In reference of combining all of my journals I wrote through my original #fetlife account which I will post the link at the bottom for the clarifications thereof, I am going to have the transparency brought forward as to what can be seen from the original posting dates as to the current timeframe of this day 28 November 2021 for those to see as to my original #Facebook accounts of Susan MeeLing as well as Lady Dori Belle for the additional ability to see the connection links as to what I had discussed for many years and decades in person as well as online as to such factors as best as I could as to the circumstances. Possibly such details will assist to make sense, in the comparisons thereof as to the amounts of details though in addition I do not pretend or hide myself from my truth which others should realize it is important to be honest and truthful in many more ways than just in one or two moments as it is imperative to be more capable to recognize the truth in such aspects of life for far more than some might have realized despite all of my warnings as to what I knew to bring forward to assist as best as possible.
I will begin with posting my newer updated journals from my original account and work backwards as to the irony I noticed. There will be plenty to read in the ways of, whether or not you choose to venture into the areas of the website fetlife...
Since the reality of 2 specific posts were not found even though I had posted such as to one being about the situation in reference to inside of General Gillman's office as to the situations in reference to the Bronze Star medal as well as the reality of having had the three individuals who were as I was told returned from the Iraq War area as to the loaded firearms as to when reaching to return the Bronze Star which was falsely awarded, the aspects of which also having been called a royal f****ng c**t in the office of General Gillman by LT. General Gillman while he was in uniform inside of his office in the Brooke Army Medical Center or now the San Antonio Medical Center after having gone up the Chain of Command after everything else I had already dealt with up to such a point in time; was at one point within my journal entry area of my original feltife page though I did not find it even though I specifically put it there on purpose by my choice as to the realities as to the combinations as to the Military & BDSM Lifestyle Collision as to my choice of my reasons.
The other journal of which had to do with other situations I was personally dealing with which was also needlessly removed without my permission, only shows the lack of concern as to my personal earned amendments and rights as well as the factors of which my personal work having been shown as to the lack of concern as to such factors as to the situaitons thereof regarding the realities of what was going on during such points in time. The situations as to such types of millennials as to those types who wish to fluffify the realities as to the situations such as in reference to my SCUBA Diving as well as the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury after effects, only has shown me the lack of concern as well as the lack of compassion as to such so-called inclusiveness as to such types of groups and individuals as per such factors thereof.
In addition to those types of people who failed to pay attention to the reality of what I did not need additionally as to their needless drama as to the garbage problems and overdramatic titty baby temper tantrums in my opinion as to the comparison of what I was dealing with compared to whatever they wished as to such to be compared to in such an overall aspect, their menial aspects in the comparisons to the larger overall as to the timeframes as to such between the years of 2008 through 2013 in my admittedly biased opinion as to the combined factors of such compared to whatever wishes to compare as to such as to the other aspects thereof; in my opinion now in the year of 2021 is quite menial as to the realities of such combined factors as to whatever wishes in reference to others' opinions as to what their wishes were, compared to the combined aspects of what my realities have been and are in such comparisons.
In turn such wishes by such individuals to ever have made such choices without any such intelligence to actually have paid attention to the fuller details as to such times as to the realities thereof, only showed me the lack of concern and the lack of humanity as to such aspects because of my choice for my rights to express myself as to what I was dealing with as to such realities and the factors as to wishing to cover up in comparison to actually deal with has been important for far longer than others wished to actually pay attention to the details of in my opinion. Hence the reality of my choice as to what I brought forward in truth as to such factors, of the realities in the fullest capacities thereof as to my original account as per within the TOU guidelines unlike the comparisons as to what review portions thereof as to this year in 2021 as I guesstimate.
For example the amount of childish temper tantrums from people within the San Antonio BDSM community area as to needlessly stirring the pot in the Austin as well as the DFW areas as well as visa versa while wishing for me to get involved in comparison to what I was dealing with in reference to the years more specifically of 2012 and 2013 while the knowledge as to what I was actually dealing with in person in my life, those types of needless individuals as to such problematic types had been needless additional stress to any situation in reference as to the truth as to the overall aspects thereof while remembering the facts as to Irving in the year of 2011 the year before of which the least aspects of what I personally needed as to those types of situations in combination of what I was already dealing with up to that point in time in the year of 2012.
