It should not take a head injury *after personally sustaining a head injury & coma* to figure this out...
After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first. While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me. As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.
If I had real friends(if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose. Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?
As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.
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I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute.
The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.
I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations. However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.
Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.
If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying how it should not take a head injury to figure out.
*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)* By: (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as
After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math. Here is how logic works for someone like me::
~ It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.
~ It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.
~ After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.
~ When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.
~ After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.
~ When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.
~ After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.
~ Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.
~ It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.
~ Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.
When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.
If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.
You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have.
Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.
Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.
Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit.
Thank you, in advance.
REMEMBER:
After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math. Here is how logic works for someone like me::
~ It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.
~ It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.
~ After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.
~ When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.
~ After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.
~ When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.
~ After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.
~ Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.
~ It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.
~ Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.
When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.
If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.
You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have.
Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.
Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.
Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit.
Thank you, in advance.
Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school. The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.
If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.
I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013.
In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.
How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?
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Combining Original Accounts for Clarification: #33 of 88
In reference of combining all of my journals I wrote through my original #fetlife account which I will post the link at the bottom for the clarifications thereof, I am going to have the transparency brought forward as to what can be seen from the original posting dates as to the current timeframe of this day 28 November 2021 for those to see as to my original #Facebook accounts of Susan MeeLing as well as Lady Dori Belle for the additional ability to see the connection links as to what I had discussed for many years and decades in person as well as online as to such factors as best as I could as to the circumstances. Possibly such details will assist to make sense, in the comparisons thereof as to the amounts of details though in addition I do not pretend or hide myself from my truth which others should realize it is important to be honest and truthful in many more ways than just in one or two moments as it is imperative to be more capable to recognize the truth in such aspects of life for far more than some might have realized despite all of my warnings as to what I knew to bring forward to assist as best as possible.
I will begin with posting my newer updated journals from my original account and work backwards as to the irony I noticed. There will be plenty to read in the ways of, whether or not you choose to venture into the areas of the website fetlife.
Posted on 17 May 2013 additional notations added in a section 28 November 2021 as to that post on fetlife
50...Momento...
Repeatedly, I have been asked about 2 different movies for many years, in reference to 'my life' and how I 'have to live' each day.
Both movies, from the initial time of hearing about each movie; it has taken me several years before I could force myself to sit down to watch either.
One movie is a "view" of what the life of being someone with a head injury with memory loss and the other movie is a "view" of what it would be like, on the outside looking in to someone with a memory issue due to an accident.
I watched the view of others' and what extent some who truly love and care for the individual with the issues continue to do for someone with said problems, in the first movie.
I watched the 'life' that I deal with daily, as being the one with the injury; in the other movie.
Neither movie having actual scenarios that I have personally lived through; i.e.:
car accident causing my injury... or
an attempt to kill me in response to murdering my wife... or
constantly moving everyday to kill someone/have others plot to have me kill others... or
family continuously trying to keep things safe for me... or
things being a "romantic comedy"...DEFINITELY not any romance...maybe comedic... or
it is a "thriller" or "suspenseful" in 'living' this "way"...
...etc....
However, I must say that both movies were very hard for me to watch.
...not just attention span wise...you know...the movie taking more than 5-10 minutes...sigh...you know...something shiny flew by...or a butterfly...or a squirrel...or...well...sigh...
...you know...
...sigh...
;-P
Anyway, 50 First Dates was difficult to watch as I have NEVER had anyone go to the lengths that the male seeking the relationship from the female with the injury had ~ let alone the father and sibling(s-?) who went to the extremes of trying to help and assist her daily to cope with her "new life" and what she has to deal with.
It would be nice...hell...it would be better than 'nice'...it would be AWESOMENESS to have had that sort of experience...s...at
ANY point in my existence...sigh...and it would be even better if it actually lasted through the time of my existence on this planet...
The movie Momento was much more difficult for me to handle than the 50FD movie, as this one is about living the 'life' of having memory deficits due to the injury sustained.
...wow...just...wow...
So...YES...for all those who have asked before and all those who may ask in the future...Momento is VERY similar to what I go through on a daily basis...
...now I understand as to why I was such a pansy ass little punk who could not gather the nerve or the strength to face this particular movie...
...and now I understand more as to why the movie 50 First Dates was not so "funny" or "sweet" to me, personally...
...sigh...
Last night, I had to process Momento and all that I had seen the male character go through:
...from the people in his life who claim to be his "friends" who purposely would lie to him about previous events to say that something DID happen that actually NEVER occurred in time or the opposite of the supposed loved ones telling the injured person that events DID NOT happen at all/the way recalled by the male when the event(s) ACTUALLY DID HAPPEN and exactly/very close to his thought process...
Whether it was a "joke" in order "to be funny" or "tease" him about his memory loss to actually being vindictive to mess with the thought process or whatever reason given...to the movie only as there is no excuse nor cause nor reason to ever actually excuse someone for purposely messing with another person in such a way and manner in my opinion...albeit biased as to having dealt with such aspects as I had told people about in person as to what I was dealing with which few believed me at those times...
