In reference of combining all of my journals I wrote through my original #fetlife account which I will post the link at the bottom for the clarifications thereof, I am going to have the transparency brought forward as to what can be seen from the original posting dates as to the current timeframe of this day 28 November 2021 for those to see as to my original #Facebook accounts of Susan MeeLing as well as Lady Dori Belle for the additional ability to see the connection links as to what I had discussed for many years and decades in person as well as online as to such factors as best as I could as to the circumstances. Possibly such details will assist to make sense, in the comparisons thereof as to the amounts of details though in addition I do not pretend or hide myself from my truth which others should realize it is important to be honest and truthful in many more ways than just in one or two moments as it is imperative to be more capable to recognize the truth in such aspects of life for far more than some might have realized despite all of my warnings as to what I knew to bring forward to assist as best as possible.
I will begin with posting my newer updated journals from my original account and work backwards as to the irony I noticed. There will be plenty to read in the ways of, whether or not you choose to venture into the areas of the website fetlife.
Posted on 7 February 2013 though I thought I had posted this in a different year than 2013 as I thought this particular entry was completed in the year towards the end of 2009 or around the middle portions of the year of near June or July or August of 2010, however then again after my SCUBA Diving situations as well as the Irving situations the ways of such situations as to the out of order aspects as to this particular application being in the incorrect day area as to having brought such forward much earlier as to such points in time as per what I thought I recalled having put together as per the several times before as to some individuals having sent in such applications over the years. Most who sent applications through the fetlife website for me to review were not based in the United States of America as most were either from the UK area or Australia or Sweden in comparison as few were ever based in the United States of America as to such regarding the process thereof as I lined out.
Additionally as to the wording being out of order from the ways which I had remembered putting such together, I also have brought forward as to the situations referencing the 13 laptops to Geek Squad as to Best Buy as well as the prior list of individuals who had needlessly involved themselves as to my technology devices as to my laptops as well as my cellphones as I did not ask for the assistance in such references unless I personally brought such to the attentio n of in person when bringing such in person face to face, as there is not any requirement as to my need for anyone else to be involved with my technology devices as per I am not interested in those types of individuals needlessly involving themselves as per my own instructions as to such factors. If I wanted or needed the assistance then I personally would arrange such as to the drop off as to such factors as to Geek Quad in comparison to anyone as the ways which I no longer needed nor did I ever want nor did I ever desire my biological mother doing the updates as to the timeframes as I did not ever ask her assistance as she decided to do so on her own after the ways which the answering machine situation occurred and the clarifications after I had been interrogated because of that particular ex-relationship leaving such a message on my biological mother and my biological father's answering machine.
However that confrontation apparently as I was explained later in reference to Jackie Daniels at the Sanctuary as I did not ever know she was involved with that male, until I was officially told as to such a point in time. My pattern of behaviour speaks for itself as to the lack of a need to ever go over such needless types of drama as I simply did not have the time nor did I have the patience as to the culminations of what I was dealing with in those years especially between 2009 through to 2013, of which such aspects of which there was not any need as to the year of 2013 as to the relationship factor however the ironic portion as to the picture in references to my National Geographic Open Water SCUBA Diving as to the carhart jacket as to the Cowboys Dancehall Stoney LaRue concert at the Cowboys Dancehall in San Antonio Texas in just a few weeks to the date on fetlife as to the posting in comparison to what I had remembered as to such a posting as to the title of Application to be My Partner.
Then again I told people in person when at events as to what I was dealing with as well as in reference to certain relationships which includes in reference to the male who left the message on my biological mother and biological father's answering machine just a few days prior to that posting if I recall the timeframe accurately hypothetically, of which my biological mother and my biological father stormed into my townhouse at the time as my biological mother demanded to see my laptop computer as she said she was enraged as to the update work she said she was going to have to do on the laptop before she took it for about three or four hours while I spoke with my biological father on the back patio as to the discussion I wrote about as to the Anna and Matt situation as to the timeframe before they went to Dallas as to the Galleria situation.