I had not ever thought I could be as disgusted by others up until such a review of the factors thereof in reference to this year of 2021 in such a review, as to the facts of what was known as to what I was dealing with as to the exception of nbo one knowing officially until I wrote and compiled my first two books "Finding A Silver Lining (Written) By: (Reverend) Susan MeeLing" and "finding The Silver Lining (Written) By: (Reverend) Susan MeeLing" as to the official factors as to Irving being more well known as to not ever having spoken about such details as well as the factors of my SCUBA Diving in the more official contexts thereof.
However, I did not think it took a head injury to figure out to simply just speak with mature words to ask when discussing a topic in person when face to face in person in such references compared to the situations in regards as to "The Modern Day Book (Written) By: Reverend Susan MeeLing" as to the situations hypothetically being accurate as to Club Sapphire as well as during my Medal of Honor Art Project trips as I did not think it took a head injury to figure out from such times before as to the "Finding" aspects as to the requirement to actually ask me as to what would be more ideal in comparison to the proven years and decades of assumptions that had not worked out positively in such fuller reviews as to the references thereof.
That is unless I missed something as to the amounts of situations combined as to the assumptions of wishing to follow along and automatically know without me actually discussing as to my personal preferences, as what are my personal preferences as to such?
How many individuals read online and did not ever clarify with me in any actual discussion which the mature way of having discussions would be, as what would be my preference as to mature discussions? Would that mean the possibility of some aspects in writing, and then the majority in reference to in person face to face in person? If you responded with a "Yes", then that would be the only correct answer, as to such preferences as to fully in person face to face in person as to the only other response as to a correct answer.
Nonetheless as to such aspects of the two missing posts as not any different as to the factors regarding my two children as to the situations which I have repeatedly brough forward, the ways of such problems which have been as what situations as to the realities thereof as to the lack of actual helpful portions as to what has and actually has been required for genuine help in the comparison to the assumptions.
Why would I ever believe anything I did was ever considered important, in such truth?
Well, how has the situations of such points in time been referencing what I personally have dealt with?
I have not ever seen anything that I have personally assisted with, put together, accomplished, or anything of the slightest ever actually being recognized in any correct manner of which was ever seen as to being of actual value or worth in the slightest as to what I would actually know to understand as to such aspects of actually being considered as worthwhile at all ever; though that does have to do with the facts as to certain types of individuals who might have thought they had a right to something, they did not ever have the right to.
For example how feminazi would it be in reference to my Medal of Honor Art Project for a group of males who would be within the infantry and/or calvary and/or combat arms and/or military police within the Armed Forces of the United States of America who would ever think that just because of certain factors in the difference as to the modernization of weapons and technology to ever have an inclination that ever meant they too were a part of the Medal of Honor award aspect as because of my explanation as to which branches and divisions I looked at as to my joining the Army branch of the Armed Forces of the United States of America after having fought to be emancipated from my biological mother and biological father; how feminazi would it be for any and every individual who did graduate Basic Training as to any MOS thereof to ever think they had any rights to my work as to my Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork, when in reality of which was not ever their work to begin with, as how feminazi would it be for them to think that simply because I asked as to arranging a group of where I could if I had been responded to in the correct ways as to forming a larger aspect as to teaching such in comparison to not ever teaching anything as to the reality of which as to how my Medal of Honor Art Project trips had been as why would that be important as to the correct response for such aspects as to the historical and spiritual rubbing portions?
How sexist and feminazi would it be for anyone who did not actually have the in person face to face in person teachings as to the aspects thereof with me having been born as a biological genetic female to try to ever subvert my aspects as to the actualities of such requirements, by anyone who would ever think they had a right to something when they were not ever entitled to such factors as to my Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork as to the completed pieces as how sexist and feminazi would it be for any male and/or female within whichever branch and/or division to ever think they had any right to such when the facts thereof to the mandatory explanations in person face to face in person had always been mandatory to begin with?
