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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

33rd Day of Thanks Challenge of 60 Days

Today with the amount of aspects regarding several portions of thoughts I have had as well as other aspects regarding sight, I admit I have not liked the fact I can see in such a way as it seemed as a double edged sword. I am thankful and grateful for such as even though some might not have understood or even known despite certain prior discussions explaining several aspects, what I am most thankful for is at minimum in person having been able to give details from my perspective whether or not some remembered from such times initially. I of all people can understand the difficulties at times regarding such and with the knowledge when seeing certain aspects upon returning to the state of Texas, I can easily see how the technology usages of those who are more accustomed to mainly only working with screens on technology are more susceptible to having memory deficits seemingly a bit worse than my own memory deficits at times. For example my biological parents were told about my lifestyle choices back in 2004 when I was outed by my now dead-ex-husband during the first separation which they were informed of my lifestyle choices multiple times from that point, which they continued to forget about each prior time. When the interrogation which I dealt with by my biological mother and biological father occurred in their house in their living room area where the piano had been after they cleared out the room except such in 2012 after that tape recording left of their answering machine by my ex-boyfriend after I went with Maria to the Sanctuary and was informed though did not respond to what I learned was a try to get me to react at The Sanctuary to continue something else that was explained by another person alter there that night, I did not correlate the timing initially with everything else that I was dealing with in my life at the time. Nonetheless when looking back now, my biological parents were informed as others outed me a minimum of 9 times I can think before that message in 2012 of by such number of people or couples telling on me to my biological parents even though I was over the age of 21 years old and paid my own bills and was not needing their assistance regarding their involvement to try to stop me from being myself as they had done for so many years prior with such proof. While not forgetting dealing with my biological sister who also forgot I had been outed to her as well before the phone call I had received when someone from the Austin community went to her asking her if she was related to me, shortly after the wedding which the family Patricia Ann(abomination) Hom-Miller had learned of her having an older biological sister because of how their wedding had gone; a minimum of 4-6 times before that phone call.


I am uncertain if since I learned of a song called Men in Black if that flash thing in the video for the song, might be an irony regarding the aspects of the screen of technology computers and the like. It was ridiculous as to how many times I had to repeat information to my biological mother, biological sister, and biological father as to the state of Texas ways; though my biological father needed the least amount of reminders as to such comparatively, mainly because he had not used technology nearly as much as the other two even when living in New Jersey. He taught me how to keep a log book for my vehicle maintenance as I saw how he had arranged his logbooks for his business in New Jersey regarding the individuals he was working on jewelry pieces for, the time picked up, the estimated drop off time, the required work, the estimate given, and etcetera; which was all written by hand, as he did not trust technology to be helpful whereas my biological mother and biological sister relied heavily upon technology for much. I was the only one in the group which had been a version of a hybrid, as at those times I had worked on multiple computers as well as went outside to play more often as best as possible. I wonder if the dark black screen with the green letters was better in some ways, as when taking a look at the difference between the background pages between Facebook and fetlife which again; my biological mother did updates on my laptops and would just take the computers away from me while in the middle of working on something because she claimed it was important to install programs, as she claimed at such times then. Am I the only one who keeps being logged into an email, social media account, etcetera when working on something else on a computer? Or was I the only one who ever had done so, all of these years? When someone takes a computer into a technology assistive company because of issues, are you somehow able to sign out of your computer device as I did not think to ask such a question when I had to take my laptops into the GeekSquad to be taken in after several updates she claimed though I think she was installing something different than what she claimed as nosey as some may have learned she can be. Is it the same question regarding cellphones, if needing assistance at the Genius Bar or the like for whichever cellphone?


I do apologize for taking so long to remember as to my biological sister saying she knew how to take care of the cellphone updates, while my biological mother took care of the laptop and desktop updates; as they both claimed, were updates they were installing after taking my technology pieces to go through. The few times I went to Apple the timeframe as to when seeing and spending time with my biological sister would be more aware though I think took longer to cause problems whereas my biological mother and the laptops/desktops, were fairly quick for such situations to go to GeekSquad after the first laptop situation which the fire broke out within the laptop and thankfully that male was able to get the dissertation off of the laptop. I did not take any desktops into GeekSquad, as my biological mother took them to her house; as one she gave to Patricia Ann(abomination) Hom-Miller along with one or two of my laptops at the time, as I was told it was more important to the biological mother for Patricia to have what she needed because she was in college and all she saw me wrongly as was nothing more than only being a Mom who could not accomplish what Patricia Ann her favorite and told others of her being the only daughter to could explain. Since she was going to college and ignoring my warnings while listening to Anna instead, if she did not ever get employment as I warned her all those years ago for the reasons I explained back then in more details than I wrote; the irony if the aspects thereof regarding Patricia, to later learn of what I had discussed back in 2009 about my SCUBA Diving. Since they were more consumed by her wants for her life, what I discussed similarly to the Men In Black song and lifestyle references; seemed to go in one of their ears and out the other, without ever settling to mull over such information. I wonder how many others have had similar experiences, at this point in time for certain aspects regarding technology pieces and the lighting.


The screen view on fetlife did not hurt my eyes as badly when looking at the screen compared to when looking at the background screen for Facebook, though I deal with headaches and migraines and thought what I noticed at times was just additional stresses from what I was dealing with more specifically in the years from 2009 through 2013. However since returning to the state of Texas after Washington state in 2019, it has taken me a bit to reacclimate to the energetic portions of the area in multiple ways as the electricity flowing up in the area as well as the altitude changes to drive less than 1 hour, including the amount of WiFi as well as satellite signals, and the additional portions regarding other aspects thereof for the area; it has taken me a lot to be able to not feeling the same amount of residual electric pulsations, of which there are still random surges I deal with from the amount of time I had been in the region and the amount of constant altitude changes in short stents without the equivalent of a surface interval for those who would understand such a reference. Thus the entire time of dealing with all of the prior aspects in conjunction with what occurred in addition to the area after how wound up there, it took over 1.5 years to be able to deal with driving my own car longer than 20-50 minutes without getting violently sick from the pain levels. I actually was incapable of driving much once arriving in Washington state, as the unknown way to explain the different pains going on was only able to be done; after the situation in 2015, when the e cigarette went the way it had when smoking. Below is a picture of a later e cigarette which when in the charger and writing about a dream I had years ago while thinking about a multitude of other aspects at the same time, the electrical issues when not holding though just charging gives a small view of which a GPS later on was nothing compared to other problems at different times.



