian sector and giving such better healthcare from such times to those who specifically sign the dotted line to be within the Armed Forces of the Untied States of America at the age allowed of 17 years old with parental consent or in my case the emancipation process from November 1999 through to March 2000; though waivers can be signed for certain medical conditions, other medical conditions cannot be where a waiver is signed because of the amount of high risk and dangers from such as I had explained as best as I could to my daughter in 2010 as well as in 2011, as to the amount of people who could be impacted from which possibilities of such for the larger numbers of. I did what I could using SCUBA Diving as an example before bringing up how she had wanted to be as I had wanted to go into the Marine Corps to earn such a way of recognition which I told her I had not been able to do because of other portions which had nothing to do with such a waiver; though I was only able to explain certain portions despite having always been open and honest with, which knowing the specific other aspects to Marine Corps Basic Training in more than just movies I can honestly write and say as per the Merchant Marine aspect of my biological father to know the requirement for the most people's amount of safety to protect the innocent as best as possible. My daughter was guided as best as I could guide her though her choice to prefer others' opinions and such while also internally knowing of the truth I spoke was an additional set of situations, as per the comments from others regarding the connection to the Armed Forces of the United States of America.
How many children from military connections as dependents during the Korea War, Vietnam War, Desert Storm, Desert Shield, Iraq War, and Afghanistan War have had to needlessly deal with certain people's political opinions in the school system when their one and only job is to teach the information for the school as their opinions are invalid because of what their contract is and has been? How many parents have been wrongly allowed to give their opinions to children to push their agendas in the overall groups compared to sectionalized group settings for such to discuss and assist one another, comparatively for truth and openness? I am and have been hopeful as to my son being able to shed more light onto such different portions I could discuss within reason, though was informed as to him knowing he could not push certain areas without my personal approval because of the information regarding the level of my clearance which as best as possible to explain such though the requirement as to the level of my clearance at 17 years old and having earned such additional portions was not informed of, as per clearance level aspects as per knowing with the registration through the Library of Congress as well as the publishing to mail to then also create two links only for the only books I deemed appropriate as to do such with; I did warn him to be careful as to who he spoke with before I began organizing my paperwork in 2013 when in Vancouver Washington, which after the situations regarding the apartment below had begun was another set of reminders as to be careful as to who he spoke with about such details as I informed him it was important to remain calm and to remember I am in charge which he knew I meant regarding also when in Tacoma Washington and another set of reminders before I gave him his copy of my first two books for him to read through along with why I only allowed such. However I could see him wanting to test the Fail-Safe aspects as to if anyone would ever download such to cause a lesson as to why you should not steal from his Mom, especially after what I knew he would be smart enough to be able to assist to find more of for certain reference regards. How many people have seen how angry teenagers and angry college students can be during the times up to 2013, which might have a better knowledge and understanding as to the reasons why I truly did not want to have to get a piece of paper sent though may also have a better clue as to why it was mandatory for such at those times regarding the aftermath of such publishing as who had which children and where places before 2013 when I wound up in Washington state? Whether a Republican or a Democrat, possibly the overall portions of that sent paperwork may make a bit more sense as to my personal knowledge as to what could occur and doing the best possible to keep as many as safe as possible despite the usual code for silence; as sometimes, the silence has to be broken because of the larger aspects in ways which were barely seen even by those within such employment areas at such times before. How does the military aspects go in reference to protecting as best as possible, and how do such connections when known already of such problems happen to be completed; if in a military aspect regarding the safety of the homeland for the Untied States of America and treatied allies, in such regards in as peaceful of a way as possible? I knew I was going to hand the first two books as well as the CCBS and Fail-Safe to my teenager son and I knew my son would speak with some people I personally chose to send him to, which included other teenagers as the fact of knowing he would either be in Middle School or High School age range and their families would have unknown connections; as to warning him to be careful yet again each time, to be careful as to who he had spoken with and what he spoke with who about what.