How sexist and feminazi would that be as to such factors as to the how to aspects in comparison to the wishful thinking of such as what lack of intelligence would there be as to the length of years as to such as to what others had not known as to the situations as to where and when and how I had been taught in the comparisons as to simply seeing a video, as how millennial-ish would that fully be as to such aspects thereof?
There is not at any point in time which what would make sense to me as to the factors of the known after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as to the aspects of my memory deficits and cognitive disorders ever being taken into consideration as to the portions of what could or would ever be considered as to any such actual validation of what of all such works, ever being considered as viable or worthwhile in any such factor or manner as to the fact of having had to actually remember that I have repeated myself as to others having told me multiple times as to my having repeated myself as to remembering prior discussions such as when in #Washingtonstate #WAstate #Washington #WA Washington state after what occurred before I wound up in Washington state, as to when in the state of #Texas #Texasstate #TX #TXstate Texas before the year of 2013. After returning to the state of Texas without the answers as to the aspects thereof referencing my Medal of Honor Art Project meant there was not ever going to be anyone who would ever be allowed to assist with my Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork as to such factors, as to the mandatory aspects thereof as to the situations.
There was not ever going to be any substitutions allowed, just as there was only through me as to such aspects as to the mandatory ways of such teachings in person face to face in person. Otherwise, others would only do a grave stone rubbing and nothing else whatsoever as to the mandatory teaching aspects as to such energetic aspects of which only I have been taught as there has not ever been anyone ever taught as to such ever by me as per the requirements. While some might ignorantly think there is not a difference between a grave stone rubbing compared to a historical and spiritual rubbing while using the grave stone rubbing, the fact of the situations as to the actualities of the length of time per aspect thereof per individual completed piece is far different of which because of such factors as to the ways which such situations have been; I am hereby informing as to the full resignation of my Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork as per the facts as to the lack of respect as to such situations regarding my work, as well as the processes thereof not ever having been correctly respected as to the ways thereof.
It should not take a head injury to figure out the processes of my Medal of Honor Art Project was not of the normal view points as to my guesstimations thereof, which in turn the full aspects as to how such situations have been reviewed by me as to the years between 2019 through 2021 as to the situations as per “The Modern Day Book (Written) By: Reverend Susan MeeLing” if more than 85% accurate as to such situations, than the realities of which such aspects as to my personal work as to my Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork has been proven as to such situations as to the reasons why I began my Medal of Honor Art Project was obviously unseen as to the actualities thereof as per my intentions as the requirements as to following the actualities of protocol for such aspects as anyone who has any knowledge of the Armed Forces of the United States of America would know as to there always being a protocol standard which must be abided by. Since such situations as per hypotheticals were not abided by as to the requirements as to having to specifically speak with me in person face to face in person using words to actually speak about as to such realities, then the situations as to why my Medal of Honor Art Project as to the situations coming to a conclusion as to such factors of which unless I actually have a reason to continue with such I will actually be informed officially in the correct and proper manners thereof in comparison to how such situations have been as to such prior times.
There has been nothing I have ever been as to having actually went through all such works as to ever having had those ADA compliance aspects in the general public as to such factors after having realized such in the year of 2021, as to all such situations from the times between the years of 2000 through to 2021 as all such situations as to having put forward in writing to actually assist others as well as myself as to the betterment thereof as to such factors; as there has not been anything of which actually has been considered in my opinion as to beneficial or helpful in the ways of such discussions as to ever actually having been correctly acknowledged for any such works or any such assistances, throughout the timeframe as per the review now in the year of 2021 as to such times from 2014 through this current year as to such factors. While some might think otherwise in comparisons, what would my journal blog entries as to the updates from the years of 2019 through 2020 and into 2021 show as to the opposite aspects thereof as to such reviewal aspects as why would it have and why would it be important to actually speak with me as to the actualities as to my needs in comparisons to just wishing to interpret as to any such other ways in the comparisons thereof as to actual discussions instead?