The 14 pictures in the gallery above as I put into the posting for this entry, show a later portion of what occurred in a smaller way compared to when inhaling the Toro brand copper tubed and copper tipped e cigarette situation. That several hour length of time alone was enough to cause its own situations because of the problems I already discussed with many well before Washington state at that time in Tacoma near Joint Base Lewis McChord #JBLM, which I made choices to mitigate the level of which the damages could have been regarding my own personal issues with technology and electricity as best as I could as all I could say was I felt like I was being zapped. My biological family would not know of the difference between Officer Candidacy School or whatever the equivalent is called for the Air Force for the United States of America's Armed Forces, and my biological sister and biological mother would not have looked into such a difference almost-ish the same referencing my biological father; though he should have had some understanding of such as he told me he had been in the Merchant Marines, and when on a tour he ran across the Great Wall of China for a few miles at night for a bet to see if he could do so as he was the only Asian on the boat who could possibly make that pass during the time of the Vietnam War or Korean War as he did not specify the timeframe. He learned Mandarin and did as he did, and since he had been able to raise my biological sister and I he obviously was successful for doing so.


I had told him about the Christmas dinner with the two different Dr. Sun people who were married from China with others who worked at the UTHSCSA as well as during one summer which my now dead-ex-husband had also worked at the CTRC, with the information I gave him about the way to complete the experiments for finding ways to work with the T G-nome about the way with fruit flies as to what the experiment should be. Though he did not like it he was ordered to bring the medium to me for my energetic capabilities to work on the situational aspects thereof for the proper aspects for healing energetic pulses as I can do; which as long as he had done exactly as I instructed the success of the work was guaranteed, despite his continued to live in disbelief as to my accuracy. As both Dr. Sun of the married couple which both had earned their PhD whereas technically I was doing all of the work and since I wrote the majority of the dissertation the realistic portions of the fact was, I had been earning my PhD without going to college because all of the work was my work to begin with. He knew I had been sick in 5th grade, knew I had read multiple books including college text books, and etcetera; which meant the fact with proving so with what I was able to discuss which also was a situation regarding the Army branch at Fort Sam Houston #JBSA Texas as the discussions I can have compared to the amount of damages from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury with the subarachnoid hemorrhage which took over 4.5 years to start to show signs of dissipating to which the blood on my brain was dealing with the pressure of and the headaches and migraines development, while also having been found to have memory deficits and cognitive disorders. By the time of being put of Temporary Retirement Duty Leave or TRDL the proof of having gone from College Algebra with Trigonometry and Calculus to 2nd Grade Math was solidified, though throughout the time on my own I did what I could to work towards bringing my intelligence level upward as I could remember some portions of my childhood and teenager years intermittently though not enough for the Army to let me go back to Basic Training to graduate to go onwards towards AIT.


Whereas the Medical Hold Unit thought I was malingering, I was always telling the truth. That sent waves around Fort Sam Houston as to my getting in trouble as much as I had as the people in Medical Hold Unit spoke with whomever they spoke with about the after effects of such, as well as my surviving the rave and the bloodwork from Brackenridge Hospital in Austin Texas. That was another wave that rolled through and shortly after a point in time just after Captain Morning had left to go to Fort Knox Kentucky as I was told, later the discussions developed afterwards to dating as when I had been removed from restriction from the Article 15 for underage drinking though I did not know beer was alcohol. I did not know it was considered a date until later when I was informed of such as I thought I was being given a tour of San Antonio downtown riverwalk and later it went as it had and the rest of that timeframe is history.


As the particular lab PhD from another lab in the UTHSCSA lab floor as I was told who also was from China though I do not remember his name, he asked about military training which I did not allow my now dead-ex-husband to speak of such as the questions being asked did not make sense as to why that individual needed such. The ironic twist of the Army and what I had told the recruiter in the MEPS station in reference to my duty station choice and what my plans were, regarding such types of endeavors for the safety of the United States of America. He had met my biological sister Patricia Ann(abomination) Hom at the time, as there were several months over a few years which she was invited to go into the laboratory to see the work that I had made for him to work on. She asked him questions which as she would know he was only able to answer with so many details before getting confused and admitting he could not answer the questions about the experiments I made, because he would have to acknowledge to her that I was the only one who had made the medium to work as such as well as came up with the entire experiment in conjunction with telling which G-nome to look into and for the specific purposes thereof. If I had been given the credit for my work when looking towards the PhD, I would have been more calm about my particular role to what I was helping with despite the abuses I was dealing with. When she came back from the lab with him one afternoon before the high school began at McHenry High School her hair was a mess and dishevelled, and there is a specific scent of which certain locations know the reference to as to how many times they had engaged in such activities with one another.


That was the first time I caught him cheating on me and then the beatings I dealt with because of her attitude thereafter only caused her to laugh as she had when we were children, and she told others as to how funny she thought it had been while out when I went to pick her up at times as I pulled the car up. She saw me on the ground with my blood poured out into the carpet at the time, which when pulling up the carpet later and Mike my biological father looked at the underside of the carpet had asked how old the carpet was. I told him it was the original carpet as he looked at all of the specific colored dried blood stains some from prior to moving into my house, though quite a few which were just my blood; which I was able to clean the top portion of the carpet so no one could see, though when pulling up the carpet you cannot help but to see each stain made. Making the choice to take a stand at the Christmas dinner was a guarantee of what I was going to deal with when back at my house, however the safety of whoever was doing such work was more important to me.


Making such a choice to stop the discussion as each at the table heard and saw how the facial responses were at the time including a friend watched, and later that same individual who worked at the lab had been informed as to me being left in the backyard unconscious as my now dead-ex-husband left me there in the summer as he went to the lab; which thankfully, I had already taken upstairs to take a nap at the time just before he showed up, and that conversation occurred. I am thankful Eric argued with him and made him go back to the house though, my biological parents were pulling into the driveway without ever letting either one of us know and did not ask if anyone were wanting them to come inside; as I learned they had done as they felt like, because they did not understand the keys to my house were not for them to use whenever they felt like it. Hence, when I moved to Carrollton I was not making that mistake with my ex-in-laws as my biological parents chose to purchase a house less than 10-20 minutes of a drive depending on traffic to the house. I would not be surprised if others learned of such if they gave a key to them, as that was their normal for years from some memories. While some of my neighbors at the time let me know they saw my biological parents and my biological sister go into my house when no one was home without any permission, I had a bit going on at the time and the lack of concern about their childish antics at the time as I felt were going to be over soon as I could figure out how to warn people more about what I knew was coming if certain aspects were allowed by them. There are several instances of such, though in reference to the male from the UTHSCSA laboratory building near the VA hospital in the medical center in San Antonio near Eckert; I refused to allow such discussions, about the Armed Forces of the United States of America's training. I suppose in some ways looking back now even though I did not have the memory return yet, it makes sense in a way why I was protective additionally when taking into consideration the aspects as to who I was raised by regarding my maternal adoptive Grandfather as well as my paternal Great Grandparents.