In reference to the gifts once again regarding the song by Blue October called Hate Me from his biological father towards me as well as how much I personally did to protect him and his sister, it was explained the song was for everything I had ever done and ever endured because of choosing to be a Mom instead of what he wished I would be. The contract was repeatedly discussed over the years from 2001 through 2008 as to what was owed more discussed from November 2007 through to January 2008, as I thought there was more he still had to confess at such times and why I have repeatedly said and truthfully so as to not having seen him in two days and being in a different part of the city at the time of his death. I had been expecting a longer amount of time to have the confessions he still had owed for such though his choices as to what his decisions to purposefully cause harm instead of purposefully choosing safety for the life to continue onward for more in a better and clearer way, had only been the first surprise at such times regarding; though also having been told of the choice he had hoped for himself as to his idea for a death by officer and choosing to wear a known stolen valor Army uniform for pictures as well as to walk around in San Antonio AKA Military City USA and knowing of such even including the Fast Eddie's Pool Hall tournament situation referencing my American Flag Beetle t-shirt with glitter; he said he saw an opportunity from the situation he could not pass up, when learning I had defended and had stood up regarding the truth as to the rules and regulations as well as how vehement I had been about being honest regarding not graduating Basic Training for the Army branch when such times were as I refused to assist with the breast cancer research without the credits being given to me which I had earned on my own for my personal assistance for the research lab at UTHSCSA which he was infuriated as to why I would be allowed to sit at the table during the Christmas dinner. As per how each and every so-called surprise from such times had always been abusive or covering up his abuse, then the fixes and repairs which were required for anything further in such a time was as such was to then go through further aspects regarding as to the additional surprises lying in wait because of how many people he had gone around and saw while he wore his stolen valor dress blues uniform throughout the city of San Antonio and telling them my name as to who was his ex-wife as well as how much I refused to acknowledge having graduated Basic Training because I was considered lesser than him for the situations while he was wearing his dress blues. I was informed of such as well during such times though unknowing as to how the stolen valor had been at such times, which as such problems occurred and as he laughed as to how he was going to make things right and correct for what he thought would occur to me when he realized seeing such at the Pump It Up location for Brooke and Danny's birthday location at the time in 2007; there is just one of multiple times from the few weeks he had been wearing those stolen valor dress blues, and the initial needless impact as to how it was affecting my daughter, my son, and I. One of his major apologies after the situation occurred because of him stealing valor though not admitting, as he recognized several people he had seen when he was wearing the stolen valor dress blues around the parking lot as well as the location itself of Pump It Up and the teenager millennial female who I yelled at for not paying attention when she flipped the switch to turn off the blow up chair as my daughter was sitting in the chair at the time and then whining afterwards as to how I yelled at her and hurt her feelings for her turning off the switch wrongly without any concern for the safety she was supposed to be paying attention to for one spot.
The manager tried to offer two free passes for the ability to return to Pump It Up which I refused, because what occurred was unworthy of such a low cost paid for what I knew before getting the explanation and the female teenager was the cause of what was the needless problem to begin with. What did anyone at such times truly care beyond Emily and my now dead-ex-husband's rage regarding how there I went again in reference to making sure the correct aspects were taken care of while he spent time with everyone else, in such aspects? After defending my stance at my house after making sure my daughter and my son were taken care of correctly, I dealt with listening to the apologies for each aspect while cleaning up my own wounds from such defenses; as to hoping from now on officially in 2021 to be able to simply actually be able to relax, to enjoy life in comparison to constantly having to deal with others' situations because of their connections in comparison while being denied wrongly as was the plan for him as he made an agreement which he could not refuse as he admitted to many including my biological mother and biological father and biological sister, while working with my biological sister to ensure the greatest impacts as per what was owed to only to me and to fully turn everything back around towards her as she wanted and needed to feel as an only child and was the source of what the problems were to start with to clean up fully. She hopefully got what she deserved in such ways when there is no one else to blame for such, in comparison to being the only one who helped genuinely to better in honest ways as best as possible in the truth compared to the lies which caused the problems to begin with.