...sigh and grrr...yes...I have had that happen to me...on MANY different occasions...by MANY different 'people'...from those who have claimed to be my *'friends'*~from those who claimed to be my *'lover(s)'*~from those who were my 'family'...-blood included...
...sigh...many time...sigh...TOO many times...sigh...grrr...sigh...
...from those who are in the injured's life that call him names such as "freak" or "retard" or even "liar" or "faker" because he can remember certain events/times/places/scenarios/etc. and yet all in the same situation, he will forget what he is talking about in mid-sentence...
While in one moment the opposite person is 'caring' about the hurt party; in the next second he is an "inconvenience" or a "burden" or [enter random degrading comment(s) here at your own risk].
...yes...this is something that I have dealt with...occurring with MANY different people/parties being involved...sigh...too many...sigh...waaaaay too many...sigh...
...let alone...the tattoos being more than what is appearing before the viewer 's/s' eyes...
...from etc. to etc. to etc. as far as different scenarios and situations with a variety of people...
The 50FD movie hit me pretty hard when I first saw it...as I have randomly thought about the movie...as I have repeatedly been asked in reference to the movie...as it randomly shows up on a random feed of whatever netflix/google/yahoo/etc. that I at some point run into for some stupid reason...and so on...
With 50FD, that movie affected me tremendously because I saw how loving and devoted some people can be to try to assist the injured...sometimes not helping in the best of ways (i.e. painting the garage every evening so she could repaint her mural from scratch) - but ALWAYS with the best of intentions...
...in other ways of constant trial for medical treatment to assist her...
...in more ideas of her love taking the time to help her actually LIVE her life...and genuinely and truthfully love, adore, and cherish her...with all issues attached...
...sigh...
...hence...why it is a fictional film...
...based on some aspects of the reality for some...but not others...plot line being a 'minor' one...
...but...but then the second movie...
...well...
Momento was more of a movie looking through the eyes of someone who actually 'survived' the head injury...and THAT aspect of having to constantly make written reminders...constantly LOSING those reminders and then not remembering about what the reminder was even for because IF one actually FINDS the reminder ~ one has to sit and recall whatever one can remember of the 'so-called' "reminder"...
...or random flashbacks happenings...not knowing it is a flashback until reality and time smacks one in the face with a cement cylinder...
...sigh...***TODAY...THE SEVEN-TEETH OF MAY 2013... ~ NOT...I REPEAT...NOT...N-O-T THE 13TH OF MAY 2013 ~***
...as I ORIGINALLYthought...
...sigh...
Anyway...so...basically...to answer the continuously repeated over and over and over and over and over and over and over again questions of:
1.) Is your life like the movie "Momento"?
***~ OR ~***
2.) Is your life like the movie "50 First Dates" with [that blonde female I cannot remember and that male who has done a few comedic movies that I do NOT recall either] was in?
To answer BOTH questions in a short and sweet manner right her and right now...
...sigh...
...unfortunately...I have to say...the answer...as much as I despise it...
Yes...
STILL trying to process the one I saw yesterday...intermittently having the first movie pop in and out of the 'picture'.
To clarify I despite the problems which have occurred to my son #Letters4James, my daughter #Letters4Lidia, and I as the problems from the mistreatments have caused multiple situations additionally in many situations and ways as to the aspects needlessly.
Though I suppose as to the irony referencing the Momento aspects, though the situations in reference to the 50 First Dates, that is quite a different situation obviously.
Personally, I prefer the 50 First Dates mixed with the Ever After movie aspects in my biased admittedly opinion and preference thereof as to such a way which would be far different from the oddities as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury though the Ever After as to the irony regarding both before as well as after waking up from my coma after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury.
Me #ReverendSusanMeeLing #SusanMeeLing #LadyDoriBelle in the year of 2021
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Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school. The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.
If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.
I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013.
In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.
How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?
REMEMBER:
After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math. Here is how logic works for someone like me::
~ It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.
~ It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.
~ After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.
~ When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.
~ After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.
~ When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.
~ After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.
~ Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.
~ It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.
~ Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.
When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.
If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.
You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have.
Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.
Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.
Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit.
After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math. Here is how logic works for someone like me::
~ It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.
~ It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.
~ After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.
~ When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.
~ After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.
~ When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.
~ After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.
~ Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.
~ It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.
~ Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.
When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.
If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.
You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have.
Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.
Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.
Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit.
It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.
If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.
That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.
Quotes which mean a lot to me:
"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."
"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker. Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction. We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."
"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony. Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice. One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)." ~ A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle
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In such references if there are any inaccuracies then I will fix and repair such details on my website, as per such.
Though there are the aspects of which if you would like to speak with me in addition to possibilities of opportunities for me, the welcome aspects as to contacting me through my contact form.
If I have known you in person when in person in positive ways and/or ways which might need clarification(s) as to mature discussions, there has always been the welcome open door policy as to contacting me through my contact form if you were not given my new phone number though such is online regarding my website more recently published online as to my Website Business Phone Line: (360)-713-4937.
Thus far there has been only one who has known the contact form area to speak with me on a phone line was simple and capable to do so through, in truth.
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