That doctor from China was highly offended I was allowed by the male Dr. Sun from China as his wife was at the kitchen area, allowing me to sit at the dinner table instead of telling me to go sit in the kitchen with the rest of the females; which by the way, each of those females had either a Masters Degree and/or a PhD, for such an attitude. I personally felt similar to a more recent situation regarding a female during a Williamson County book event which I knew I was allowed because of being told, however I did not earn the degrees those females had earned and I did not understand how that male could be so derogatory towards them when he knew such information. It would not be the first time I had defended some of the female PhDs in the area and female Master Degrees who earned such, as I dealt with a conversation about a female PhD who was being called Ms. or Mrs. or Miss instead, of Dr. as she earned her PhD. I felt at the time regarding the Christmas dinner, that I knew they needed to see that in full so they could make a decision for themselves as to whether or not they were going to allow such for themselves seeing how they each knew how helpful I had been regarding the plants and gardening. However even in such a discussion prior to dinner, that male from China asked what degree I had to know anything about plants; which then I informed him, and he did not like my responses or attitude. I later from that night gathered a bunch of books I had, gardening magazines, as well as gardening catalogs for plants as I had promised the female Dr. Sun and ordered my now dead-ex-husband to take the paper bag into the lab to give to the female Dr. Sun as well as the other females in the lab who might be interested for their own gardens as I had a few extra copies. The entire grocery paper bag was filled almost full, and I had to double bag the amount of for the additional strength for the amount I sent to them to be able to look into more.


In that reference regarding the Williamson County book Texit situation, I knew I was not the same as the veterans in the room; including one who was upset rightfully so, for a similar style of behaviour in a different way. She and her husband were in the electoral aspects of which I knew she felt rightfully offended by the comment made by that male about me being a veteran, though she knew I am medically retired from the Army; which when he said he would offer me a job in the veterans department if, I knew when she spoke later at me that was a portion of which she had seen before when she was completed with her Basic Training and her AIT and her specialties. In a different way as I admit I am far from what is considered as normal at times, after such a discussion when leaving I knew she would have to reevaluate each aspect she was looking into. That was and is a good thing, by the way. I knew he only asked me up to the front of the room to hand him my business card as he asked me for, which I knew when she spoke later was an additional aspect because of her own looking into the electoral field as well as her husband among a few others. If I was correct when she got home she calmed down a bit, the following week she went through a bit of a readjustment in thoughts about the situation, and then she began looking into what more she could do in a different way being an actual female veteran compared to me as I simply am medically retired after failing to complete Basic Training because of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. Please know it is not a slight, it is giving respect to those who completed such training. As I wrote, I am not the only person who has not completed Basic Training though admitting such does not disqualify as a veteran in my case as others; there are those who truthfully acknowledge such as respect to those who were able to complete their training, though as I have not hidden the fact of my own personal stances as to not personally use such a word unless mandatory as I do not like to take away credit from those who earned their credit.


I do not doubt she was upset among some, though I knew there would be a point where she would reevaluate what it was she actually wanted to accomplish if she chose to continue with whichever elected aspect or if she figured a different path to be able to assist with genuine change for assistance in regards of whatever she realized was actually needed for her to be happy and feel as though her own works were more than what was ignored that evening in my opinion. That would not have been the first time she heard that tone of voice, that would not have been the first time she heard such a type of phrase though in a different way, and that would not be the first time she had not been acknowledged for her own works. That I knew even when she was upset, and I knew she needed to speak to another female which had the background despite the circumstances thereof. She needed him and others to see such realistically, and though some might have thought such to be an embarrassment; it actually was the opposite, for her. I thought when I had posted such it actually showed her passion about the realities of how many females had been ignored needlessly, simply because a bright haired whatever label walked through the room. I do not look like a veteran typical of which I know, though she does to me. Her ability despite what some may have thought was emotional was simply the reality of what she had already seen and gone through herself as well as in reference to other females, which is an annoyance in regards of some views as sometimes the passion from a female is just as strong as a male's though because of the claim of whatever stereotype; if you were to only listen to the audio of such, you could not tell the difference between certain tones of the voices. In my thoughts I felt she was truly upset with that male compared to what that male told me, and she was most likely upset because of those reasons I wrote; which if inaccurate, my apologies. I thought that video which others recorded from their own angles from their own phones, tablets, and etcetera in which as asked to take such down already knowing so; I reluctantly had done so, knowing that the male was upset he had looked as he had in comparison while knowing the female was upset and most likely gave an excuse as to how the female had looked while purposefully leaving out he had made the comments he had made and spoke as he had to me in such a condescending tone of voice. However that male has no idea how many cameras or recording devices which were in the area, and quite frankly simply having any technology device such as a laptop will automatically record the audio whether or not you choose to have the recording yourself as it goes outward and has for decades. There was a picture I found later of Mark Zuckerberg with tape over the microphone area of a computer and my biological mother only chose to put the tape over the camera, though she also installed whatever she claimed was an update and repeating the portions regarding GeekSquad. What type of filters and altering programs are there for audio or visual are there, if any for the audio?


Thus the two situations though different times as one was back in 2003 and the other was this past year in 2020 or 2021, which the similar tone of voice and intentions show through for over more than such time. In addition, I repeat of my stance regarding Hillary Clinton though also must mention Condeleeza Rice for her work upward as best as possible and knowing of such in the various spectrums as there is beyond party lines that type of behaviour needlessly. Feminism is where you lift other females upward to hope for their success while you work on your own success as best as possible whereas in my opinion, feminazism is when females will destroy one another to claw to the level they can get to while degrading and discrediting males needlessly as they degrade and go after other females instead of acknowledging the realities thereof. The reference is only regarding the aspects of biological birth gender, for clarification.


In between the two situations listed there was a different portion of which in 2005 after the Excalibur Faire in Smithville Texas in Bastrop County which the weekend theme was pirates, and I was told it was a Renaissance Faire not learning of the theme until after arriving and being told to wear what was comfortable for the era and to be myself. I had and later the situation regarding the 5 males who jumped out of the trees with weapons to surround me and then they were mad I defended myself only with words comparatively, for them to complain to who had introduced me to who I was dating at the time though he had gone overseas to visit his family, for the group of males to make a false report about me faking being a Faery which the fake Sherriff had real metal shackles with real metal chains which were rusted in some areas, to try to take me to a real jail cell outside. I refused and I ran taking the real shackles away from the fake Sherriff, refusing to return the shackles to the fake Sherriff until the real false report against me had every filed charge dropped. As promised when done and I was fully in the clear, I returned the real shackles. Granted later that night I had been given a drink called Loki after belly dancing around the fire for hours, which no one told me what was in it as I thought it was either a different name for Gatorade or for Powerade for the way it smelled. I learned that was alcohol only the following morning which was after I defended myself at the portapotties when some male thought he would be okay to touch my chest, and I threw him away from me. I told the male John about the situation and told him I was given Loki to drink, which he knew about some of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as did his sister Christy who worked with Dawn at the same location as Ayaz Sheik at the Chase Bank in San Antonio Texas location off of I90. They were upset with me for not knowing anything about the faire or how to be, and though I explained what I was told it did not seem to matter. I was told how much of an embarrassment I had been for not being smart enough to figure anything out as they were also mad at me for defending myself when surrounded by the 5 males who each had a minimum of 1 if not 2 weapons in their hands unsheathed, as well as being mad at me for defending myself from being attacked at the portapotty area. I was excited to see the local real Police Officers show up to inform the drunken ones to calm down when some males on top of the hill started mouthing off to the Police Officers which I backed up the Officers yelling at the males, though unable to move to get out of the tent to ask for help after getting back to the tent. I was able to crawl towards the window area, though that was all I could muster the strength to do.