However in reference as to what I told people about as to what I was dealing with both in person because of the situations referencing what occurred regarding the Fort Worth Zoo and the McCoy Elementary School as well as the district people as to the facts in reference to the American Flag pledge unknowing until the year of 2020 of the Texas Flag situation comparatively, no one in the state of Texas I knew had ever believed me as to the amount of situations I was dealing with nor did they ever believe me about the factors of the aspects to the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as per the overall combinations as I have more recently gone into various details of as to the reviewals in the years of 2019 into 2020 and into the year currently of 2021.
Nonetheless if such aspects have hypothetically to do with such regards as to the year as well as to how I wound up in Washington state in conjunction as to the Halloween 2013 event in Portland Oregon as well as "The Modern Day Book (Written) By: Reverend Susan MeeLing" situations pull up as to the factual aspects thereof; then in such references, the realities of such truths I had always spoken as well as wrote about in the factual ways in the comparisons to being creative in the comparisons thereof as to the genres in such references I suppose such people were right in their opinions as to what they had thought of me then in comparison though in the reference as to the now in such references. Now, the comments they made back in those years have lead to such aspects where I can review such aspects as to what those people had brought forward as to the in person when face to face discussions as to such factors.
While they did not ever take into consideration several realities such as the visions as to what I told them about as to the Army aspects in comparison to the extremely limited number of people who were officially told about MAST in person, as well as the facts as to other situations which "Finding A Silver Lining (Written) By: (Reverend) Susan MeeLing" and "Finding The Silver Lining (Written) By: (Reverend) Susan MeeLing" in conjunction with all of my journal blog updates in The Ornery PSA, can bring forward into the light as to the realities of such aspects as to what I dealt with in those years of 2009 through to 2018 more officially though afterwards as to the reviewal portions in the years of 2019 through to this year of 2021. With such amounts of work I actually had been and do work on in the comparisons thereof to what had hypothetically only been assumptions by such other individuals in the comparisons to the reality of such factors, I suppose in the difference as to such aspects as to the reality of such factors as to the complaints by others wishing that I was more overdramatic in comparison to simply being over the ways of drama as to when growing up in New Jersey as to elementary school as those types of antics were not any different as to who were supposed to be biologically adults in such references compared to the littles type of behaviours I had seen and dealt with from such biological adults in the comparisons thereof.
However, without further hesitation as to such aspects of what seems to be missing several other portions as to what I actually posted in the comparisons of the ways as to the wording as seen now in the year of 2021 compared to what I recall having put together before hand I suppose pun intended as to having been reengaged as to the second engagement shortly following the timeframe of posting the original version of the journal on fetlife by a month or so as to the timeframe despite the situations thereof as he and I had gotten back together and been united for several months before the timeframe of the Christmas month and into the New Year aspects as to the length of time he had been in the field as to my building the bed as I had during those weeks.
Additionally because how I personally write as to such factors of when beginning a newer portion as to various aspects as o the natural type of spacing when writing in the organized format unlike writing styles when being creative for the specifics as I already have explained more recently after the occurrences as to "The Modern Day Book (Written) By: Reverend Susan MeeLing" which in turn I will leave what is there for the ways of which the fetlife caretakers can review such as to the realities of the differences of which that situation which I did not type up nor would, will be written as per how I actually had written as close as possible compared to the trash seen in reference to the post which was not at the time as to the posting marking as to the knowledge of what I was dealing with at that year's timeframe and the realistic portions of what needless childish wastes of time which were trying to get my attention in their direction while I was in the middle of what I was dealing with in reference to my daughter's court case and taking care of my son's best well being for the combined overall as well as for my own best interests as to the fact of being on my own as a legal widow single Mom who was dealing with the Texas Education Agency as well as the McCoy Elementary School law firm as to the CFBISD law firm which as I told people in person before the end of the year of 2012 of what little time as to any drama with everything I was dealing with. Of course those younger millennials did not believe me as to what I was personally dealing with which as per prior journal blog entries of explanations, can be reviewed as to who was trying to get my attention compared to what I was dealing with as to such times which includes my biological mother and my biological father as to such aspects.
