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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Basic Training at Fort Sill Oklahoma time and details in part with more...




The ways to which my time in Basic Training at #FortSill Fort Sill #Oklahoma Oklahoma had gone, I know for a fact as to the different portions I had already gone into regarding the fighting to be emancipated as well as speaking with the MEPS station in #Chicago Chicago #Illinois Illinois had gone as it had. However the reference points regarding the timeframe of what was called Zero Week was not a total of one week, though because of the amount of time which the group I had gone to Basic Training with had been kept in the one particular area before going across the tracks had been what we were informed was Zero Week. Without any calendars and without any form of reference as to the actual amount of time which had passed by as well as without a watch which had a date as well as the time for the portions regarding what was called Zero Week, we were not in the know as to the actual length of time which Basic Training had actually begun until we crossed over the railroad tracks to go into the area for Basic Training proper. Once we were in actual Basic Training is when I began counting the days as I had already counted the days and the weeks for which would be considered the time as I thought it would be in reference to Basic Training of the nine weeks, which for the Army branch of the United States of America is a nine week Basic Training. However if it were to have been counted regarding the amount of time as actual Basic Training from the starting point of as soon as getting the uniforms as well as all of the immunizations which I have been told is no longer than a three day period of time, I had left for Basic Training for the location of Fort Sill Oklahoma on 22 March 2000 which three days later would have been 25 March 2000; which in turn would mean in conjunction with the timeframe of the nine days of what was thought to be Basic Training would mean I had actually completed around three and a half weeks of Basic Training, prior to my head injury on Psalm Sunday in 2000.


As a reminder as to the first day of the time regarding arriving for Zero Week in reference to the bus ride from the airport in #OklahomaCity Oklahoma City to Fort Sill Oklahoma, I had gotten in trouble for noticing how many people were on the bus with me and pointing out that our seating arrangements had changed when we were pulling into the base. I then had gotten into trouble for noticing a male who was in a business suit in the very back area of the bus which had a bathroom which when looking towards the back where the bathroom was on the left and the back row of seating was on the right along the back wall, which I had asked who he was and what he was doing on the bus to begin with as he did not have anything which looked military at all. I and one other female had initially been given our uniforms before we left the Chicago O'Hare Airport in comparison to going through the lines which we did go through the lines for additional uniforms of BDUs when at Fort Sill Oklahoma, however everyone on the bus to Fort sill Oklahoma had been issued their uniforms before arriving to the bus area to go to Fort Sill Oklahoma. When the male in the business suit which was wearing a dark black matching jacket and pants of extreme thickness, a very bright white button down shirt, a tie with a matching hanker-chief in the when looking at him the right side of the jacket, a fedora style hat with a feather in the side of the hat on the same side as his pocket hanker-chief, black socks, and highly polished black shoes. His skin tone was a pale complexion, he had lighter blue-ish green-ish hazel-ish eyes in combination of colors, and I could not see what color his hair was as it seemingly was a shorter hair length. When I had asked him who he was and what he was doing on the bus it had not occurred to me that he had reminded me of one of the males I had met when I was a waitress at IHOP as I had already described referencing prior journal blog entries, though he simply smiled at me which sent chills down my spine as it was confusing as to why he would smile at me in the situation everyone was in. As the others grabbed their gear bags to get off of the bus to walk into formation, he followed at the end of the line which was where I was at when getting off of the bus.



He stood a few feet back from me as everyone walked and before I had gotten to the stairs I felt him lean forward to then ask me, "What is it you think I am looking form from you?"



I remember I turned around shrugging my shoulders to look back at him and ask, "What is it you are looking from me, why would I have the answer for what you are looking from me if you are the one seeking from me what you are seeking to ask?"



I remember he stopped suddenly in his tracks walking as I stood on the bus looking at him in his eyes, as the others were already off of the bus. He then leaned down towards where I was at height aspects as he was much taller than I by about a foot and a few inches to say, "You have been watched by us for a lot longer than you know, and we have seen what you have done already."



I asked "Did I ever do anything wrong or incorrectly, out of curiosity?"



He stood upward and said, "How could you ever know what a polygraph test is, is what you need to remember at this point."



He then motioned his hands for me to walk down the stairs, as I thought about what he meant. I then later got into trouble noticing that it was dark outside and knowing the length of time it actually should have taken to get from the Oklahoma City Airport to For Sill Oklahoma, the flight had been arranged to arrive at noon; however the bus ride should not have taken longer than 2 hours as per the time in the speed zones through the various areas, yet it was nightfall at the time and when walking into the building to wait for the Sergeants to discuss what the process phase was it was after midnight by the time of the wall clock above the desk for the check in. I then had gotten into trouble because of explaining to the female Sergeant as to the cause regarding the smell she complained about regarding the group of us, as I had explained the bus had a problem with the bathroom area and had not been taken care of as to what she was picking up referencing the smell of the clothing we were wearing. I then realized, we were all in our BDUs in comparison to being in our clothing when leaving for the airport which we arrived in our PT uniforms in comparison to our BDUs. I had again gotten into trouble for recognizing such as per being yelled at though not being smoked as per the normal standard as to such a situation, though I had learned there were certain similarities regarding our birthdays in reference to our particular group for the Basic Training assignment location. After being shown where the initial portion as to where we were to sleep in regards of the barracks at Fort Sill Oklahoma is when I had gotten in trouble for standing up for the female who had braids in her hair when the initial portion as to before the Sergeants went through our luggage, as I had known she had the right to have her natural hair as her natural hair was meant to be. The several Sergeants who surrounded her to yell at her about her braids then stomped over to where I was standing at the position of attention to then be yelled at for having the nerve to stand up for anyone as they wanted to know who I thought I was for being able to discuss what he hair was supposed to be regarding the braids, which I had recited portions of the Universal Code of Military Justice regulations referencing the natural hair color as well as the hairstyles which were natural for certain females in certain ethnic backgrounds; which I was then drug in front of her to then be yelled at in front of her as well as the rest of the females in the barracks, regarding taking a stand about her natural hair. Then was when everyone's luggage was gone through and when they had checked my luggage the only thing they considered as contraband was a second bag of fresh socks in a twelve pack, which I was ordered to explain my choice to bring what they considered as contraband though seemed natural to have an extra amount of socks because of the knowledge and understanding as to the road marching which would occur for the military aspects; which there are those who know as to how certain individuals are less inclined to accept the aspects of being accurate in various ways, whether in the military of the #ArmedForces Armed Forces of the #USA United States of America or in the civilian sector or anywhere else for that matter.