There has only been the constant discrimination against such as to the facts as to the ways such situations have repeatedly proven themselves time and time again, and yet why would there ever be any belief in the positive aspects as to any such portion of life when looking outward as to such factors of what I have dealt with as to such review of such combined situations as to this year of 2021. If I am inaccurate than of course I would actually have had return contact as to the discussions thereof as per each letter of request in the comparisons as to the factors of which there have not been the answers to such correspondences as per the ways thereof written out as to such aspects, of which in turn the reasons as to the aspects of which at this point of 2 December 2021 of the aspects as to the official ending as to such aspects of my Medal of Honor Art Project trips as to such factors. If there is a need to start it up again, then I will officially be informed in the correct manner as to such aspects thereof in reference to the aspects of the Armed Forces of the United States of America. However there are the reasons for protocol standards of which randomly showing up and/or such aspects are not the protocol standards of which anyone who graduated Basic Training and AIT as to whichever branch and/or division of the Armed Forces of the United States of America would know and understand as to such, which in turn would mean without such aspects as to the correct ways thereof as to such a proverbial reporting for duty in such regards as to the responses required as to such in reference as to my letters in reference to asking officially; therein is the reasons as to each individual who thought there was ever the ways to circumvent such aspects as to a female being fully in charge of all such works, whether a male and/or a female who has had such problems as to such factors.
In turn does it take a head injury to figure out those problems as to those types of viewpoints have been needlessly problematic for far longer than just during the timeframe as to my Medal of Honor Art Project as what was the female’s name who threw the temper tantrum at one event in the Williamson County area as to being upset as to the fact I was invited up to the front though because of her attitude problems as to how I am considered as I am; the problems she had as to my not graduating Basic Training though how she had failed to pay attention to the facts I had officially maxed out my PT scores in Zero Week as well as fully accomplished completing the CCC and the COC courses, of which then what would it be as to the aspects of additionally knowing and understanding the UCMJ as to such point in time as why would the official graduation ceremony be required as to such aspects as to my Basic Training as what would such a female who did graduate basic training and AIT have as to the experience as why would it be important for those who need the training to go through it compared to why would it be important for those who have the clear aspects to go onward and though in comparison?
What does the Armed Forces of the United States of America hate wasting the most as is the answer both time and resources as to such a situations of which the top officials would hate the most as to such aspects, or would it be coddling such feelings that such top officials would hate the most as to such situations thereof to take into consideration?
Remember to look at the posting date for each review as to the way I write means I only have officially went through such larger details as to the specific timeframes of to find the connection dots to clarify as to the actual knowledge at the time as to the postings, thus for example as to the years of 2019 through 2021 as to such reviews being the only points in time where the actual full knowledge was understood better to comprehend as I did not think it took a head injury to figure that out.
Maybe there is a point in my history online which could review such factors as to the situations I was dealing with in the combined factors thereof in the culminations of such aspects, which could hypothetically bring such all together as to the knowledge being put together as to the understanding as I did not think that took a head injury to figure that out either. What is the difference to the weapons within the various branches and divisions of the Armed Forces of the United States of America as to the timeframe as to the war situations, compared to the current years of when I was working on my Medal of Honor Art Project as to the Iraq and Afghanistan War as why would those factors as to the award of the Medal of Honor be of importance as to such a review of such facts in the comparisons thereof to take into genuine consideraitons?
Are the dates as to such postings too small for some people to read, or are those details not thought of as to the importance of such details or does that too take a head injury to figure out for such individuals over such points in time?
Why would those dates as to the postings matter as to the details of the review, other than that would clarify the exact point in time of such details having been went through as to the details thereof in a larger capacity in such or does that too take a head injury to figure out?
For example why would it ever matter as to ever recognizing anything I have personally ever done to assist at any point in time, as why would any such factors actually be of importance in a manner of which would actually make sense to me? How ironic would it be for such individuals who did graduate though would have the nerve to look down upon me when the facts of which who stood by and allowed stolen valor in comparison to who stood up against stolen valor, as why would it be of a consideration to anyone in reference to the state of Texas as to such veterans to such situations as to my Medal of Honor Art Project as why would such individuals be considered as problematic as to such aspects as to what the Medal of Honor award actually means and represents in the comparisons to Motrin as to the comparisons to the rainbow award for such proverbial review aspects?