I had a lot of more important situations to take care of than building someone else's wishes up as my family had always been more important than the needless drama as to such types of negative people especially as to such facts as to the court case timelines, in addition as to the San Antonio Family Court. I did not think it took a head injury to figure out I did not need the Hollywood type of back and forths as to when certain types of people need that type of a situation because of the comparison of the situations, which I had already seen that and dealt with that having grown up in New Jersey in the 1980s and 1990s of which my son and my daughter who I was pregnant with and gave birth to actually needed me as per their biological age of being minors whether or not others wished to pay attention to the details and the actual responsibilities in real life I was taking care of though shows the lack of common sense as well as the lack of humanity if such were to have been as to the problematic hacking as I told others more recently in my journal blog entries though other situations which I had already brought up as to the technological aspects as to the Geek Squad and the Best Buy situations of which again; I was a bit busy, in all comparisons and that was not something I ever dealt with.
Additionally that is not how I describe aspects in reference to applications, of which whoever was childish and needed whatever little type of negative attention in comparison to positive mature attention is whatever aspect thereof as to such portions as to the comparisons of the wording which can be easily seen as to the difference between stream of consciousness only for description aspects in comparisons to an application I would create. Additionally as to those who in the knowledge as to the reality of such timeframes within the year of 2013, I had not been as involved in person when in person as to any face to face aspects as to by the timeframe of February 2013; there were a lot of situations in my life at the time, which did not give me the time to get involved with other people's drama as I was dealing with my own real life situations.
Application...though I prefer a relationship leading to a marriage instead...for the time being unless that relationship aspect goes to become...
Correction: It was Application to Me, (and not the title as seen left of fetlife for the review as to such clarification aspects as to it was not until the end of February 2013 as to the last time I spoke with my biological mother and my biological father as to the occurrence at their house in a few situations of which if an ex-relationship of whatever type had not grown up by that point in time as to what was known I was dealing with in real life than the aspects thereof show as to those types of people as well as those types of situations I purposefully avoided because of knowing how to discern what and who were actually important as to the time compared to how some had wished to ride my coattails as to clout within other areas as per explanations as to the ClubFEM individuals when they learned in the year of 2011 of an invitation I had to a New York City dungeon and their personal responses of which they did not like the fact I knew the area better and knew how earning such is a privilege as to the factors of which was seen as to the Mentoring factors as to the respect the ways Eastcoast Leather is compared to the ways which Westcoast Leather is as the realities of the massively huge differences as to the personal code of conduct highly differs).
Below is the modified version of what I had actually posted in the original timeframe, in comparison to the situations seen through the link which I will continue as to the ability to show the differences as well as the reality of being capable to check my timeline in my life as to the comparisons to the hypothetical needless drama as to other areas within the state of Texas and/or other online situations as some have come to learn about as I had already warned about as to the lifestyle in person at events from the first months of my involvement in the San Antonio Texas community compared to anywehere else within the state of Texas adult lifestyle scenes.
FIRST, I AM into and I DO practice "High Protocol". If you are one who would not be interested with such, should one not be able to perform on command and exactly as instructed by me.
Do not waste my time for if you are actually interested in a relationship with me, you will understand and know I am a Leather-based High Protocol Dominant which means though I am a Female Dominant I am strict and prefer the measures of such protocol aspects as per my Military background in certain references in the conjunction to the Leather.
For a submissive who truly cares to understand, all one has to do is apply and then see where things go from there.
I am a Dominant Female Leatherwoman who is looking to have a submissive come to me, who will offer their submission as a gift; not out of fear, but out of service to me and out of respect and duty.
I am open to submissives who are looking to serve me with pride in their hearts to do a job well done and with a genuine smile, for me. I have my preference of wanting submissives to respectfully approach me, to know what my needs are, and to assist me as I specify the aspects thereof.
* I am interested in those who are looking to please me and keep me happy before their own happiness in the agreed to situations, as my happiness equates to their happiness. When I am in a good mood, it is a positive aspect of life.
All limits and types of BDSM scene aspects, will be negotiated.
What I am personally looking for depends upon what connection I can tell is ideal for the combined aspects as the reality of preferring the heavy bottom masochist type as to a submissive, the situations of other factors combined are far beyond just a simple aspect of a small amount of time as to the requirements of actually getting to know in reference to the possibility of a relationship as understanding the various aspects of what makes each who as to individuality has been a trademark as to my personality even in shorter discussions.
* I will discuss what the specific details of what my preferences are after the point of possibility to the agreements thereof, to the individual application process.