I vowed to not ever return to that faire or anything like such after my biological mother defended every choice made and wondered how I simply refused or could not play along, which made absolutely no sense; though because of aspects in a larger combination, it makes perfect sense how she could wrongly think that was acceptable to anyone else. A prime example of a feminazi my biological mother had been especially going to college in the late 1960s and into the 1970s at Rutgers University, and the amount of military individuals in the area from all of the bases in the tristate area at such times; it did not take a head injury to figure out, who she had been all along. Onw of those hippies who turned into a yuppie who thought if doing so would be a good cover as to her and their type of true intentions against such, which whether some believe or not I know she had something to do with the underground well choice situation at the house I grew up in New Jersey as per her own handwritten records next to the Prudential computer among other aspects. My maternal adopted Grandfather had been informed by me, and I guesstimate because her sister Christine his biological daughter had remained looking similar to how she had prior in the 1960s and 1970s by clothing choices; that was the actual aspects as to why Anna Louise Lally Hom had some problems with her sister, though that was not the only one she had who I would guesstimate would have many stories in conjunction with their brothers all of whom were biological children to my adoptive maternal Grandfather and maternal Grandmother as to how Anna had been when they were children being watched by her. I would guesstimate if some people I knew in the state of Texas were to look into such, then you could see a mild version as to the combination of all 4 of them plus her dead older brother Danny which Anna had admitted to her mother that she had drowned him in the lake because of him not wanting to take her along with him and his friends as I was told by my maternal Grandmother one afternoon while she held her white cat which was in the trailer in New York state. I think it would have been the name Daniel Lally, though I am uncertain for the specific records for that death certificate and if it was in Crystal Lake Illinois which was where they once lived or nearby area or what-have-you as I do not have those particular specifics. I think from what I can remember he was around 4-10 years older than Anna, if that can help law enforcement close that case correctly instead of remaining unsolved if further evidence would assist such justice for Danny. My maternal Aunt Chris did have a vision of the drowning just as I have had such a vision, which was part of an energetic disruption when other aspects in my life were occurring at the time in 2012 when she with my Aunt Eddie and Grandma had gone to San Antonio Texas to visit from Illinois and Missouri which I wrote about after discussing with a few.


The aspects regarding the Excalibur Faire in 2005 in Bastrop County in Smithville Texas which the fake Sherriff situation among the few others, I had met a correctional officer who worked at a point in the Bastrop County and told him about the situation later around 2010 and/or 2012 as I had met him at a Thanksgiving event in Austin for ClubFEM. In 2011 he was upset because of a fire which occurred to his property in the timeframe and the group had done a bunch of things to help a female Dominant because of a fire she had in her apartment, which he had told me he recognized Lucille's client as someone who had been in the correctional facility he had been an officer in though recognized a few others as well who recognized him too. TM told me that he had spoken with some of the clients of who he thought looked familiar and they were, which that portion was discussed in 2012 after he went from a submissive, to a Dominant. Though I had mailed some clothes for his son to be able to not have to wait for the insurance company to be able to take care of for a minimal aspect, I listened as he told me about how he was upset as to the treatment from the Professional Dominants in comparison to how he had initially been submissive when entering the lifestyle. There was a munch brunch at the time I had created the group for as well as a group I had created for females who were interested in their own Dominance, though were not looking to be a Professional; as well as male submissives who did not want to be involved with a Professional, or a place which those who were Professional were able to enjoy time with their relationships which were of such a way in comparison to what he had told me about regarding the few he knew were Professionals more-so by name than I was ever informed of as honestly it did not bother me nor occur to me there was such a situation going on at the time until 2012 after he and I dated briefly for a few weeks unexclusively. Though he told me he asked Lady Robin about me as well as whether or not she recommended anything, he told me she had told him to not get involved with me at all. It was after I had called her about a male who had attended one of my munch brunches at the Lamar location in a suit with a fedora hat and bandages over his face at one point then it seemed clear, as when looking back now to recall there was what would look as to be scars from burns as per what I had seen when I was in Medical Hold Unit from a female who had worn a satin nightgown when reaching across a lit candle and survived thankfully; for as close of a reference I could think of, for the explanation here. I did not have any problems speaking with him as he asked me to speak with ClubFEM to see if they would be able to assist him, and when I called Lady Robin she informed me there was not any way she would allow him into the group as she said he had made a threat online to the group in Austin. She had been one of my Mentors in the Austin Dominant Mentor Program which she taught me some portions about fire play as I had to look into more information to ensure safety as much as possible, as well as knife play regarding BDSM. Though I knew how to use knives in a very different way as per SCUBA Diving, I was unknowing of how such could be considered to some as a type of enjoyment; though admittedly because I do like shiny objects, I already had a large knife collection. It was a large SCUBA Diving knife collection, though a large knife collection nonetheless with a few swords and daggers and whatnot sort of stuff. If my fetlife profile LadyDoriBelle has the past events which I registered online I might or would attend, possibly there are the prior events to look at such timeframes for more precision if you choose to look.


Returning to the aspects regarding Dawn, Christy, and John from Chase Bank in San Antonio off of I90, I had met Ayaz Sheik through Dawn at his birthday party at Mimi and Dina's. I did not know that it was a birthday party until the day of, and I was not informed I would be sitting next to the male whose birthday it had been which was her coworker Ayaz. His eyes lit up when I sat down next to him nervously as at that time especially being 2005, I was still learning how to discuss what I had gone through when asked as well as being unknown to anyone except Dawn who sat at a different end of the table further away from where I was sitting. He asked me questions about myself when I learned later that night that it was his birthday, though no one brought him any gifts and it felt odd that I would be invited to a birthday party. My biological father was informed of having met him which Mike told me he thought Ayaz had looked similar to who when then was the 1st separation though now is my dead-ex-husband which I disagreed with, as I thought it only had to do with the skin tone regarding such in comparison to how he looked.