For an example for more recent times in regards of the 2020 election cycle and the technological aspects as to the putting the information in reference to my website in regards of the tagging regarding such portions for the election integrity portions, what was your response to the realities thereof regarding the facts? If you had chosen to go through such pictures/videos taken as to the different times and only saw either what I pointed out in part or had only thought about a few aspects, which aspects did you pay attention to? Did you pay attention to the fact I pointed out the reference aspects as to the reelection portions of #POTUS45 POTUS45 and #VPOTUS48 VPOTUS48, or did you also realize the portions I pointed out regarding the overall voting record regarding the particular election as to whichever votes you chose to cast in the election for 2020 across the entire ticket of? Did you choose to erase all of the pictures/videos instead of the election integrity portions only because of being in the area where I was because of other such portions regarding other posts I had made and what was your choices regarding such, to which then where is it you actually stand in reference to the portions regarding the election for 2020 as well as prior elections regarding whichever ways as to which you chose to vote of your own free will? Did you hide the pictures instead for a possible later date or did you keep the pictures as they were, or did you go and complete the portions as to the regards of putting such information of my website www. susanmeeling .com onto such social media accounts and why of whichever choice? Did you only see one per-view or did you truthfully think about which way you were going to approach such a situation, or did you allow someone else to make the decision for you in regards of who you know in person and allow their influence in such change your opinion or did you keep you opinion as such and why? Then think about what was your intention as to why such portions as to why you had gotten involved in the election process as to bringing whichever awareness as to, and whichever choice(s) were made then the possibility to think as to which ways as to which path in your life you truthfully want to go. It is obvious as to the fact checking portions of the Automated Information as well as the technological portions of the Artificial Intelligence regarding such aspects, though which reality are you wishing to portray compared to what your actual beliefs and stances are? What was your background for your choices as to be as such, and which ways were you willing to be known and/or seen in comparison to what has been known and seen previously by other such times with other such individuals/groups?



If such questions in the prior paragraph were cringeworthy because of the portions as to what aspects thereof, now think of a military installation full of individuals when I was in Basic Training at Fort Sill Oklahoma and the portions of time regarding this particular journal blog entry as to the realities for me when I was 17 years old at those times pointing just the few portions above out regarding the aspects of truth in all such ways nonetheless to the other aspects of whichever thoughts and opinions thereof. Also take into consideration the views as to law enforcement regarding how they have to figure out which individuals have the pattern of behaviours as to which ways to view such aspects, as well as military and fire department as well as medical services for such portions regarding the various portions thereof; whether they are in uniform as per Active Duty/National Guard/Reservists or in the Retired/Veteran statuses or simply being among the civilian sector of whichever aspect of just walking around to pick something up from a store, or working within a business to go as per whatever the portions thereof are. Which levels of ranking for whichever areas are only additional regarding such basic aspects compared to the regards as to the situations thereof, as it is a bottom to top sort of view regarding all such portions when taking into consideration the aspects of each voting portion for the 2020 election for just one example thereof. Is there the ability to repost such pictures/videos taken during such times of the election for the year of 2020, and other such aspects to go back to work to the best of ability to fix and repair whichever possible areas as to the concerns and care thereof for as many as possible?



The answer is in your hands as to which areas of what aspects as to how such choices there are of, as while it is known by those who knew me in person before I wound up in Washington state as to what I personally dealt with during whichever times they knew me in person; most likely I would guess they would be able to say while the temper tantrums I have might be considered justified in reference to the culminations of what I have gone through over the years, I would guess they would know as long as speaking with me in truth is the ways as to which such fixing and repairing occurs or at minimum reaching out in truth in comparison to whatever portions surrounded such times in reference to their own lives at such times. While the regards as to how the times have been since requesting information regarding the transfer process are more well known now as to the January 2021 timeframe, it does not change the facts as to the ways which situations have gone in regards of whatever the other portions regarding such are and to which whatever ways regarding such portions thereof in comparison to other situations in combination as per not only the time in reference to the 2020 election cycle though other such additional aspects thereof because of whichever situations. While those who may have known me in person before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury could possibly assume one way because of whichever other portions as to whatever they thought they knew of me at such times, the reality as to how my patterns of behaviour have always been is able to be seen and known regarding such aspects; to which the culmination of situations regarding the combinations of what I personally had experienced, is whatever thoughts as per the individuals involved regarding such thoughts as to my personal responses. While repeating the portions regarding the differences between the online aspects in comparison to the in person aspects in comparison to the combined of both aspects in whichever portions as to whatever prior opinions and/or biases as to whichever aspects thereof are able to be viewed regarding such choices, the reality of such is whatever each individual have for their own thoughts to go in whichever ways as it is known I truly have and truly do hope for the best. I am not the only person who has ever had to go through various portions in time to reevaluate various situations to which it does not take a head injury to know of such, as t does not take a head injury to reevaluate whichever pathways as to when reviewing such portions of one's life experiences; it takes a rational individual to be willing to be open within themselves and honest with such reviewal portions, to actually think about the various portions thereof regarding as to the why of what was or how as to evaluate such. While some could go into shorter temper aspects in comparison to reviewing all such portions, it is up to each individual as to which responsibilities for which choices were made and the regards as to which ways such choices had lead in whichever ways such lead. It is guesstimated at this point in reference to how many have thrown their hands up in the air being frustrated regarding multiple aspects though get back to situations once the clarifications are made and the forward progress is seen and known, though such truths are required for any such individual for such aspects of truth in my opinion.