If an explanation is needed from me additionally, do not hesitate to ask me directly.
I will provide the restraints in the ways I feel are of importance, I will not collar anyone without the proper background as to what my preferences are as to my own requirements as the discussions which are of importance prior to such a serious decision as to a collaring are important as I do not collar individuals at a random as per the proof as to such factors as there are only 3 individuals from the years of 2004 through 2021 who I have ever put a collar onto.
What I expect and not in the hope for the best expect the worst, sort of way for clarifications:
I expect your loyalty and dedication, only to Me.
I expect you to want to learn all of Me and how to fully keep Me happy in truth, while balancing aspects of life.
I expect you to learn from yours and My mistakes, as how better to grow in many ways.
I expect you to be eager to please Me in all ways correctly as I see fit even if such is correctly in an anticipatory way in comparison to assumptions, as assumptions are not as important as anticipatory. The aspect as body language can be just as important as non-verbal and verbal cues, as I have several methods of which to ensure the safety as to keeping within the contents as to what is of agreement in such factors. Though I understand my body language is not always the same just as others have such, there are certain aspects which there are signs which bring forward clearer knowledge.
I expect you to have a thirst for knowledge and understanding, as well as a thirst for the taste of.
What I will NOT Tolerate:
Lies even the purposeful withholding of information as to that type of lying is unnecessary within the supposed to be adult consenting lifestyle in comparison to what some might think of as to the ways some have only viewed needless lying
With holding of information
Jealousy
Other D/s or romantic relationships - unless previously negotiated, I will be the ONLY Owner that you have.
Brattiness/Smart-ass masochist/littles
Not being open with communication and feeling as though, I have to pull teeth.
I am looking for the following qualities...no particular order...
honest
obedient
sincere
delightful to be around
intelligent
common sense
creative
anticipatory
willing to reveal inner self
flexible
charming
trustworthy
understanding
courteous
pleasing
caring
genuine and eager to please me
heavy bottom
pain slut
sensual
appealing to what I view as appealing which if you do not ask me then you will not know as to my type
shaved
enjoys my fetishes
has own fetishes
good hygiene
healthy
genuinely happy
Now that the beginning portions have been written, if one is interested in becoming a possible relationship partner of mine as to the name of Lady Dori Belle also known as Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Susan MeeLing; then please read over and fill out My application in detailed sentences.
I do not accept one word or one sentence responses at all, as you will be disqualified off the bat with those types of responses. If you do not have a picture of yourself on your profile, you will be disqualified as well.
There is the reality as to I do NOT prefer the genital pictures in the main profile image nor sending me pictures of as, personally I do not appreciate such.
Depending upon how the situation progresses, depends on whether or not we meet in a public place to get to know one another over time to see where things lead. I emphasize communication, negotiation, and actual safety. Thus do not expect to meet me right away, in specific reference points. Copy and paste to send to me, in a private message.
APPLICATION TO BE My PARTNER
1). Name you prefer to go by in the lifestyle? Is there a difference in vanilla life? If there is a difference between your vanilla name and your fetlife name; put the truth here.
2). What is your lifestyle orientation? submissive or bottom? Why? What makes you feel as such?
3). What is the understanding of the BDSM and Leather Lifestyle in relation to you? In relation to a Me, as your possible Dominant?
4). What are you looking for in this possible, relationship?
5). Are you willing to please me, in truth and genuinity?
6). Go through My interests on My Profile Page, and on a scale of 1-3; 1 meaning very little interest and 3 meaning why aren't we doing this now? And then go through your interests on the same scale.
7). What are your hard limits?
8). What are your soft limits?
9). What are things you want to improve upon in your journey, as what do you seek from me?
10). Are you willing to travel to me in order to play after getting to know each other, if it is agreed to?
11). Why should I pick you, as my partner?
12). Why do you want to be my, partner?
13). What is your background, as what makes you who you are?
14). Are there any medical conditions, which I need to take into consideration for safety?
15). Are you going to be able to deal with cumming only when I say you can, by agreements? Chastity devices?
16). Do you have any mental health situations, which I need to be aware of such as backgrounds which the working through is of importance to recognize and pay attention to as to what type of truthful incidents?
17). Have you ever been to sub space, and how deep have you gone into the realms of during a scene? Is there any additional concerns I need to take into consideration, for the different types of subspace?