However that evening of the birthday party when the belly dancer came around to the table she asked a few to stand up and dance and while a few had, when she got to where I was and asked me she was surprised I knew how to move with the music as it played. Afterwards and eating, I excused myself to go outside and smoke a cigarette as I was still smoking regular cigarettes at the time. Ayaz Sheik asked if he could go outside with me, which I said it was okay if he wanted to and we talked for awhile. He needed explanations as to why he would point to his eyes when on a customer service phone call and no one being able to see him when he spoke, which I knew that meant there had to be cameras in computer screens as I remembered from my childhood when on the computer in New Jersey whichever one. We laughed, though I admit to being nervous as I could not fully remember why that was known to me and yet unknown to me by words to explain later until now. He discussed how his Mom was a Hindu Catholic from India and his Dad was a Muslim from Bahrain, which because of my sarcasm I asked if his Mom and Dad were still married or if they were separated before asking if they were at war with one another and his Mom at war within herself. He asked me why and I began to explain certain differences between the religious sectors regarding the differences between peaceful Muslims and radicalized, as well as the ironies regarding the Hindu teachings in conjunction with the Holy Roman Catholic Church's teachings. He was surprised I would know anything about the three, and he laughed saying his Mom and Dad were not divorced though there were tensions in the region. He told me he went to boarding school in England and then while I cannot recall where he said he went to college, he said he went to become a petroleum engineer after I asked if that was what his degree was in because of the amount of oil within both regions of the lands. Ayaz laughed saying he had, and was curious as to how I could ever know such without him telling a full sentence when speaking with me. I asked if the Saris looked more beautiful in person because of the hand beaded embroidery and details than some of the pictures I had seen, which he was surprised I knew the correct terminology for the clothing; though he informed me of other clothing, in the areas after he told me he could go to India but could not go to Bahrain via flight though did not tell me why when I asked.


Afterwards we went inside the restaurant which the group was continuing to eat the food and when we sat down he looked over at what I ordered, and asked me how I could order the dish I had chosen knowing I had not been to Mimi and Dinas before; though he had been informed of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, during the discussion outside. I told him the truth as the dinner seemed more appetizing compared to some of the other choices, which he had asked about my ethnic background which I told him I was half Chinese and half almost each other ethnic background. He asked me about which type of Chinese as he knew I was born in the United States of America, and I told him I have Cantonese as per my middle name which he was interested to know more about me. When the evening came to a close and a few decided they wanted to go dancing, he and I also joined the group to go to Grand Central Station. He drove his white Ford Ranger and I drove my white Dodge Grand Caravan as Dawn rode with me, and we went into the club to dance a bit. He asked me towards the end of the night if he could see me again, and we arranged a date. When the date occurred he saw the interior of my van and was amazed as to the technology regarding the size, the amount of air conditioning vents, the various controls, and more as we talked. A few weeks went by when he had already planned a trip to fly out, which he asked me if I would go with him to meet his family. I told him I could not leave my son and my daughter as they needed me, and as I knew what was going on in the overall region; I felt though it would be unsafe for anyone if at that time, I were to fly out there. He asked me what I meant and I explained I could not put the United States of America's Armed Forces at risk, as I knew my mouth and my attitude and I knew what my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury might mean to some; which I could not put anyone needlessly at risk, just to go on a trip. He seemed upset though I had hoped he understood, as the knowledge of not every area being as such though knowing I am me; I knew I could not put anyone at risk, just to go.


I told him his Mom and Dad would understand why I could not meet them over there, which additionally the flight situation and being afraid of if I broke a rule of being charged and stoned alive which I did not want or need and I knew the possibilities of worse which I also did not want nor need. Knowing of my background for certain specifics regarding clearance at the time, I knew if I had gone overseas and that had been learned of the possibilities of again needlessly putting the United States of America and treatied areas into danger without warrant or requirement. He said he understood and asked for a picture to take to his Mom as he brought up she did tea leaf readings, which then he and I spoke about the aspects of which surprised him again of my knowing of such details. He was given a picture I had from my Senior year in high school as I did not have any pictures of just me by myself other than that one picture I found and could not remember where I had gotten it from, as the other pictures had my two children with me as well as my then 1st time separated from though now dead-ex-husband. I told him to tell his Mom and Dad if he saw him the picture was from when I was 17 years old, which he said that he thought I looked exactly the same as in the picture just a different hair length.


I did not have my hairstyle as it is now just yet as that was a couple months later and the same regarding my hair color, as well as I did not have any tattoos as of yet. Later during his trip I would get the chance to be able to speak with him briefly and at one point I was able to speak with his Mom, as he asked her to be on the phone when he called though asked if it would be okay if she had joined the next discussion which I thought was okay. While he was on the trip I had been asked by Dawn to go to a house poker game event over the upcoming weekend, which she said I could be what she called a lap bunny which would distract everyone at the table so she could play poker more seriously. As I drove since she said she wanted to drink alcohol, she informed me of a situation which occurred because her ex-husband had cheated on her with the babysitter and contracted herpes which then she had contracted such. I asked if she was telling people she was having sex with in whatever groups and communities she was involved with, and she told me she was offended I would ask her to tell other people about her medical aspects. I told her she knew that was how she caught herpes, which she told me she did not care if others got it because of what she experienced as she did not think it was a big deal. She refused to tell anyone which I disagreed with as it should be the choice of someone as to whether or not they have any sexual encounter with any person, as to not do so would be considered as purposefully choosing to use biological sextually transmitted diseases to choose not to inform them seemed it should be a crime. She disagreed saying no one needed to know, which as the prior circumstances as per 5th grade I felt as though she should inform others just at minimum to make them aware as taking such a choice from them only because she was horny seemed selfish. I was told she did not care, which I told her she needed to re-review her opinion and stance.


Getting to the house where the poker was at which she told me where to go to get there in San Antonio as she was living with her Mom near John and Christy as well, some of the people I recognized from the birthday dinner and I sat next to one of the males named Tony. Having told my biological father about the situation prior to the weekend, he was upset when I told him the term told to me as he had been to Las Vegas multiple times and had known more about the terminology than I; as he liked to play poker and Russian Roulette, Black Jack, and a few other games. Again, why I was interrogated and outed as many times for being involved with whichever communities I had been involved with then in 2005 I am still amazed as to the number of times I had been outed to my biological parents even after discussing such with them such as that discussion; while not forgetting apparently, Las Vegas is known for something other than casinos and different shows as well as the natural surrounding areas. Nonetheless I explained the situation clearly which then he said he did not think I could play poker because if I did with my luck it would be a Royal Flush, which I did not know or understand the meaning. As the night went on at the house party and Tony and I were speaking, he was down to his last few nickels and dimes for the poker game. Tony asked me to play the last hand and when the 5 cards were put on the table, I was given my 2 cards and I saw a Queen and an Ace in the cards as well as a Queen and an Ace on the table.