When looking at the reference aspects as to the portions regarding the aspects as to the what was called Zero Week after such a point of being yelled at and later smoked (as per military terminology and not older east coast version of terminology I guesstimate as per some individuals' reference points) in reference to the Zero Week timeframe after standing up for the female and her natural hair, I remember the following day everyone who wanted to get a haircut and the males which were required to get a haircut were put into line as to who was going to the area for the haircut. I remember I told the female when we were in line as to get a haircut when she asked me why I was in line with her as one of the only females who was getting a haircut in comparison to a hairstyle, I told her I was personally not willing to stand by and do nothing regarding such a portion as to what I knew was the correct choice to make and thus I was getting a haircut which would not allow me to be able to put my hair into a ponytail the way her braids would have been able to keep her hair out of her face when she was going through various training aspects. She was quite for the road march out before getting onto the bus to be able to go across post to get to the area to be able to get a haircut as she sat in one of the other seats across the aisle looking back at me randomly as I kept my eyes forward, waiting to get to the barber shop for the haircut to occur. When in line waiting for the males to go through before the few females who were in line, she randomly looked back asking me a few questions I cannot remember at this point. I answered honestly as I knew to, which every now and then she smiled at whatever my response had been. The female which was a roommate at the time when in Chicago Illinois at the hotel area randomly asked me why I would ever speak with the female who I was speaking with and why I was getting a haircut instead of getting my hair styled, which I explained my stance as to such which she then was the same female who tried to say during the one mile run testing as to staying together to have the same time; which I told her if the group of females she had convinced of such could keep up with me, then they could keep up if they could as I was not willing to ever slow myself down for anyone else to feel better about their own scores. That female was in the separate area in the bay area of the Basic Training barracks after everyone had gone across the tracks, as her barracks area was secluded regarding the area as to the overall area and closer to the office area for the Drill Sergeants on the floor which meant they were closer to hearing whatever the Drill Sergeants were discussing though were not a part of the larger group of females in the Basic Training area as per the interior design of the floor for the bay area. Thus if those females in the area had realized such and were listening against the wall area as to whenever the Drill Sergeants were in their office, the Drill Sergeants already knew as to the location of those females bunks in comparison to the actuality of the openness of the rest of the bay area and in a metaphor had excluded themselves from the larger whole of the group of females in comparison by their own choices as we were each able to choose the bunk where we would arrange our areas personally as per availability.



While the metaphor as to trying to be more secluded to be in such a smaller space, they did not see that in order to get to the showers as well as the bathrooms they would have to go through the larger more open areas as to the bay; to which if they had chosen to cause problems in such a location, they would easily been able to be found out for such choices as the other females had been informed of what I explained to them in person while the other females in the secluded areas had been a bit pretentious thinking they were safer from the Drill Sergeants while about to listen to what the Drill Sergeants allowed the females to hear in that area as it was not the first Basic Training which had occurred regarding that Fort Sill Oklahoma base itself. Thus while I would not ever remember what the female's name was when I was in the hotel room nor care to officially as to her name as per the other choices she had already made at such times prior to the going through the one mile run, I can partially remember what she looked like. She was a few inches shorter than I though not by much, longer stringy-ish brown hair, brown eyes, and a lighter complexion, with a few freckles on her face. She was out during the time of when the male I had met at the #MEPS MEPS station had stopped by the hotel room to which she and I had a few moments together after he left to go on his way as he was leaving for Basic Training at a different point in time, though they had met and spoke with one another before he went along to leave; though he tried to get me to change my Basic Training time, which he was informed he was not important enough for me to change my schedule for that type of a situation which he was upset as to my coldness regarding his feelings at the time. I informed him he was not who I was interested in for such a relationship beyond such portions which in turn later during Basic Training she had asked me if I thought about him from the hotel and the MEPS portions, to which I informed her only because she brought him up was there any thought of what was at that point in time. She took a step back asking me how I could ever think such a way, which I told her I had more important things to take care of then his feelings or her feelings regarding what was more important in the larger aspects. She asked me if I felt the same way about her and I nodded, which she then took another step back from me when I responded.



She said just as he had as to how cold it felt regarding such a moment, which I informed her it was just one moment in comparison to the larger aspects as to life. I reminded her I was 17 years old, and life was as life was. I knew there were portions of life which were far greater than one moment in time and if the portions of if ever there was a requirement to go forward to ever discuss such times, then I would. However while she backed up a bit more asking why I was so cold to her, I informed her it was not any offense towards her unless she chose to be offended for no reason and then she would actually learn how cold I could and can be towards such people who think that just because of one moment of such importances in comparison to other such aspects. I was asked how I could as a female be as I was, and I informed her it was only my business and none of hers and she would be wise if she were to learn the difference between what was my business and what hers was to stay clear in comparison to getting involved with anything which was actually my business as per what could occur for such situations. She then tried to flirt by touching me which I pulled away from her and she was upset by the cold feeling she had felt, which I simply walked away towards where I needed to be in comparison regarding to her feelings. Later was the portion of time when the one mile run was tried, to which I had completed my one mile run in a longer amount of time than what I knew I could have done better in if I had not wasted the time giving the leeway of the benefit of the doubt as to anyone of the females keeping up with me in such a speed for the portions as to what was required for my graduation for Basic Training. The majority of the females who remained slower with her group were among the last ones to cross the finish line that day, as well as they were the females who had gone into the area closer to the Drill Sergeant's office and chose bunks if not able to be in the secluded area to surround where the door entrance was for the Drill Sergeants.