18). What type of BDSM scenes have experienced, and what were the ways which you thought of which could have been more ideal?
19). What type of BDSM scenes have you not experienced, but would like to try?
20). What was your last relationship? What was the time length, and what type (vanilla/Kink)? How and why,did it end? What was the relationship situations you liked in comparison to saw needed improvement towards the betterment, from when reviewing such details?
The reasons for my application process is because of the fact I had begun my journey within the BDSM lifestyle as to the supposed to be consenting adult choices, because of the classes and demos as well as books I read through and studied heavily as to my own assigned homework before I had ever earned my graduation from the Dominant Mentor Program of which I began that year of training in the area of Austin Texas and graduated from the Dominant Mentor Program in the Dallas Texas location. I know there are times when the need to have details paid attention to as to the requirements of reviewals in truth of which the facts of having been known to be open and honest within the lifestyle communities whether in reference to in person when face to face as well as online as to the social media forums, as to the knowledge and understanding of not being the only one who had experiences of various types in which the realities of having accepted the situations of the current timeframe as to the ways of which the world has been moving towards for centuries.
For a submissive who truly cares to understand me in truth, it begins with the truthful reaching out to me. In reality all one has to do is apply and my response to your application message, will be as per the approach made as to such factors.
OTHER NOTES:
Understand that you are the bottom and I am the Dominant Leatherwoman Top, period and end of story.
Thank you for your time and I am looking forward to reviewing your response via my website contact form, as per the link here. Contact Susan MeeLing www. susanmeeling .com/to-contact
Brightest of Blessings,
Lady Dori Belle
www. fetlife .com/users/484330/posts/1401207
The To Contact form through my website now in the year of 2021 onward is more ideal in my opinion, if there is such an ideal as to such in regards of the possibility of others seeing me as relationship material in such capacities.
www. susanmeeling .com//to-contact
I recall having actually done more html coding as to my prior work as to such tests as to my own memory referencing the ways I had been working on remembering the work I had done as a child and a teenager compared to the ways it looks on the fetlife website, in all such comparisons.
However those situations can be found out for those situations, and those people and those types can be found out for those people and those types as to such factors.
I personally especially in the month of February in the year of 2013 had the least amount of care, concern, need, want, or desire as to any such types of situations in reference to any relationship aspect in such a regard as additionally I was not ever looking for a marriage as well as to the title situation as I did not ever see any such portion being considered as anything other than invalid to me as those factors of marriage as to what I personally would require would not ever be listed in such a format as I know how I have always been as to such references and regards thereof.
However I also have the belief as to etiquette as well as human decency and common sense, which I found to be lacking throughout different individuals as I had met them during such points in time as I would not doubt as to such factors as to depending upon the type of individual in whichever associated group(s) thereof as to what aspects of such types of situations as to the aspects thereof. Such who wished to be more important to me than my own son and my own daughter who I personally carried and delivered after the knowledge of others as to the arithmetic as to such timeframes, pretty much showed me the levels of what intellectual capacities thereof as to the ways such situations had been as to the years before my son and I wound up in Washington state. However in reference to the National Geographic Open Water SCUBA Diving certification as well as the Air Force Air Show among other such situations after the San Antonio Express Newspaper article, what could be noticed as to what I told people who had claimed they had cared about me as their friend? I do not know what those people actually considered as a friend though with friends like that, no thank you as to such types thereof as I cannot look back to see such types of those people ever actually having been genuinely truthful friends as there would not ever be a genuinely truthful friend who would purposefully cause needless additional mistreatments to what had already been going on in reference to my daughter and my son and I's situations combined.
No one who truly was a genuine friend would ever needlessly cause problems to me as to such aspects, as no one who was truthfully caring about me would ever have added to what was already going on in such a negative way.
No one I could ever truthfully see as a friend would ever mess with the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury just as anyone who truthfully was a friend would not have or continue to cause such mistreatments as to such hypotheticals, as that is not a friend in the slightest as there would not ever be any need for me to ever see such an individual(s) as such other than they only saw me as lesser than in the comparisons as to an equal as to who I am.