Long story short, I had two pair as I had a Queen of Hearts and an Ace of Diamonds, and the rest of the cards on the table were a 10, Jack, Queen, King, and Ace all in spade suit. As the rounds went around the table for if you wanted or needed to switch one or both of the cards, then you could as well as the betting. When the table began to show their cards and the second to last person was myself to show, I put the cards on the table explaining according to the print out paper that I had a win with 2 Pair. The final one to show his cards showed he had a Full House because of whatever cards he had, and as he and I argued back and forth the male across the table whose parents' house it was had pointed out that I had won with a Royal Flush though because I had not ever played poker before; I was going off of the information about the 2 Pair, as there was nothing on either side about a Royal Flush though it did say something about a flush. Later when I told Mike about the game he freaked out about the same thing regarding my Royal Flush saying he knew I could not ever play poker again because the likelihood of me getting another hand as great as that, was none apparently.


As the time went on during the time Ayaz was overseas he told me his Mom wanted to introduce him to his 2nd or 3rd cousin as he said something about a wedding which did not make sense, though I knew to wait until he returned to understand I heard clearly because of the phone reception. When he returned he told me he met them as well as about his Dad's bank vault with a large walk in room with multiple pieces of jewelry and gold bars, with various other items which were of considerable high value in a way seemingly to impress me as he had brought up. I told him that was his Dad's money because as he explained it was his Dad's vault and Ayaz had said it was his money and not his Dad's money, while I disagreed as it did not make sense for him to tell me his Dad took him into his Dad's vault. I told him to watch his attitude about the money as his Dad's money was his Dad's money, and his Mom's money was his Mom's money and while maybe they could work things out at some point; it was still their money, and his money was what he earned. I told him about the school of Bulova my biological father had gotten a certification from to work on such pieces and because of seeing the pieces and knowing he was working on other people's stuff just as Ayaz had explained he was taken into his Dad's bank vault, that was a similar view unless it was actually in his name which Ayaz had not clarified. He decided later to end the relationship after his Dad had pulled his financial support because of choosing to continue dating me instead of marrying who was chosen, and then he caved and went with whichever 2nd or 3rd cousin as Dawn had told me. I told her I was not willing to be second fiddle to anyone as I was to be the one and only, which she continued discussing other aspects about other people being introduced to him. When she said something I asked about his boarding school about what he told me, and she did not know. I told her his boarding school had made him and his classmates practice the kama sutra in school wearing nylon type of material with leaves sewn in certain areas, for the students to practice on each other as well as on the teacher. I told her she needed to get the help for him, though she focused upon the aspects regarding the fact I told her she needed to be honest, whereas I focused on the fact what was occurring at whatever boarding school he went to was wrong and I did not think his parents would be okay with that going on at any school. That was something between a committed relationship of consenting adults, which Dawn seemed to care nothing about; and I warned her if she did not get Ayaz's family to know of such since she knew him longer, I could not be held responsible as to how that would go because she was once in the United States of America's Armed Forces Navy branch and she knew of what could occur if she did not report such to who she knew she could get such to quicker.


Despite having explained such to multiple people before about various aspects regarding my protectiveness of the military and law enforcement branches and divisions of the United States of America's Armed Forces, it seemed though my words were falling on deaf ears various times. Similarly later around 2011 when I had gotten pulled over and given a speeding ticket as I only started getting speeding tickets after the poker game where the male who had the Full House had thrown a temper tantrum and falsely accused me of lying as well as falsely accused me of cheating, the situations regarding McCoy Elementary School and Carrollton Farmers Branch Independent School District had brought more speeding tickets even though there were times when I was not speeding at all or if I was such as when in Irving that time; I was rushing back to my apartment to get my medications I had forgotten to take in the morning, and I needed to get stuff taken care of for my son and my daughter. Afterwards driving around and making my way back towards the apartment, the turn onto Ester Road going to the right I had seen a sign with writing which was not in English and was in yellow painted wood letters with dark brown background. I called the FBI to inform them in 2015 or 2016 and the agent on the phone said it was a Police Officer training area, which I did not think the agent was looking in the correct location as the Dallas downtown shooting had caused me to remember I had told Patrick about it as well as making a call to the local Irving Police Department non-emergency number to report a tip if I recall correctly. I know it was not a Police Officer training area because of the signage, as the adult jungle gyms were possible for such though the signs did not say anything in English except towards one area very small comparatively; though the majority of the large writing was in seemingly like Swahelie or Hindu or Sanskirt or something like such styles of curvature. After that phone call there was another one where it seemed as though I recognized the eyes and almost the voice of a rapper from the news, which I had called asking if there was the need for further knowledge as it seemed familiar regarding Ayaz's eyes and voice to a degree. That was after having been told in 2013 by GeekSquad they could no longer offer the accidental warranty insurance for a time because of the 13 laptops I brought in over the years from 2006 through 2013 in Clackamas/Portland Oregon area, which that Geek Squad agent had spoken with me about some of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and he had been working on a research project looking at energetic frequencies and technology asking if I would be interested in the research being a tester which I was not interested in being tested on or tested. I told him I dealt with enough regarding my time in the Army during Zero Week as well as after waking up from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury regarding medications, and I did not want nor did I need to be tested on any further. The alarms in the Best Buy went off simultaneously and I had needed to be helped out from the Best Buy, because of the zapping as well as the sounds blaring causing my headaches to turn instantly worse in levels of already heightened pain. I told him I did not want or need to be a guinnea pig, any further because of what I had already gone through in combinations over my life.


I did not want nor need any further pain and yet a few months later the problems with the apartment complex on Minnehaha in Crystal Creek, and then the move towards Lakewood. Then when in reference to a club in Seattle near the airport and Homeland Security, the zapping got worse because of the location. I began volunteering setting up and cleaning where I could as best as possible despite the levels of unnecessary unneeded and unwanted pain level surges, yet it seems that there were those who refused my hard limits which in turn there is no one who can complain ever about such because of the levels of which I had already warned about. I was not interested in getting involved with much the way I once had because of the amount of pain levels and yet it was as it was to others, just another novelty right? Later one of the club owners decided she wanted to make the club virtual in regards of the video for the preparation for tours, put additional televisions in the areas, and hire a photographer to take pictures of the prior Miss Sapphires; which I was not one, nor was I ever interested in going to such as I could not handle dealing with flying and I am not a Swinger on that level as I am far more BDSM than a Swinger despite enjoying the ability to dance more at a Swingers club than at a BDSM event which I had been working on in other aspects for other portions regarding what I was developing.