Why would it be important for civilians to actually learn about such in a more realistic way in comparisons to the ways of which the Active Duty/National Guard/Reservists/veterans/dependents would see such aspects as to the normalcies and what problems would be considered if anyone who signed the dotted line themselves as to such factors ever thought they were entitled to anything of my works as per my charity work in comparison to having been paid as I had not been paid for such aspects as to the realities of which the Medal of Honor award is to such UCMJ factors as what would be of importance as to such considerations in reference to the state of Texas as how many individuals within the state of Texas when reviewing now in the year of 2021 could have actually helped me as well as helped my daughter and helped my son as to our family in reference to the situations between the years of 2008 through 2012 in comparison as to what occurred?
How many did I ask for guidance from and how few ever did anything which actually would be considered as helpful in the correct ways as to what is the irony as to the compassion sought from others as to the aspects of such factors of Active Duty/National Guard/Reservist aspects, yet where was the compassion towards the situations as to my son #Lettrs4James and my daughter #Letters4Lidia as to their biological father as well as towards me as to what occurrences thereof to actually be helpful in comparison to what occurrences there had been as to such points in time as to the military as well as the civilian sectors?
Would it take a head injury to figure out the factors of actually informing me in comparison to any other as to the two missing references as to my original fetlife account writings as one in reference to the Lieutenant General as to what I had dealt with on Fort Sam Houston in San Antonio Texas as to the three males with the firearms as to when I returned the falsely awarded Bronze Star as to the situations in reference to the dress blues, as well as a secondary journal blog as to other information regarding the timeframe within the state of Texas in the Austin area of Texas as should it take a head injury to figure out those are problematic aspects as to the verifications of individuals despite the fact there is not ever nor has there ever been nor will there ever be any way to ever officially delete information off of the internet as there is no such aspect as there is and always will be a record thereof; despite the facts of which some might wish, as should it take a head injury to figure out there are satellites throughout the orbiting areas of the earth as well as throughout the Milky Way Galaxy to collect such details of information as to the facts of it already having been tried before and the ways to ensure the security and safety of such details as to the importance to learn from history?
Does it take a head injury to figure out the aspects I explained as to the technology aspects in the military sector before the general civilian sector while working with one another as to before the mass production of items as to the minimum aspects thereof for one to be brought forward as the original before ever bringing forward any others as to the one original has to be proven as to such factors not only in reference to the technological aspects, though in reference to multiple situations as to the overall aspects as to the general population when the realities of situations are as such for the clarification aspects thereof as why would it be of importance for such assurances as to the realities thereof in reference to the general public as to the usage of the technological portions as when was the first email actually made as well as when did the computing devices actually begin in the timeline before the email system was arranged or does that take a head injury to figure out as well in reference to the aspects of such technological factors in the requirements as to the truth?
In reference to my SCUBA Diving gear what would the problems be to individuals who would not know what actualities to my SCUBA Diving gear as who would be injured as to such with those aspects because of your failures to ever be as to a non-feminazi in such references as to which political party has claimed to be chivalrous though had not seen the difference between chivalry and sexism, as what is the difference between chivalry and sexism?