I could not ever see such individuals as to having any self-value in such regards as to genuine self-respect if they had ever actually paid attention to the truth I had brought forward, though in such references in the comparisons thereof to a New Years Eve picture from 2011 into 2012 as to the bored look as to certain factors of which in comparisons as to if was genuinely happy to have been in such a timeframe I would guesstimate there actually would have been enjoyment in the comparisons. Though similarly as to the timeframe of the posting as to the comparisons of the actuality of the timeframe as to the posting, in such references as to whether or not fetlife knew about the factors of my biological mother having done what she said was updating my laptop in the additional factors as to the Geek Squad and Best Buy accidental warranty program situations; it would not be any surprise to me if such egotism as to others wishes as to the importance factors compared to the realities of what I was dealing with, though the irony as to the meeting with the individual at my munch in the Austin area of Texas as to the description thereof as to an ironic timeframe additionally to review as to this particular year of 2021. Of which the ways which that male had explained certain problems as to the group which he had asked me about as to the phone call discussion with Lady Robin up to that point before other childish needless drama occurred in the comparisons as to what I had personally needed at such a point in time as I did not think it took a head injury to figure out by the years of 2012 and 2013 as to what I actually needed in comparisons as to what occurred as that was fully unnecessary in the multitudes thereof as to the aspects of such points in time.
While it is proven as to the factors of what it actually takes for what lengths of time though the ironies of such aspects as to the combined factors in the comparisons as to what would have been as to the comments as to the various factors as to ex-relationships as to former relationships in such references, as to the reality of such factors in the ways of which if I actually had people I could have in depth discussed such with in ways which I personally felt comfortable in comparison to keeping my mouth shut as well as not discussing such online as to the ways which my Facebook account of my original modeling account would fully show as to my Lady Dori Belle account originally on Facebook as to the comparisons as to the fetlife aspects in similarities as to such factors. However the portions of what would be capable to show as to such factors of the relationship situations would be capable to be found if my original Susan MeeLing though Dark Lily named in the same as to the reference of my original Lady Dori Belle on Facebook as to the aspects as to the combined factors of my original Susan MeeLing Facebook in conjunction to my original fetlife Lady Dori Belle aspects thereof as to such minimal postings as to any such portions referencing the ex factors.
I am not the stereotypical millennial which some might have figured out in the long term aspects in the comparisons as to such factors, though if my biological mother admitted the truth as to such factors as to the updates as well as the aspects of the Geek Squad portions as to the amount of laptops and the accidental warranty program; I suppose an irony as to a prior combined aspect as to the Zoo story in comparison thereof to the proverbial aspects in such hypothetical situations, especially if in the additional consideration as to "The Modern Day Book (Written) By: Reverend Susan MeeLing".
As my biological sister had been married to a police officer as well as to other factors as to my biological mother having worked with the McHenry County Sherriff department in addition to Prudential, I suppose such factors of those additional though already clarified details might make a different bit of sense in such references and regards to such accusations I was dealing with in the years of 2010 and 2011 and 2012 before 2013 as that ex-boyfriend would know in reference to his prior relationship as to Juules or Jewels as to the aspect thereof. Which ironically I suppose if what was said had been true as to the rumors I heard from others as to her having been involved with a technology guru as to who she had left Patrick for, which then there are those situations of considerations if there ever was any such connected aspects to any other individuals thereof within the supposed to be consenting adult situations in the comparisons to the reality of when the option as to not being an option and not ever being willing to any such portion of consensual non consent as there is 100% no consent as to any such aspects as would only be viewed by my review as to nothing different than what I already dealt with as to how I grew up in the conjunction of then after waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as to my now dead-ex-husband in the combined factors thereof.
What would be different, to me?
Genuinely having consistent happiness, and actually having what I know I personally need in the comparisons as to what others have assumed as to such in the comparisons. Aside from the amounts of the only consistent having been false accusations, I have repeatedly said and written as to the differences as to what is considered of positive and beneficial aspects in the comparisons as to what I have needlessly dealt with. Though also mature individuals who genuinely know how to communicate correctly, as to the type of discussions as to the ways thereof to finding the balance as to the ideal portions for the situations.