I knew at a point in time of how frustrating it was to constantly be told others were tired of hearing the repetition regarding the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as they heard me discuss such before, and yet would complain about the portions when I forgot I had told them about the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. That confused me repeatedly though it took only from 2000 through to 2013 to realize I had done such as many times and in as many locations at multiple times, to then in reverse be blamed for when I forgot what they told me because of working on something else or discussing a topic with someone else which they had interrupted the discussion to the topic those and I were discussing. I have explained multiple times as to the way which I process situations is not the way others process situations in which the portions regarding how I process situations as best as I possibly can, has been told to be considered as lesser than and yet the work I have completed has been ignored regarding such as how such situations have been noticed aside from the one time of hearing POTUS45 speak of several topic points I had laid out in the first two books in each newscaster speaking along some of the lines of each of the topic points which had more sources as to exactly what I had warned of previously over the years as I had sent such FSL books to multiple locations well before ever putting the links for two of the books only for such dropbox downloads; purposely choosing only those two, because of the requirements I could see in other avenues and was why the other books were sent for the clarification as to not hide I had written such though not a link because of the acknowledgment only of such writings and my choice for such was to protect me regarding the adult portions for the above 18-21 biological year ages. Just because of sending to music companies as well to only have in such in comparison to the downloads, as there was always a difference between music and books full of writings; which while musicians prefer to be in the spotlight, authors prefer to remain in their own comfort in comparison to those who actually want to go onto a stage compared to those who fight going onto a stage because of not wanting to go onto a stage or a field for cheerleading or a beauty pageant or a set of questions asked with having to hold a microphone or etcetera as per the amount of situations which I have not wanted such and expressly explained as to why I was not wanting to be in the spotlight. However since some would ignore the facts of only writing and then think of my modeling pictures while forgetting I had only completed the modeling pictures for myself to get accustomed to how I physically look in comparison to whatever reasons or what-have-you have chosen to do modeling for a job, what would the FSL books have to say in regards of what I wrote about my personal situations regarding my personal thoughts of such? When my Big Blood Brother said he was going to protect me in ways which were more than what most knew of how such actually was in the years when he and I were growing up, his dad and Mom were also in New Jersey as they lived next to my babysitter's family house; which who was he promising to protect me from, when thinking about various aspects thereof having multiple people he knew flying into the east coast from the west coast?
Who would he have known as to who he promised me he would always keep me safe and protected from, in whatever ways he knew he could? That was the greatest gift admittedly as I knew then though I had not understood as to the levels of, which was why for so many after when I woke up from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as to why I could not do anything except be appreciative for each breath I was able to take and have been able to take; because of knowing when I woke up about my nightmare needing to have the fixes and the repairs where I could as it had changed dramatically from what it once was, though also remembering my Big Blood Brother and his promise to me and my promise to him for his Mom. Though some apparently have found such fascinating as to what occurred I suppose in regards of ENRON though other such portions I am unaware of officially regarding the tristate area before and after 11 September 2001, though none ever thought of the impacts regarding the children of such situations when only thinking about the adult aspects thereof. As celebrities became more prevalent and the ways which such were discussed with me about such pop culture references, I did not know being the first living Baby Jesus Christ for the first Nativity which you had to get out of your car for both then as well as at Old Tennent Presbyterian Church because the end portion was everyone at the top of the hill surrounding the Baby Christ while the snowfall went with the winds as the few pieces of cloth draped over me in such frigid temperatures in 1982 as well as in 1983, 1984, 1985, and 1986 which the 1984 through 1986 was in two locations as the one church had continued doing their version only at the church doors to then go inside of a heated garage before the time regarding at Old Tennent Presbyterian Church which after the month long version of during the weekends everyone then went inside of the church for the Christmas Miracle eve as well as Christmas services at such times.
SCUBA Diving, though that was much later in comparison to being the first and original one of the living baby Jesus Christ regarding the Nativity in Bethlehem Jerusalem when in New Jersey within the United States of America might be a twisted irony for a bit later in time though some similarities ironically with other founding principal situations.