However in reference to the rest of the memories regarding the timeframe called Zero Week the other main memories have to do with going out to the field where the bleachers were in regards of the soldiers dressed in different cammo and pointing out to the individuals in my Basic Training as to the bushes lining in front of the bleachers being soldiers preparing for the show of arms regarding the base being a Calvary base, as Fort Sill Oklahoma is known for regarding the training aspects thereof. I remember while several of the bushes seemed to move oddly when I was looking over the ledge regarding my comment almost as though one or a few of them had heard me say such, as those I was in Basic Training told me they did not think I knew what I was talking about. Shortly after the battalion was seated in the bleachers to which the Drill Sergeants pointed at me and had me go to the top area, I repeated my sentiment regarding the bushes as well as pointing out the land areas where it looked as though some of the dirt had been raked over the top of the ground areas as per prior training exercises from such and/or the prior group(s) which had seen such, when the actual display went onward regarding the aspects as to what I had pointed out regarding the artillery fire which was shown as to the power of different equipment pieces from tanks through to firearm capabilities as well as the hidden aspects as to the soldiers I had thought were dressed in different cammo who popped upward to shoot at various areas with mortar launchers and other such firearms regarding the capabilities thereof. Similarly to when going to see the movie Titanic when the propeller blade situation regarding a different response than what those I had gone with thought my response was going to be in reference to the movie at that moment as well as in the overall way, at several points in time I jumped up and cheered as the firepower was shown in force. I smiled seeing such aspects knowing there was/is importance for such aspects in which the requirements thereof, and knowing the aspects as to seeing the soldiers in the cammo handling the situations while maintaining what was required was awesome to see as well.



Knowing there is a specialized aspect to various portions of each of the weapons being used at the time, was important and is important because of the requirements at times for when such is actually required while hoping for the least possible amounts of damage because of the knowledge and understanding and comprehension that behind each individual firearm there is a human being who has to make the call as to whether or not it is appropriate regarding whichever choices are made if in an actual situation which requires such force to be utilized. As I had explained to one of the males sitting next to me at the area, I informed him as to the requirements for the human discretion at various portions because of the need to remember that the machines cannot distinguish the difference between such and the value of the individual and such skills need to be taken into consideration because of the importance not only before though also during and then after regarding the proper maintenance and sustenance of the portions to what I had told and explained to several as to the reasons as to why I had fought to be emancipated to be able to join the Army branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces. One of the males in the bleachers on the same row asked why I would ever know about #NYC New York City which I explained where I was born in #NJ New Jersey and had been around the tristate areas, though because my driver's license was from the Illinois area in comparison it was not believed I was telling the truth as I was telling the truth. I was not willing to fight over such as I knew there were ways to prove my life which he did not want to listen to nor agree that just because of a driver's license being from another state that did not mean the birthplace and upbringing in a location was the same, as he did not want think the people were able to move around the United States of America as easily back in 2000 which I reminded him he was in the #USArmy Army and they were able to move people around which made little sense as to how he could think it was not possible to have moved from New Jersey to Illinois which when I asked if he knew anyone else who had moved he lied to me saying that he did not ever know anyone who ever moved from one state to another state.



I remember after the bleachers situation everyone went to leave when one of the Sergeants had asked me to step to the side and answer a few questions as per having heard me say a few things which he thought I should not have known, which I explained I had read plenty of books and had prior situations which seeing uniforms was a part of my life. I explained growing up in New Jersey and going to #OTC Old Tennent Presbyterian Church which my Pastor had been a Chaplain in the Army branch for/of the United States of America's Armed Forces which he did not seem happy to know that I knew a Chaplain in the Army and asked the name which I had told him Hugh MacKenzie which he turned his nose up at. I had explained the additional portions regarding the church having had General George Washington's private office behind the church from the time of the Revolutionary War among a few other portions about the history of the church, which then he started calming down from whatever the situation was regarding the aspects of the Chaplain aspect regarding Pastor McKenzie however that is the last part of what I can remember regarding that situation.



Later I remember being in a different area of the base which having seen a Captain rank walking with a Medal of Honor recipient, I stood up and yelled Attention; though the individual thought I had said a ten hut which then he went on to lecture the group about people who watch too many movies and television thinking that had anything to do with the Army or anything to do with the military of the United States of America. It did not help the last movie I had seen prior to joining after being emancipated when I was asked had been the truthful answer as to Full Metal Jacket, as then that sent the Captain into a tizzy regarding the movie; yet I was not able to explain I was only allowed to see the move after getting permission to pick it up because of the way I was raised regarding movies and television, and only being able to see G rated movies without question though only able to see PG/PG13/PG17 movies after the review as to whether or not that would be allowed regarding those ratings because of how I was as a child and a teenager. I had asked multiple questions about many aspects as to Sunday School regarding the Bible while believing in certain aspects and clarifying other aspects, similarly to the male who was a missionary who had been at my house in San Antonio regarding the discussions about which I have described before as to such aspects thereof regarding 2nd Corinthians. As I grew up seeing more than some know I could see and dealing with the portions as to people having issues with what I could see as well as my visions as well as the nightmare and the dreams, it was something I dealt with onward for quite some time. While some have wished it was as simple as an explanation in a brief way, the realities of what I have dealt with regarding seeing in whichever wording preferred; it is something I have done since I was a child, and I had been consulted multiple times before about what I could pick up to assist in different ways throughout the tristate area referencing several situations and had been a part of why my Grandpa Gavett and my Bok Gung and my Bok Pu had diligently worked as they had to learn how to work with such abilities in comparison to just going one way or another because of several aspects already seen and which had come true regarding such visions of such. It became common for me to go with my biological father to different drop offs because of the people he worked for or did work for who knew of how I could see, which in turn meant while he was in the back for certain situations regarding the jewelry/watch aspects I was in the store area speaking with who had questions regarding various aspects to assist with such additional portions regarding such aspects.