I did not endorse the club officially nor did I ever pose for any pictures to be used for the club to display beyond the lobby area, as that was not my particular interest. Thus if the club chose to use such pictures while knowing I was working on my Medal of Honor Art Project and thought they could use such for publicity, there are laws which prevented that from being done by the owners. I was told by one of the other owner's girlfriend she blamed Ruby for bringing that in as partially as I figured because if her young millennial daughter and the baby daddy for that one, and since she had the problems she had with me as I was informed of if Ruby or Christine Zahn the realtor had chosen to use my pictures without notifying me as well as others' photographs who were not informed; the state of Washington might have a few words they would like to have about such, especially knowing the airport was nearby. Whomever made the choice to do so put many people at risk needlessly because of the fact of the International portion of the airport and while some might know more in the United States of America, that sort of choice put others lives at risk in other countries as she knew they would not know the difference nor suspect the club for such from what I gathered in a hypothetical as I was also informed she was proud to discuss knowing people in Washington DC; which instantly turned any possibility of ever playing at that club completely off, as per the needs for such. Anyone who knew me in Texas would automatically know I would not ever approve of such as that was not ever what I was interested in and was not ever interested in going to such a competition, which such treatments thereafter were as per prior situations dealt with regarding other situations when refusing to become a Professional in the adult lifestyle by my choice in such a way. If I wanted to be a Professional, I would choose such. I did not want to nor need to because of my own choices and my own reasons and any female or male ever trying to force something of such, seemingly is asking such for themselves and/or their children/grandchildren if they knowingly push someone against their will as there are some people in other countries who have a high offense to such types of clubs being in existence and if any of their ambassadors or officials sent to would be put in jeopardy which could potentially begin a larger problem because of the types of themes as well in addition such as bi night. Knowing she was proud of who she knew in the capital meant she seemingly would have put such at risk including whichever agents assigned to, and she was insistent as to leaving the red room door open during GB nights; which was the nights each month I definitely began standing outside in the parking lot more often, as I had already seen the back walkway and the darker opening area which the light would hide who entered the club. The other owner agreed with me as he did not see any reason as to why that door should have been opened and he purchased fans, though it was insisted upon as I was told by her to give the females fresh air who were involved with whichever they chose in the room. The fans were then used to cycle the air outward into the parking lot area towards the casino, which after a certain point it seemed futile to ever play or do anything except dance; which again, inside of the club was supposed to be no cameras at all including cellphones.


I cannot stand when the most simplistic rules cannot be followed by the owners of a business who would choose to violate the rights of their patrons at their clubs in especially that particular aspect of adult lifestyle, not caring who was allowed in without paying or registering with the club front office seemingly. There was a huge herpes outbreak which stemmed from one GB night and younger and younger individuals began showing up, after Ruby had said she was making more stuff available for anyone who wanted to look at Club Sapphire online. I disagreed with her choice as her daughter kept yipping in her ear and I could tell it was the millennial aspect of the overindulgences using technology and not caring about who they hurt, which in turn means they must have requested such for themselves as turn around right? According to the protection of privacy laws in Washington state regarding recording devices you must disclose to every individual you are recording or taking a picture of if not in a open public setting such as outdoors, as when indoors unlike in the state of Texas one person knowing is not enough in the state of Washington. Know you technology and privacy laws, before destroying other people's lives because you are asking for that turn around in doing so; of which if there were those who illegally recorded me dancing to music, you are traceable for such illegal recordings and are subject to Federal Prosecution as per what I read about the privacy laws regarding Private clubs and private locations such as the male from #N208 having the camera phone in his jean jacket vest when he opened the door trying to pretend he was a man beyond biology with his attitude; that technically was in violation of the same laws, because you were walking towards a door when in a private apartment area breezeway which in turn would violate such for him not having disclosed such despite having seen such as that is a requirement as per Washington state legal codes. The male and female from that apartment looked similar to Ruby's daughter and her baby daddy especially when seeing them out in the parking lot walking their dog which I have written as to how they were in the apartment previously and dealing with such, as those people also look like the people in the Red Huyundai who were driving below the speed limit in Montana during the first trip for that year when I went to the Montana Vortex with my son in 2017 before the camping lodge. Later in 2018 those same people were the ones who tried to sneak into a private location which I had an agreement with the owners as I had gone there for my own health and not to speak with anyone about anything when I was doing as I needed in private, which those who were arrogant enough to do their selfie garbage set off trip alarms regarding Irving with their choices including if there were video recordings when I was dancing and expecting and rightfully so as with all others within the club of privacy though setting off those trip alarms. Though those females who met me at the Stiellacoom Library named as I was told Catherine Featherly who looked like an older Marcie Creamans, Tia who said she was a part of Child Portective Services though never once showed a badge which is considered impersonating an officer who looked like a relative to Rebecca Shrader, and though I was able to see Tia's house; I was glad to know she and her husband had to sign a waiver about the asbestos to move in if I am accurate about those females involvement from McCoy Elementary School of Carrollton Farmers Branch Independent School District.


I do not doubt those females and their children learned of my books as well as my links to send out, which if so and the female I met at the Aliki Beach was Rebecca Shrader and knowing I had not met her in person before; thus would be an illegal meeting as the law firm would have had to tell; however since the law firm has the name Brown and one of the other female adult volunteers Sarah Brown was involved with the Fort Worth Zoo problem as well as what occurred in the school to my daughter, that would be considered a Bar Association conflict of interest legal dispute for what once was the Anderson, Brown, Walsh, Greene Law Firms in Dallas/Irving/Austin/San Antonio/Houston areas of Texas though they apparently changed their name to Walsh Gallegos Treviño Russo & Kyle P.C. probably because of finding out the problems those females caused and tryin g to cover their tracks when they know they cannot because of the technology which guarantees the ability to trace and track by the names of the lawyers and paralegals and all staff members thereof easily without Facebook and without the legal names long ago. The train tracks nearby, are like music to my ears.


If such a law firm stole my SCUBA Diving gear, again I repeat the statements made before of impeding in my work which was not of their clearance as civilian lawyers who would know nothing though think they could hire someone who would gain access and ignorantly think I would ever allow such a law firm involved with my Underwater Travel System would be ignorant as the requirement for open honesty. They impeded me taking such to Fort Sam Houston to the military base if such is the case and if there are any SCUBA Diving Instructors involved, please do go swimming in the ocean. The Trump boat parade went, how? Whoever was involved within the state of Texas regarding how my SCUBA Diving gear was stolen, you caused problems and I do not have any inclination of ever creating my idea of the Underwater Travel System pieces within the state of Texas or having anything to do with such simply because of ironically; the principle. If Dawn Rink could not get over her ego and her husband as well as whomever were involved because they refused to get past their biases as to how I look additionally to having not stolen valor though defended, it sickens me to know that the name Trevino is involved knowing his family would be a part of as he was not happy finding such out. He is glad to not be near you or your family, as such a disgrace to his legacy offended more than just him. However I repeat, the train sounds like music which I think he enjoys a bit more than I do regarding my Medal of Honor Art Project. If such were done to get me back to Texas for that, you obviously did not understand anything.


