Virgo born in August = Peridot birthstone

When it snowed in Carrollton Texas my son and my daughter playing outside in the snow at what once was my home/house per the full destruction of what was of the most importance to me personally for my life of what meant the most in the entire world to me.  Since there is not any capacity of ever replacing my children per the specific points in time of such factors, the situations from that area of the state of Texas was and is the biggest regret of my life personally.  I wish I had reminded the individuals per suchy biological relation to my side of my biological children that the year of 2002 was the facts, and the only way they were ever going to make up to me personally what I fought against in the year of per the argument I described per the December 2002 timeframe.


There was only that exact point in time for me to raise my children I gave birth to, and since the facts are the facts that there is not any othyer time my children were biological minors per the facts that I personally carried in my uterus my children I personally gave birth to and since there is not anything the same in pictures being a labor/delivery factor per such reality; per the facts that once those situations were per such and per such the last time of anything good that I personally enjoyed doing per my life choices.


Thus since the situations that occurred where no one had any permissions from me personally to ever cause my son and/or my daughter and/or myself ever any such situations, I have not ever believed there was or is or could be any value of what I personally consider being value of my personal existence since nothing makes up for the factors thereof per the time ever and the emotional suffering I personally have endured because of such facts are irreversible because of the facts there is nothing that can be reversed.


Since the year of 2009 officially in the month of November, I fully have hated everything about my personal existence because of everything that occurred.  There is nothing about the timeframe from 2010 through 2013 that I would ever consider being in my best interests for me personally at all, because of the facts of what was most important to me personally.


The film developed pictures from the years of 2001 through 2010 that I personally took from the camera I purchased with the film I paid for and the developing I paid for for what was the most important time of what was the initial after effects time of my Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 head injury/TBI after effects, and thus there was nothing that was worthwhile in my entire life to me personally at all since the experiences just were not worth it to me personally for what I personally would ever consider being long term happiness for me at all whatsoever.


I have hated my life ever since the year of 2003 officially from the timeframe thereof, and since there has not been any real support for me personally per what my actual medical needs have been throughout this length of time the best I could was what was the best I could.  There has been nothing worthwhile to me personally about anything at all because of the personal factors of what I personally consider being successful for me personally, since the facts of what I personally consider per there not ever having been anyone with the human decwncy to ask me personally what I personally would prefer for myself since that is the one and only way to ever find out in truth.


If I were actually per what my personal considerations for myself per such exact point in time, then the exact point in time would have mattered more than to just me at the exact point in time when the most of importance.


I have misse3d being a Mom to my biological children and there is nothing that was ever going to replace that fact of what actually kept me the happiest while the times were, and there is nothing that could ever replace such factors thereof for me personally ever because of who I am.


Since such others have mistreated me this entire time referencing all such factors per the proof from my journal blog The Ornery PSA, I have comprehended my needs for my personal happiness per such exact point(s) in time.


If I were actually believed from the start then what was the most important time of my life to actually get the situations correct at the exact point in time, would have been where I could have actually been proud of something I actually have worked on instead of the most amount of emptiness per all such factors of my entire existence because of such factors proven per such situations.


The facts of the year of 1993 in the northeast of the United States of America and the facts of 11 September 2001, there was not anything I personally needed and required that was of the exact factors of the real needs that for such lengths of time per such factors where the situations have been proven to such factors thereof per such situations.  Thus if you were lucky enough to be with the child(ren) you personally carried within your personal uterus to personally sense all of the growth within the uterus as I had per such times of the years of 2001 and 2002, then the factors of the truth referencing the reality of life giving factors to the difference of the other types of situations.


I cannot bring myself to forgive those individuals now after such situations I had made such attempts in the year of 2019 through the year of 2021, because time exactly matters if life and living is actually per my considerations instead of the situations that occurred per what my considerations are about being truthfully cared about correctly.