I did not think it took a head injury to figure out chivalry is where there is genuine and actual help and assistance whereas I did not think it took a head injury to figure out sexism is when trying to hide the aspects of what another individual had accomplished by trying to use the situations of the biological gender as to the similarity as to racism being where trying to user the ethnic background as to the aspects of such ADA discrimination is when trying to use the disabilities of some factors in comparison to seeing the strength in other aspects; of which in such does it take a head injury to figure out a state with the population as to the individuals throughout the state of Texas in regards of the year specifically as to my SCUBA Diving as well as other such factors, what sexism as well as feminazism as well as racism as well as ADA violations as well as etcetera has been proven in addition to the aspects as to the online portions of which I did not ever give anyone permission not did I ever ask officially as to the assistance to my personal works in reference to what I personally am and/or have bene involved with directly, as if that were the case as to such if I remember correctly I specifically brought up the requirement to speak with me as to being capable to actually ask me instead of stalking as to actually learning what would be required as to actual help and assistance in the comparisons to sexist assumptions and feminazi aspects as to wishing there would be an easier way as how much of an ADA violation would that be as to the situations of failing to be capable to deal with the factors of the disabilities after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as to being capable to look at me physically in person when face to face in person as what type of anti-humanity would that fully show in all such factors of each individual thereof or does that take a head injury to figure that out as well?
It sure is ironic as to such individuals claiming to be Republicans as to being supportive of the furtherment and growth of the economy and yet their failure to see as to such factors of truth in such references, as to the aspects of which economic impacts there have been when I have been in a good mood and been out taking care of situations in comparison to the ways of which such situations have been as to the factors thereof. It is ironic as to how few have actually proven to appreciate education as well as experiences, and yet such failures to actually acknowledge such correctly. It is ironic as to how many supposed Christians throughout the state of Texas as to the so called saying of God Bless Texas and yet when such actually as to, what was the responses as to such factors when walking around that state in reference to the years of 2000 through 2013 as well as in reference as to the years of 2019 through 2021 when I finally simply left such situations as there truly was only shown the lack of respect as well as the lack of common sense as to such factors in all such regards as did it truly take a head injury to figure out such proper ways as to respectfully approach me or are there such levels of lack of intelligence as to such individuals as to their in capabilities to literally just before their eyes as to their in capabilities to pay attention to the truth?
10 simple little rules of which what would those 10 rules have actually been helpful and assistive in such timeframes of 2008 through 2021 as to what I had been dealing with, as what occurred before as to 2000 through 2008 which was important to pay attention to as to the beginning aspects as to what I already was dealing with before the years of 2008 through 2012 and then from 2013 through 2021 which would show what portions as to each aspect as why would those details be of importance to pay attention to as to the situations thereof?
Who actually has helped and assisted me in person face to face in person with me consistently as to my personal needs as to such points in time of 2000 through 2021, in truth?
The answer is, I have only had myself to rely upon as to such factors of how to navigate throughout life as while plenty have obviously taken advantage of what I personally have done which have needed to recognize the factors of such truths as to my personal assistance in the positive and correct ways thereof; the reality as to having done so on my own while genuinely being truthful in such aspects as to doing the best to make the best choices, as what type of responsibilities did I have by the time of the third year being awake from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury coma while still having had the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal temporal lobe of my brain at that time and what would be of importance as to the aspects thereof to have paid attention to both then as well as now as to such realities as why would anyone actually feel they were entitled to my completed Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork pieces if I had actually been capable to complete the full numbers as to the papers as to the aspects as to the state of Texas?
What occurred in reference to all of my completed Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork pieces from the years of 2014 through 2021, as what correct aspects were actually ever don to properly and correctly recognize such works as to the factors thereof to my work when reviewing such portions currently in the year of 2021?
The answer is, there has not been such as to the ways of such situations because of the realities as to the ways such situations have been as to the lack of communication as to the factors thereof to which while some might be offended as to my points; the reality is no one can be more offended than I, as to how such situations have been as to such factors of my Medal of Honor Art Project if reviewed honestly.
Thus with such a heavy heart as to the situations thereof, I officially have to stop such aspects as to my Medal of Honor Art Project because of the situations as to the realities thereof as to how such occurrences have been as to the ways in the comparisons thereof as to what my intentions had always been as to such references and regards thereof as to my Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork. I had not worked on such for the recognition as to such aspects as it was as I had explained as to such works, however the factors of such situations as to the recognition as to speaking with me in comparison as to such as the ways had been as to the reasons why I personally cannot allow myself to continue onward with such because of the fact as to the word as well as meaning of the word HONOR as well as the spirit of the award itself.
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