However when asked about what I would want regarding a gift from one male years later and I told him I could not ask for anything while only able to inform him as to what I had been around to see which was in truth, after having put all of the pieces together regarding such when in my barracks room when in Medical Hold Unit in 2000 one evening; what was it I could truly ask for when thinking of such, as my best friend from childhood into teenager years Blood Big Brother had given me so much more than I could ever put into words. What physical material object could I ask for other than to be able to think of ways to figure a way to help other children who were named Damien because of what happened to him and his Dad, with the culmination aspects especially when seeing the situation and what occurred thereafter the following year on 11 September 2001? What could I truthfully have asked for materialistically that I had not seen and admittedly not having had such for myself to own with the exception of what I purchased here and there compared to making sure what my son and my daughter would need to live to survive, while repaying the debts he and his family did not know they were paying when they chose such a name regarding the Constitutional Rights of the United States of America without or with such regards to and/or of such a name choice which other countries could see as how each choice would see? After the events of 11 September 2001 and knowing what needed to be done to help as best as possible despite some disbeliefs, I also remembered my Big Blood Brother's Mom and I could not remember the families specifically who I had met though just because of his Mom I knew I had to move even quicker than I usually had as my friends and his friends who had met in Marlboro Middle School would have heavily been such an additional concern naturally and those who had been at Marlboro High School in thought though Saint John Vianney High School as well; because with Old Tennent Presbyterian Church each and ever Passover and Channukkah holiday at one point or another for Hannukkah each year, all such individuals and connections simply were undeniable as my own personal connections were as they were and cared for as best as possible regarding Crystal Lake South High School and connections thereof even to Ohio; though my big brother in CLS was in Basic Training, and I could not allow myself to forget him and his family knowing more than they may have realized at the times of what I fully knew more of as it did not matter about the argument on the phone regarding what comments were made, as I knew his and his family's lives had more value than more could see regarding other situations as I told Kenny about my Big Blood Brother in CLS one day I knew he had a situation in an actual direct way differently and his little brother and parents were still coping as one does not easily move on from a death when so many prefer the lies about death in comparison to the focus on the beauty of life while acknowledging the truth of death to appreciate life all the much more which needed clarification as I had seen when growing up in New Jersey.
My Medal of Honor Art Project was a point for such, as I knew when anyone would go and return however so that they would have only seen what they had only seen. Such portions of what I had naturally been accustomed to as per the square mile cemetery around Old Tennent Presbyterian Church for the innermost circle unless within one of the 5 buildings which depending upon would depend which building thereof for which aspect or in the ground, I knew there had to be a bigger way to assist such aspects as I knew I needed to keep my Big Blood Brother's remains safe from what I learned of regarding the 151 Road Warriors Alamo Drafthouse as I was told about; because of what I was told by some people in the San Antonio Pagan community who were also in the BDSM lifestyle communities in Texas, and the only way to find such a balance for such a major and larger collision of such groups which were centralized in other times was to as respectfully as possible create a different view for such because it is true regarding such aspects of the historical and the religious and the spiritual rubbings of the marker for each Medal of Honor recipient regarding the markers as per allowance and not without permission by others as to such is a different response in full regarding such lessons for those who need to learn how to keep their hands to themselves no matter who they are and no matter whether or not they have any handicap as I calmed down a Special Needs teacher who had needed assistance explaining to a Special Needs student as to how to keep his distance to keep himself safe as well as keep others safe to prevent ever doing such a thing to anyone without any invitation to do so and having to have such an explanation as well due to the requirements of the safety as well as warnings thereof for such aspects in other regards of personal bubbles. That 6 foot distance portion regarding how to train people to keep a specific distance to ensure more than just the aspects of respecting more, is a portion regarding the COVID and how such had responded per the initial aspects of the quarantine as well as in response to when the initial aspects for the slow opening and etcetera has been able to show each as to which ways each goes. Do you only look at the surface situations, or do you delve into common sense? Do you over react and scream at people while hoarding, or do you take a moment to asses the situations to assist where possible? Do you focus more to do ... or do you choose to ignore and instead, ...? Do you self-assess, or do you choose to fly off the handle immediately? Do you ever look within and if you do, how deep within yourself of who you truly are are you personally willing to review in truth? Do you see which ways the impacts can be in one direction, or as many directions as possible, and which amount of numbers for such directions and such? Are you envious while doing, or are you ...?