There had been several who had recently or over time had lost a loved one who needed clarifications as to what was seen regarding the truth as to what occurred regarding their spouse/child/friend to which the ways of clarifications were different per individual, as depending upon the situation regarding such depended how I could present such information in reference to such a situation for a different type of clarification which some were unable to get regarding other aspects of finding such information however so at the times of. In one particular recent situation regarding a particular aspect because of timing as well as the ability to go over certain portions, the aspect of the Armed Forces at times is the giving of one's life for another regarding how certain situations occur when in the battlefield to which there are times when the Armed Forces cannot go into the other specific details because of whichever connections thereof because of the actualities as to the actual physical situations regarding how such portions are when in reference to the Armed Forces of the United States of America. While some are more privy to certain information even those with other aspects are not allowed the specific wording thereof because of the levels as to which certain aspects have been, to which when in regards of more specifically family aspects; the requirement for the respect to the immediate family unless there is an investigation which there is the respect thereof for some depending as to the situations involved as obviously there are those who have not had the respect to others involved because of their biases and not having all of the fuller details, the requirements for discretion regarding how to approach a situation is difficult at times because of various situations in a larger overall aspect. What might not necessarily be known for certain individuals is when there is immediate family within the aspects of certain capacities of various forms of the United States of America's government and/or law enforcement and/or the Armed Forces it does not necessarily matter what the clearance levels thereof are, because of the requirement for the knowledge regarding certain situations due to the sensitivity of the larger aspects as to the overall for such aspects. It is one aspect regarding those who are not related by blood as per seeing certain information even without the pictures because of the situations involved and the requirement to not place blame on the wrong individuals for other portions due to certain aspects which it would not be a surprise in certain situations to which if I was introduced to an individual who I was not informed of the questions regarding such prior to meeting, my thoughts would not be focused necessarily upon such situations. I suppose in other references though to a specific situation back in the end of 2009 regarding one meeting of a parent as I was told of if accurate as to such a timeframe, I was not informed as to the purposes beyond simply meeting the parents as to the relationship at the time; which thus the focus would only be towards such, however because of my own personal discretion regarding having seen for many years and knowing the requirements as to certain aspects for the safety thereof; it is something which specifically needs to be asked, because of the portions regarding various portions of seeing.



After waking up from my coma after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and re-learning of how I can see while on a military installation, I had to re-learn quickly as possible as to dealing with such aspects personally. Thus in the reference to such a time in the reference regarding 2009 yes I did smell gunpowder, as well as the after smell regarding when firearms are shot in rapid succession. Yes I did smell gun oil regarding the requirement for proper maintenance of the firearms involved, however I did also hear what I thought was a kickback regarding the ways as to how certain firearms have a specific sound whether or not they are properly maintained. I had seen different locations as to where such portions of the various rapid successions of firearms were involved, though having to focus on meeting the parents in regards of as I had been told; there was not the portion as to the correct timing to bring such information up because of the facts regarding the explanation to the meetings in the first place, despite having been told last minute as to the situations of one being in the government to which in that regard as per such a short amount of time after my #SCUBADiving SCUBA Diving at the USS/USNS General Hoyt S. Vandenberg #Vandenberg and the portions additionally afterwards, it was not the way which felt as though was ideal to speak of such portions as per only the first time having met the parent at each location though in specific regarding the father regarding such portions. If I had been informed of questions needing answers in the vision sort of way beforehand in comparison to be able to assist in the timing of that would have been much different, however there are others who I have met and known over the years because of knowing as to the military connections and knowing and understanding as well as comprehending the aspects thereof; the situations as to such portions as to what was noticed, is difficult to put into words though might explain certain choices of mine to such degrees as to my quietness regarding the facts thereof regarding seeing because of such a high population of military associated individuals as well as law enforcement and fire department and EMS aspects though obviously not limited to because of the reality of life as well as the associated realities of the death aspects per various situations throughout life.



There have been those who went to Old Tennent Presbyterian Church having been informed as to me being there and if my Grandpa Gavett and/or my Bok Gung and/or my Bok Pu informed me of a specific envelope or folder to look for a specific individual to speak with and/or whatever other particular signal as per the situations as those were the ways which some had picked up and noticed to get other such information, my Grandpa Gavett/Bok Pu/Bok Gung made sure to teach me other methods as to pay attention to which I had already seen in other ways for my choice as to make sure to take a step back if required because of such energetic situations because of the levels of which I can see. Thus in reference to the situation in regards of the above paragraph in such regards if connected regarding certain situations, it was not a choice of rebellion against wishes it was the ways as to protect those within the field as per training and being a part of the United States of America's Armed Forces. The last letter sent through the mail was not as per the ways which were intended to worry or cause upset though were to inform as to the levels of stress because of other such portions as to the aspects of which to what was seen regarding other aspects at such times, though unable to go into the actual details thereof because of the levels of required discretion regarding the military aspects as to the United States of America's Armed Forces; though there are those who are in other countries with such situations regarding the military/law enforcement/fire department/EMS aspects thereof more particularly. However there are reasons as to why the letters were sporadic as well as limited in other such regards as to the amount of time actually being able to write a letter because of the amount of work and continued training while in various situations, which the time being used properly and wisely as best as possible are also required regarding such aspects; not to cause concern in more ways than in regards of the situations overall, though to at minimum be able to reach out for contact regarding such, for the ability to know at minimum still being alive.