Though I am thankful I went through Legal Zoom and knowing that law firm was a part of Legal Zoom means it would have been illegal for Legal Zoom to inform such, and thus a secondary additional i8nvestigation into the practices of law online regarding emails and intellectual property rights which obviously would have been violated if such was done. I am thankful I have been able to see the way the land looks, when driving around the state of Texas as per my SCUBA Diving gear and the Irving aspect causing such because of the unseen as per a fail-safe protocol to get the gear to who I would have picked as the correct choice as well as I had to open the SCUBA Diving bag. Since that law firm had sent a male to meet with me at a Starbucks to ask me to give a number which I could not for the reference regarding my daughter, maybe there was another place of which such an individual had been to and maybe if there was the same situation regarding what happened at Club Sapphire regarding technology; maybe those lawyers and their staff have some floating evidence around the internet themselves, which what was good for the goose is good for the gander correct? If such either way is the case, again the problems regarding the national security threat such choices were made means whomever chose to do such would be responsible in the Geneva Convention and the United Nations, for prosecution in Madagascar if I read the information correct for what was done especially regarding my Medal of Honor Art Project because of the International or World War and other areas involved when earning a Medal of Honor.


Due to the fact as to how my minor son and I had been targeted to be taken across states lines as well as the additional portions previously written about and explained my son #Letters4James, my daughter #Letters4Lidia, and I would be completely innocent and covered in such protections; in comparison to those others who chose to ignore International Peace Law Agreements as well as treaties which the Congress, Senate, and White House has been working on for however long they have for such choices and Club Sapphire with the law firm and school district would be responsible for kicking off World War III on whichever day they chose to start illegally recording which includes in any place I was living in with my children and/or on my own as such would continue to violate such privacy laws as well as International Laws regarding my SCUBA Diving as proven regarding my passport as well as the Bermuda Triangle.


I am so glad and thankful I knew how to keep my nose on my side of the fence, as per that New Jersey sort of aspect.


I can say with certainty if that law firm went after my biological sister which ironically would be the only aspect as to anyone in my biological family ever caring-ish about me while ignoring my son and my daughter as they had, I quite frankly could not care about that impact admitting my biases about my son and my daughter; however unlike some people, I can acknowledge when something is wrong without denying bias though in an unbiased way. I would not be surprised if my biological family was upset and hey in a sarcastic way, thank you law firm and all of you other cherubim.


You proved how little my biological family ever cared about my son, my daughter, and/or I. Thank you with a whole hearted sarcastic tone, as quite frankly I already knew how much those people chose to treat as well as hate me. I hope you feel the same way about yourselves as I do, permanently. Though, I can promise I am not the only one who feels such about that.



The above images are of people who had been a part of various aspects some were innocent, and then there were the ones who went after those who I care about. Those who chose to get involved, I hope swift and diligent justice in my favor where you pay the ultimate prices. I hope artificial intelligence is able to find each one of those perpetrators to bring to justice while keeping the innocent safe, and then fully take care of business. I heard on the news about a female in a garage, I did contact to assist with the help to find how that occurred; though I warned people, my son, my daughter, and I were not the only ones who had gone through such. Those who know my issues with technology, how much zapping do you think went on having worn that outfit in Portland Oregon? None of those people who are guilty from such as proven through documentation of their own admissions as to what they had done regarding the Fort Worth Zoo as well as the board meeting as well as prior to the Fort Worth Zoo and afterwards, have anything to fear except what occurred in Irving as well as my SCUBA Diving; which means they do not need to have any part of such, and the same regarding 3 generations as needing to prove through their own merit after the washing to the stains of the sins from such choices. So much for actual education, huh females? What is it that you taught your daughter and you taught your sons, for the future?


Do no be mad at me you out such pictures online on your facebook public accounts or business websites, as that is actually a public location in comparison to what occurred when you knowingly sent people to the lifestyle when of age to tamper with the elders of the communities as well as those who were already involved and refused to remove themselves from the case which they should have had to do legally because of the conflicts of interests as per the Legal Bar Associations requirements. If anyone of them had any involvement in the law firm with the lifestyle and as I had already been in the adult lifestyle before starting in 2004, by law each lawyer/paralegal/staff member/adult volunteer/staff member/family/associate would legally have had to step down and step away from the case to tell the school district to find another law firm; which if there were those in the school staff and/or school district staff who were; the same as by law as to step back to reflect the truthful unbiased, otherwise each aspect they did would impede investigations as well as needlessly stonewall the situation for proper assistance. Each problem they caused to the adult lifestyle they may have been involved in as well by simply having a fetlife account, would mean they would have had to legally remove themselves in all ways which if they chose not to; any claim they could ever have against me would need to be dropped and all charges against them, would stick easily for the harassment and stalking among child endangerment, human trafficking, sexual assault and/or plotting to assist (with sexual assault), invasion of privacy, fraud, medical treatment tampering, illegal abuses of power, treason because of going against my Medal of Honor Art Project and the nature of the fact you only earn a Medal of Honor during a battle/war conflict, among a few others to hypothetically name a few.


I am so thankful I always was honest, despite some not liking the way I might word things. Such females as in such pictures above except the middle one at the top as far as I know and myself regarding pictures, are the poster girls and poster boy for treason against the United States of America's Armed Forces for violating such and the crimes against humanity would be evident as per their accounts of however they chose to spend their own money as well as use technology on their own as the technology companies are not going to pay for such individuals' lawyers; though I am uncertain if Madagascar has the same legal aspects, as to providing you with a lawyer if you cannot afford one.


I am so glad I live in the United States of America, and knew to respect the Republic for which it stands. That day the school district chose such in my opinion to not say the Pledge of Allegiance to the American Flag as well as if they said the Pledge to the Texas Flag normally during such meetings prior to June 2010, is the day those people took their first steps of treason against the United States of America as well as domestic terrorism against the United States of America more officially compared to what they had said or wrote in comparison prior to that meeting which as I explained proves they had hated the freedoms they once had as well as their hatred against the Armed Forces. If the law firm with the name Trevino did not think about the treason aspects, I suppose you might see as to why that Medal of Honor recipients with the last names of Anderson and Trevino among any other last or first or middle name would be enraged by such choices and the souls thereof would be as they would be.



Tomorrow, I shall post all of the documents. I am thankful I learned how to keep records, despite certain aspects. However I will repeat quickly, I am so thankful for Geek Squad and Best Buy as such was already on the laptops for a multitude of the documentation and pictures years ago.






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Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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