Those can be shown also for reference as to how people reacted during 11 September 2001 or whichever larger impacted aspects regarding specific cities and/or states, as to a smaller portion of the larger world portion regarding the COVID if you take a moment for a multidimensional viewpoint. The philosophies of which peculiarly take one's thoughts into ways which in truth cause internal reflections to see how best to progress forward for a better impact in more positively beneficial ways, is how such can be reviewed as to depending upon what the situations are in a larger aspect to bring around the revelations as to such actualities. For example while going through my trips for my Medal of Honor Art Project rubbing portions and what-have-you for the other aspects thereof referencing the historical and spiritual for the most condensed portions thereof, I posted on facebook a few quotes from Lao Tzu because of knowing how much I would have to travel on my own where I was going to and needing to remember if I remembered to get online to see such for myself because of needing to remember how I physically look and how some might look at me because of going to cemeteries and looking as I do while knowing there are those who only pay attention to documentaries and news sources comparatively to the fictional portions which in turn having to maintain my composure because of how I have the additional portions of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and not having anyone with me to help explain such was extremely frightening to me as I knew there were dangers though I could not know what the words were for such hidden dangers at the time because of the lack of words as well as the work I was doing as well as the altitude changes and etcetera.
One time of going on one particular date with one male in 2009 to which having been able to ask him to sit with his back against the wall to have a different perspective for himself as to it being the first time going out and not knowing much of him specifically, the fact he was in a private security company was a surprise though possibly with such aspects the ability for him to see a different portion for himself as well depending upon what he had seen when I sat across from him at the table. I had done so on one particular relationship-ish I had earlier in which referring to the gift when asked back in 2005 as he had asked me why I would want him with his back against the wall, as I knew he was in the military and going back to stationing overseas. I told him he needed to be more careful just at the first timing for that date on our own, which he asked me why I would think he would need his back against the wall to see differently. I suppose a joke could be made regarding such quotes as to such aspects of teaching through metaphors as sometimes the additional proverbial portions assist to know more to be able to understand for a clearer view, as sometimes the angles which are most seen are not as well seen when looking one way or the other from the central most point of focus in a different view as I am fairly small and tiny in size being petite and Faery sized as I am. The way of which seeing the smallest threat in reference to front facing because of the way I can joke about my hairstyle and my hair color as to certain individuals with certain types of employment and training, would know more of a different aspect thereof to such a dot reference and the way the vision is extremely different from such a viewfinder towards a distance area for protection of oneself as well as others as many as possible. With such a question about being given a gift and being asked what I would want in a selfish sort of way without any other pretenses, a later discussion when I could not answer the question because I did not have one; he listened as I had discussed how I was excited about the Faery and Dragon wings store, despite the situations regarding that Excalibur Faire when surrounded by the 5 males who had various weapons in their hands including a sword when surrounding me not knowing I was not a part of their normal group only because I was wearing the wings I really liked and appreciated the time it took to make for me to find just at such a time. However he listened to me and later when he and I went back to my apartment to talk for awhile and spend some time together, I asked a question which he answered and when the discussion went back and forth before a sound at the door to then return attention to what we were discussing; he said he knew what he was going to get me, which I remember looking at him and asking what he was referring to because of having forgotten about the aspects discussed prior about the gift.
He told me he was going to find me a Faery statue to name as he said he felt he needed to remember my middle name as I explained such details, which I laughed asking him why he would name a Faerie after me which he said it felt it was important for him before he went back to the station which at the point of I said it was okay if he found one which he thought I would like to have for myself which we laughed about the original always being the best and the strongest for the longest amount of time. Later when he left and when the Faerie arrived named MeeLing in comparison to Lady MeeLing as I had gone by at the Excalibur Faire as per lessening what actually had been what my status actually had been the whole time, having learned of the problems the others were having regarding the actual title proper for such as I was told to simply be myself and thus the situations from such were as they were and went as they had. He left me with the black leather jacket which if he were to have remembered me and then later learned as to how I am in certain regards of feelings, he knew how warm the jacket felt wrapped around me when he and I were out together for the brief amount of time back then. An irony I suppose in a different way if I am accurate about a few other associated details regarding a different time in a different place on a different day in a different year, possibly in a few ways though thankful for such and still hope(d)(s) for the best with the cleanest and the clearest paths to most beneficially progress forward in the greatest outcomes possible.
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