I am aware as to multiple situations regarding the portions of many who know of such portions though due to other such connections as to other surrounding situations thereof which the details of are not always as clear as wished regarding such portions, however sometimes the required additional time assists to bring such of which details are needed for other clarifications to the connected portions not always seen immediately because of the other locations thereof for such a reference and regard thereof. While I am also aware as to the realities of others which have sought such information because of the ways which certain scenarios have gone because of the other such connected aspects the requirements to be mindful of such sometimes seems more difficult than some wish as it is on multiple sides regarding such, however the pertinence as to the requirements for such details is not always the easiest to bring forward because of such additional connections as to other types of investigations to which more actually look towards bringing forward despite some portions as to which aspects can be due to those additional connections points.



In a different reference aspect as to an individual I had gone on a couple of dates with at one point in time in 2009 the portions as to which I think he may have picked up on though did not realize as to what I had picked up on regarding such aspects, due to such being a beginning and not able to fully formulate the words to explain such abilities beyond what I could explain; the ironic aspects as to the switching of seating arrangements for a larger view regarding such, though admittedly at such times the dating had not formed officially into a relationship regarding such aspects thereof due to what situations went as the situations had went. It was shown to him in the ways as to my care regarding such at the last time I had knowingly seen him, however as per the portions of how specific when in relationship aspects as I am the portions as to assume is a situation regarding such in a multitude of ways because of how I personally am about relationships of that particular type of moving forward in other such ways. However while I have not doubted as to the possible questions as to such additional portions as I had discussed my SCUBA Diving with him after he had brought up being at one point in time in the Navy branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces prior to private security aspects, the situations thereof regarding such energetic portions picked up had been explained to a degree regarding why I fought to be emancipated to be able to join the Army branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces after having already applied and successfully gotten to the interview portions of the Marine and Science Technology School with the Naval attachment; though admittedly because of the other aspects regarding other informational points, as to ensuring a specific set of requirements for myself to be able to go into such other details because of the need for specific aspects for myself to be able to go through certain portions thereof in comparison to how others might see certain portions compared to how I personally see the aspects to which I can see. As there are multiple senses involved regarding the portions as to how I pick up energy regarding the aspects thereof to be able to see, I am quite different regarding how such goes regarding such portions because of the requirement for truth in comparison to those who pick up however they pick up some aspects. I can literally see, hear, smell, sometimes taste regarding depending upon the situations, as well as touch to be able to move certain aspects in such visions in such sights because of the ways I personally have been taught to work with such aspects well before actually being in the Armed Forces of the United States of America officially. While some prefer to make an ambiance regarding how they choose to discuss certain situations, I do not require as such as it is natural to me in comparison to having such other requirements thereof for some sort of possibility regarding the usage of cards or other such forms of divination comparatively as others I had met such as a male named Egan who was upset and jealous I did not need nor require the other portions as to which he had studied in comparison to what I had learned and already knew without any such books for any such portions thereof. He was not the first who was envious of such aspects, and definitely was not the last who was envious f such aspects regarding my personal capabilities.



In returning to the portions regarding the aspects as to the Zero Week portions I had randomly seen the male in the black suit as described randomly walking around certain areas at Fort Sill Oklahoma with certain individuals when I went where I had gone with the others in reference to which all he would do was smile in my direction as he continued walking onward, and though I do remember a time of which I was questioned in a different way during such time in Zero Week as it was called; those particular questioning timeframes during the Zero Week portion, were those particular questioning times and part of a situation regarding my knee in reference to what questioning aspects had been as they had been during such time regarding Zero Week. As there were a few females I noticed in Basic Training who had some who looked similar enough when in the processes of Basic Training and the ability to wear the uniform with the name tag as per the situations thereof, when in the Armed Forces of the United States of America the ease for the cameras during such times as to only pick up certain portions thereof I guesstimate might have been a situation regarding other aspects as to the clarifications thereof. As identity theft has been more well known more recently, I hypothetically can see certain situations being a bit difficult regarding such other portions thereof.



During the time after going over the railroad tracks after the physical fitness tests the day before, the portions which I have discussed and written about regarding the bay area in this posting as well as other writings of mine including my Finding books have such portions about the floor aspect and that particular Drill Sergeant male who was around my height, lighter complexion, bald haircut, and brown-hazel colored eyes, had been the one who had discussed me looking familiar from Fort Sill Oklahoma when at the Midnight Rodeo with Alicia prior to the two other situations that particular evening which he said he was a Drill Sergeant at Fort Sill Oklahoma shortly before everything had gone the way such had gone regarding other situations in my life at the time. Drill Sergeant Parsley who had called Medical Hold Unit from Fort Sill Oklahoma about Specialist Carolton (?spelling?) and a few other transfers from Fort Sill Oklahoma to Medical Hold Unit at Fort Sam Houston had been surprised as to me answering the phone as well as being surprised I was alive at the time, which I told Corporal Watson about the phone call and was shortly moved from the orderly room to the Navy and Marine area because of the safety requirements as well as how I had been known in regards of several other aspects.



Aside from what I was informed of regarding the Congressional Investigation about the situation regarding my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and that particular Drill Sergeant and his wife, there were multiple other situations regarding how much I had annoyed the Drill Sergeants because of my knowledge and understanding and comprehension of the Universal Code of Military Justice which several were infuriated I had known such in the first place. Drill Sergeant Parsley a taller lighter complexion male around a bit taller than six feet with brown-hazel colored eyes had been infuriated with me for standing up when the class went about ranks in Basic Training because of knowing the importance of the Chief Warrant Officer rank and because he had considered me as a problem child in Basic Training aside from what I had been able to accomplish in the #CCC CCC and the #COC COC courses among other portions, the choices he and others made regarding such times had been the choices he and others had made during such times; which includes whether or not they knew about the phone calls being recorded on military installations at all times, which the location of such records is wherever the location of such records are kept. In reference to the situations as to him and others having problems regarding the way I was raised in comparison to what information they were allowed to have regarding my personal background, it is a known fact as to how certain higher ranking individuals think that just because they have a rank they think they are allowed more than they have earned; in which just because one might have a higher rank, does not mean the training as to such is ever the exact same and the backgrounds thereof being similar as some individuals have and others have some of the training though the experience with the training makes things a bit more on an even keel regarding certain situations to assist other combined aspects thereof regarding what is known to several and understood by a few while being comprehended by just a small select group thereof regarding the importance.