How wonderful to would be to actually be capable to enjoy and live my life the preferred ways thereof in the comparisons as to what I have dealt with, as to what I have personally considered as to minimalism in comparison to what others hypothetically assumed as to what is such in their minds as to their thoughts in comparison to ever having the wherewithall to ever ask me in person when in person face to face as to such aspects as to what I personally consider minimalism for myself as to especially in reference to when my son and my daughter that I gave birth to as those are the only two people I personally consider as my specific son and my specific daughter as to the realities thereof in comparison to what some others might have wished as to such factors thereof similarly to the way certain SCUBA Divers had been over such points in time in comparison to paying attention to the realities in the comparisons to viewing such wrongly as recreational.
There was nothing recreational about my SCUBA Diving, and there was nothing which was ever genuinely relaxing as to what was supposed to be a consenting adult lifestyle as the only ish portion of such was a few discussions here and there compared to anything I personally preferred as to such references and regards thereof. Then again it would actually require various aspects such as the application being filled out to apply to me in comparisons as well as the in person face to face in person aspects, in the comparisons despite the COVID situations as to such aspects thereof in genuine truth and honesty compared to the aspects I have dealt with not any differently as to the facts my now dead-ex-husband worked in several different laboratories as well as went to college of which does it truly take a head injury to figure out the only way I would ever see anything different in a more positive light would be in an actual human being aspect in comparison to the same bothersome situations as to nothing new in such references as what did people think I dealt with as to the medical hold unit as well as all of the appointments on a military installation? Does it take a head injury to figure out when the first 8 years of my life after waking up from my coma after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury it would have been fantastic to actually know what civilian time was in comparison to just another type of a laboratory in comparison to actually having the humanity I have heard and seen others having such luxuries in the comparisons, as to what I dealt with as you know; that whole suriving the Mono and the Epstien Bar and the Lymnes Disease and the Bronchitis and the Flu as does it take a head injury to figure out the fact my biological mother/father/sister preferred my now dead-ex-husband as to the combined factors or did it take a head injury to point that out as to such a statement I wrote about in "Fidning A Silver Lining (Written) By: (Reverend) Susan MeeLing" as well?
What, is humanity?
I suppose in certain references, I might just be the one and only who has ever had such within me naturally and has had to awaken other people as to what serious aspects as to how robotic they have seemed to me in the comparisons thereof as that is my opinion from my observations as to the years from 2000 through 2013 especially in multiple ways before the years of 2013 through 2018 as I did not think it took a head injury to figure out there were those who seemed more natural and then there were those that seemed exactly the same as to individuals from 2000 through 2013. Maybe the term individual in the aspects of the Constitutional Rights and Amendments thereof in conjunction to the Pledge to the American Flag, might be considered as different now in such a review as to the year of 2021.
What is it to genuinely be correctly taken care of in the positive ways as I personally need, in genuinity and truth?
Well, maybe that can actually occur one day for my ability to have such consistently as I know and understand and comprehend as to what is best for myself. However I know better than to hold my breath as to waiting for such, as the reality as to having thought there would actually have been such as to how much I reached out for help and assistance as to such as I was dealing with more specifically from the years of 2009 through 2013 as to whether through the pictures I posted from my SCUBA Diving as to those who would have had intelligence as to simply just verify and clarify what aspects thereof as I did explain the situations in reference to the night before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and the situations as to the CQ office; though I did not think it would take a head injury to figure that point out, though apparently that might actually have had to be written down and pointed out as to such verified aspects in genuine truth as to those who have known about clearances as to such factors as to the requirements thereof as to such situations. However just as similarly as to having thought that would have been the ways of a modern way as to a symbol literally with fish in the sand as to the millenniums ago that were said to be 2000 years ago in the decades of the 1980s and the 1990s, apparently that was not picked up as to such factors from the years of 2009 onward through to even this point in time as to such aspects in reference to my SCUBA Diving trips in the comparisons as to simply asking questions in truth when in person and face to face in person while being honest.
What, a concept.
Gee, why do I not believe in the possibilities of a marital aspect as to such situations in reference to the title in comparison to the three words I had actually limited the title to in the comparisons thereof to the name of the title for the application process?
Why do I not believe as to any such portions of genuinity as to relationships with me in such references ever actually becoming into fruition and manifesting in my real life, comparatively as to the aspects of other such factors?
What has there ever been to a belief as to such references as to an actual relationship in such regards, as to actually speaking about such in person and in truth as to such factors using genuine words audibly as it should not take a head injury to have figured that out as to actual communication in such references as to the possibility of an actual relationship partner in such a type of a relationship comparatively as why would I ever believe such could be for myself in truth in such references and ways thereof as to my application process especially within the United States of America as to how many lazy individuals there have been as to the realities thereof regarding overseas individuals having filled out far more applications to send in my direction than any American in the United States of America?
No wonder other countries have made such references and remarks about the work ethics and/or lack thereof as to such individuals within the millennial sectors, as to such factors. Too many seek the overnight aspect and once the overnight aspect is over and done with there are those type who have not realized as to the continuous work it actually takes as to various situations, to sustain and maintain the aspects thereof compared to the assumptions in the comparisons as I guesstimate as to certain stereotypes in the references thereof comparatively. However maybe there are other factors of prior combined portions which might make additional sense, if there actually is the intelligence to review such honestly as to such individuals in such possibilities I suppose as from as much as I had been told in person during those years when face to face in person with various individuals as to situations and events thereof; I would have thought such individuals would have been as intelligent as they had claimed to be, during such points in time as to genuinely actually being of value and worth as to the humanity aspect in comparison to what I learned as to the culmination of situations thereof.
However if such situations as to the factors of as to who I am actually is of the value to the time for others to actually fill out the application correctly and send it directly to the contact form area for me to review in such references as to making my own decision for myself, then I suppose that will arrive in the contact form box in comparison to anywhere else as to the specific aspects thereof as to my reviewal in such references as to my choice for myself as I did not ever ask for assistance to such as to that would not be any different than the garage situation in such references and situations as to such prior times. Did it take a head injury to figure that one out, as well?
Aside from the fact there were between 45 to 50 questions in comparison to the 17 questions in the posting, as I am quite thorough in comparison to the aspects of what I saw in such regards as to what was on fetlife compared to what I had written up.
Oh that's correct, I only did a one year subscription to fetlife membership as to the fees compared to those who would have the employment reasons as to paying for their lifetime membership to such factors of that particular references as to what I warned about in reference to the technological aspects.
Maybe it is a good thing my card simply just did not work for those factors, as to the ironic oddities thereof. Though seeing the large Wells Fargo Bank reminded me to the USAA bank as to both aspects as to the situations after that San Antonio Police Report as to the identity theft situations, which the COVID seems to be going forward in the ways which certain Austin rallies had the factors thereof as to what I warned others of for decades as to this point in the year of 2021.
Who back in the year of 2012 could have actually spoken with me in genuine truth, compared to what I dealt with?
How much helpful would that have actually been for me, similarly as to the more recent aspects as to such reviews thereof?
However the ironies as to The Nightmare Before Christmas aspects as to the Pumpkin Queen in comparison to the Pumpkin King as to such aspects, as what would it matter as to having an actual reason to dress up at this point anyway?
It is not as though there has been any reason I have seen as to such aspects anytime recently as to the Halloween timeframe, though that is a situation which my babysitter's husband who had been a Director of Security at the World Trade Center had as to a few years as he and she had noticed the ways which the economy went when I was in a bad mood and rightfully so as to the situations thereof as to several other factors I warned people about as it is always best when I am in a consistently good mood compared to a consistently bad mood; or in the situations as to the inconsistency as to other situations which being in a more positive and beneficial aspect as to myself, well I gave such warnings repeatedly. It sure would be more ideal for such to actually go forward in such ways consistently as to my better mood aspects, in comparisons thereof as to how such situations have been.
I do not do the hinting aspects which in turn in reference to an additional aspect as to my application reasons for showing actual bluntness and to the point directness, the factors thereof as to it being seen as a waste of my time regarding hinting and/or guessing aspects as to my personal opinion of such factors.
That will not ever cause any sensation as to me seeing such as being wanted in the positive ways, as I know what actually works for such aspects in the comparisons as to the ways of childish situations which I have purposefully avoided as to seeing far more to life than such types of games needlessly.
I purposefully did not play with brats or Littles, as they simply just do not do anything for me in that particular way beyond being able which was/is only when they are out of that mode to speaking with as mature adults.
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