However for clarification aspects as to the timeframe of my Zero Week and Basic Training as well as prior such experiences it has not to cause problems regarding such aspects beyond just the few situations I have gone over in regards of this journal blog entry or other prior such writings, it was merely to assist where I could for more than just the few who have been brought forward in regards of as there are many who have other such aspects to assist in more ways. For example regarding the hair aspect and that particular portions thereof, there are many benefits regarding the ways for the female and those of her ethnic background regarding the natural hair and style thereof because of the ease to maintain such in comparison to the amount of hair sessions which though it can take awhile for some of the braiding with and/or without the weave portions, however the amount of time when taking into consideration others with different ethnic backgrounds as to the overall amount of time for travel plus the time in the waiting area as well as the actual processes themselves to which the time for longer natural hair regarding such is usually a lesser amount of time when taking into consideration the portions in such a way. In my opinion regarding the military aspect the regards as to the ease when out in the field or overseas the ability to maintain and sustain the cleanliness is already learned from youth to which the ease for other such portions is greater than some may have realized back in 2000 among other times, and the less maintenance overall is also an added assistance for certain fields of expertise from the training. In reference to the extra bag of socks and such undergarments thereof, it makes ideal sense for those who are prepared to be ready to go into situations which those aspects are considered assistive regarding wherever planning to to whether in reference to ideas as to what is about to be and/or duty assignments regarding other such portions.



In regards as to what had been brought up about the ranking aspects the Chief Warrant Officers have the mediation portion between the enlisted as well as the Officers, and are able to cut through the middle to get to the point more quickly at times without the bureaucracy and the tape sometimes each side has had regarding the portions of getting answers to get other portions squared away quicker, for the clearer and more concise answers when a Chief Warrant Officer is involved with any such work and/or investigations. Especially when taking into consideration certain aspects in the civilian sector particularly because of the known enlisted ranks as well as the known Officer ranks, though since there are few with Chief Warrant Officer ranks compared in numbers overall; the more ease to be able to get through to the core of the situation, to be able to verify other details, and move things along quicker as needed for other such portions of which need clarification. The example I can give is in reference to the funeral situation regarding my ex-in-laws as well as their choice to support their relative even with their living relatives explaining such for months prior to his death, as well as other situations involved with such a time. While other situations were brought forward to the Chief Warrant Officer 3's attention at the time in 2008, there are other details to which some were not privy to regarding the family biologically at such times because of the requirements regarding other such investigations surrounding other events thereof. Though I do and have admitted multiple reasons as to why I knew I needed to be involved with the Armed Forces of the United States of America to help with what I could see though unable at such times to be able to go into such details more in depth, the length of time to go over such just from the portions thereof to my childhood and upbringing aside from the portions regarding the after times of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury when taking into consideration as to the 1.5 years I have been working on updating the details from my childhood and teenager years for other such clarifications if I had been in the state of Texas writing such at the time of writing and organizing the paperwork regarding the Finding book series in comparison at the time in 2013-2014 in the larger aspects more officially hopefully has more clearly defined such points in time with the additional explanations regarding other such after times regarding the aspects as to after waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury.



Having to re-learn the names of colors as well as how to count to 10 has been important for more than I had realized though had a knowing and understanding of regarding the medical portions to those who had been before me regarding the head injury after effects as well as those who I knew could be impacted by such regarding after the situations of 11 September 2001 and those more specifically in the Armed Forces branches and divisions of the United States of America's Armed Forces in the overall aspects of the law enforcement/fire department/EMS fields as per the requirements at times of some of their jobs and what they have to go to take care of regarding certain situations. I had told two of my main doctors at the time when I was in Medical Hold Unit I had wanted to go back to the military to complete what I had known I needed to though after such situations regarding 11 September 2001 and my first doctor's appointment for my reviewal regarding the Temporary Retirement Duty Leave at the time, I had told Dr. Clement as to the importance of her and Major (rank at the time) Jamie Grimes needed to assist others when those who would need such additional help and assistance for the life after being in whichever Armed Forces branch and/or division of the United States of America; which admittedly as having discussed what I could remember at the times of regarding the aspects of the technological portions, I knew there were those in certain areas aside from the Armed Forces of the United States of America who had not known or understood other portions regarding the larger availability of the usages regarding technology and which levels as to some would need a larger net of protection regarding such aspects in whichever portion of life as a human being in the world on earth. I knew some would be in some ways like the portions as to the movie and television aspects because of what I had already seen regarding some I knew and such regarding video games as well, which the levels of which the online portions seemed as though it could lead to a path of destruction if someone did not step forward to speak of and write of such realities for more to be mindful of the situations which they did not know of; which repeating the portions regarding the aspects as to other such prior coding situations when I was younger biologically, there had to be someone who had to be willing to go through such to be able to bring forward that there was and is more good and greatness in the world in comparison to what some were seeing in the coding areas which does include the ways as to the coding regarding military aspects as well as per the ways to prevent the self-destruction as per what had once been designed into the coding systems by whomever regarding such aspects in the early years of technology development.



I had told my Grandpa Gavett prior to his death and he told me to speak with my Bok Gung and my Bok Pu about other such aspects to who to speak with in those regards, which after the contemplation portions it was a choice that had to be made as to whether I sat by and did nothing or took the chance to risk my own life for what was required to be able for others to live. I had told the MEPS station I did not want or need to die for my country however I knew I had to do what it took for what was required as per what my nightmare had been at the time which the signing of the dotted line in that regards was the death of my own childhood and my own teenager years in certain regards, though since I had known from a young age as to what was going to be required of me for more to live I made the choice for myself long before I had officially applied for the Marine and Science Technology School with the Naval attachment. The song lyrics from the song which Luke Bryan sings was quite accurate regarding "wisdom in your teens is a lot less fun" which is partially true as when knowing the truth of such the ability to find ways to be able to enjoy what is possible in comparison, the regards thereof still allowed fun though in different ways than some I knew over such years had been regarding such aspects. I know there are those who have known about different aspects once getting to a certain point in their lives which would as I guesstimate would be able to go into details about the fun they actually had despite the situations thereof which I would also guesstimate those memories could be more happy and enjoyable despite some circumstances, as they were doing what they had enjoyed and were with those they cared greatly about while doing the best possible to remain as safe as they could for as long as they could just in some similar ways for others to continue forward to be able to live. Whether those individuals were with them out in whichever situations thereof or whether they had a relationship regarding a spouse/girlfriend/boyfriend and/or if they had child(ren) as well as their family and friends back wherever they were at such times, there is the reality of which they have been able to continue onward in what hopes is more positive and beneficial ways as to what was given regarding such a sacrifice regarding what decisions had to be made for the larger aspects whether each individual had seen such initially when signing such a line or learned of such as time went onward.



My biological parents knew I was far different than many children they had seen and just the same in reference to my biological sister when she was able to know of such choices despite not wanting to accept such at those times which those in Illinois were only able to learn of later on in which the portions as to my personality probably made/makes more sense as to such times when looking back as to how I had been, whereas those who knew me in New Jersey and the tristate area would as I guesstimate have been able to look back at such times and see similar aspects regarding such though possibly because of the length of time in comparison to a shorter amount of time being closer possibly took a bit longer for some to see and/or realize certain attributes as to who I am or I should write who I had been thought of regarding such times while others would have been able to see clearly upon realizing initially from discussions during our childhood and/or teenager years if in school though neighborhoods I went to as well. While the possibility of more is possible the times as to which were considered as lengthy discussions were still the length of time I had put aside just for such times regarding while being a biological adult while being a Mom to my son #Letters4James and my daughter #Letters4Lidia, while making sure to spend as much time as I possibly could for them as they grew up and hoping each second had counted more than just the moments in time which seemed to go by much quicker as some parents and grandparents know. I wanted and needed to make sure there was the most minimal of regrets for such because of knowing, understanding, and comprehending with children there is always only the first impressions regarding the timeframe of their youth to make sure as best as possible to give them what they need for the time of their formative years to ensure at minimum regarding both my son and my daughter that I truly gave them all I possibly could despite all situations going on at the various times when able to throughout such times both individually as well as together as each one is their own individual person though we are a family.



I made sure to be able to spend what time I could in regards of making sure in all such situations to lead by example as best as I could regarding my responses to various situations for my son and my daughter, while knowing I could not be the only parent who had such going on in life and also understanding at such times throughout such years I would not be the only parent who could go through certain situations. I had to make the choice back in 2010 regarding whether I remained silent and waited regarding certain situations regarding the associated school aspects and while knowing the school and/or the district and/or the law firm would pay attention to my postings, the postings were not for them. The postings were for those parents and grandparents and legal guardians who might need such ideas as to find better ways to clear the path for more, despite only being able to figure out so much on my own. I knew I could not be the only parent with medical situations which though the hairstyle and the hair color with the tattoos were not considered as normal for any such situation, I also knew I was not the only parent who could ever have such physical aspects seen in one way and/or the medical portions misconstrued in other ways while also knowing my background and my adult life choices were not to impact in the ways which some had thought at such times; which with the portions of the additional aspects as to the adult portions which includes the SCUBA Diving aspects as some think of all as reckless in comparison to only some in certain similar ways as to the military/law enforcement/fire department/EMS aspects, the importance for the proper care for such has always been a priority of mine for much longer than some at the school and associated thereof may have ever realized.



I admit I felt it was a higher if not the highest risk to make such a choice as to post about such portions while asking for help and assistance, however I also knew if I had made the choice to sit by waiting while doing nothing there would only be the longer amounts of time as to which possibilities in comparison to actually creating a way for the possibilities for more to actually find better ways for such. In certain regards as to the ways the Armed Forces of the United States of America has for people who have been within the honorable discharges have had to maintain such with the knowledge as to other portions possibly; those who were discharged regarding the terms as to other than honorable and dishonorable discharges though the ability to apply with the proof of good behaviour for the upward lifting, in such regards for the same possible look towards those who have been arrested and sent to prison for such might be something to look into regarding certain crimes as to the good behaviour aspects to bring forward a different generation as per the aspects of the amount of cleared names with the proof however such came forward to find clearer ways for more to move forward in the positive light they had been working for as per getting out once a certain amount of time has gone by. As there are those in various aspects as to the application for a raised DD214, the ways to look into the ability for other such aspects if having the time to look into could bring forward more who can assist in ways which has been done with others regarding such portions after a certain amount of time in such military portions as per the proof of more positive assistances to possibly step forward in a more clear way for the betterment thereof.



There is a truthful quote from a #youtube YouTube video I listened to which I cannot recall which specific one which refers mainly to the cemetery aspects as per "there are many lost ideas within the graveyard" to which in other aspects, how many possibilities could be brought forward in reference to those who have proven good behaviour in such ways as well I would guesstimate some could ponder such portions thereof regarding #prisonreform prison reform. There are plenty who I would guesstimate certain portions which can be reviewed regarding such various aspects as to the knowledge what they would have gone through if certain situations had been where their involvement would have gone regarding their backgrounds and those who have known such as well, to various more recent times as to possibly think about regarding the aspects of which a consideration thereof might be the timeframe to relook over such aspects in a different light with such proven aspects as to behavioural portions in life.

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Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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